In this episode, I get into something I think a lot of people carry around quietly: the relationship between self-awareness and the body. Specifically, my relationship with my skin, my relationship with exercise, and the moment I realised the patterns I had in one area were showing up everywhere else too.

From cystic acne and the all-or-nothing approach to skincare, to avoiding the gym because I couldn't bear to be seen not being good at something, I reflect on how much of what I was doing to "take care" of myself was actually about trying to earn something: desirability, validation, the right to take up space.

I also get into the beauty standards I absorbed growing up, from Disney Channel and Nickelodeon to early 2000s culture, and a conversation I came across online that made me realise the standard I'd been measuring myself against wasn't universal. It was constructed. And I'd never once questioned it.

This episode also introduces a new recurring segment, Uncomfortably Honest, where I say the thing I probably would have softened or talked around a few sentences ago.

If you've ever done all the right things for completely the wrong reasons, this one's for you.

Disclaimer: This episode discusses skin picking, body image, weight loss, fitness and appearance.