In this episode, I talk openly about God after the death of my son, Brody—what my faith looks like now, what it doesn’t, and how it has changed in ways I never expected. I share my honest thoughts, doubts, anger, comfort, and the quiet moments where belief feels complicated but still present.

I also dive into what it’s like to parent after loss—how grief shows up in anxiety, how it lives in my body and my thoughts, and the things that genuinely help me when the fear gets loud. This isn’t about having it all figured out; it’s about surviving, regulating, and finding ways to feel safe in a world that no longer feels predictable.

Finally, I talk about the way Brody’s death reshaped how I show up in the world. The attitude I try to carry. The energy I try to contribute. The way loss softened me, sharpened me, and changed how I treat others—and myself.

I also talk about a lot of other random stuff too LOL

This episode is for anyone navigating faith after loss, parenting with grief, or trying to live gently and intentionally after their world has been shattered.

You’re not alone here. 🤍

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. This podcast is not in place of therapy. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own. I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

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https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/