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Fatherhood Killed My Ego, with SOHN

Fatherhood Killed My Ego, with SOHN

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We all carry around an idea of success—the job promotion we crave, the car that’ll make strangers on the street crane their necks in jealousy, the beautiful house that turns visitors quiet as they walk through the front door. Fewer ask where these ideas come from. Mostly, they’re absorbed from our parents, from culture, and from the other dads we compare ourselves to without meaning to.We spend our lives chasing these ghosts. But nobody warns you what’s on the other side—what might happen if you get everything you wanted and end up feeling hollow. For this month’s podcast, I sat down with my good friend Toph—known to the rest of the world as SOHN, the British artist and producer behind the albums Tremors and Trust. SOHN signed a record deal with 4AD, played Coachella and the late-night US TV circuit, and has spent well over a decade living the “artist dream” while raising three boys. Six years ago, we met in the lift of a Barcelona hotel, and eventually bonded over something neither of us saw coming: an episode of depression after the birth of our second child.We pulled each other through that dark time, with long walks and honest conversations. Just before the launch of his fourth album Albadas (Dawn Songs), we sat down in his studio to talk about all of it. This is the most honest conversation about success, money and creative identity I’ve ever heard from a dad in the public eye. We talk about his five-year creative block, the album that only arrived when he stopped writing as SOHN and started writing as a dad, what it does to your head when your creative output is tied to the food you put on your kids’ plates—and why, when what he was chasing turned out to be a trap, he sold the dream house, killed the ego he’d spent so long protecting, and started again.Listen and Subscribe On …SpotifyApple PodcastsYouTubePocket CastsWhere to Find SOHN* SOHN’s website* His new ambient album Albadas (Dawn Songs)—stream it everywhere or grab the limited vinyl/CD on Bandcamp* Trust—the album we discuss throughout, drenched in themes of fatherhood* Follow him on InstagramEpisode References* Trust (2022)—SOHN’s third album, written after a five-year block* Tremors (2014) and “The Wheel”—where the world first heard SOHN* The Streets—the Mike Skinner problem: what do you write about when the drama’s gone?* Oasis, Be Here Now—the Rolls-Royce in the swimming pool* Elliott Smith and Nick Drake—and the myth of great art made in depression* Kevin’s essay: “How to Raise Tiny Humans Without Losing Your Mind”—The Tunnel, and coming out of it at five yearsTimestamps0:00 — a new definition of success0:46 — a conversation between good friends2:01 — the fantasy of the artistic dream4:14 — neck pain and stress7:09 — what shocked SOHN about fatherhood: patience, autonomy, silence8:50 — from one kid to two kids12:58 — paternal postnatal depression14:51 — great artist vs. stable force: the identity collision18:44 — the five-year creative block20:42 — having nothing to say22:26 — Tundra, the record nobody heard24:20 — early struggling musician days25:06 — the buffet of success27:57 — signing with the guy whose music he hated31:52 — losing the compass33:42 — depression as a weather system35:13 — the myth of making great art while depressed36:51 — at peace with the kids, at war with yourself39:28 — the head f**k of creative money: “we’re screwed” to “we’re rich” overnight44:04 — selling the dream house47:27 — imposter syndrome49:25 — Trust: giving up as a creative strategy53:39 — when the fears came true55:39 — the ego death journey58:33 — listen up, parents: it gets easier1:00:34 — where are all my friends?1:05:34 — alternative to climbing the social ladder1:07:03 — three boys watch their dad on stageCreditsHost: Kevin MaguireManaging Producer: Elizabeth Van BrocklinSound Editor: Sam WilliamsTheme Music: SOHN Get full access to The New Fatherhood at www.thenewfatherhood.org/subscribe
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