This one started as I was washing a mug that I never knew I had .... and then turns into making talking about Signs that help when you lose someone that you loved. Being open, and receptive to the idea that just maybe ... there is more out there then just this? And that just maybe... your loved ones will be able to guide you more from HEAVEN than they ever could when they were here on Earth. Maybe making the little change of looking around for a sign ... a song, a number, a phrase ... it could be anything that means something to YOU ... that makes you FEEL ... feel Something!

Yesterday ... the song "Wind Beneath My Wings" came on ... out of nowhere. Haven't heard that song since Middle School, but always a song that hit my heart (probably because of the movie Beaches that was probably the saddest movie I had ever experienced EVER at that age).

But as this song came on yesterday ... I listened to the words ... "Did you ever know that You're my Hero ... and everything I would like to Be ... I could fly higher than an Eagle... For you are the wind beneath my Wings. " - Dad ... you are giving me Wings ... just like you always told me "Zib .. you can do anything you put your mind to ... You can Fly." I love you so much Dada.

This one came to me while I was putting away the dishes .... just a thought about how different it is when you can hear someone's voice ... but not have to commit to an actual phone call, but when you need more than just a text message. Of course it also starts to go in many different directions ... but somehow it always finds its way back ... thank you for all hanging in there with me so far! Hope you are enjoying "Mr. Toad's Wild Ride" .... (disney world reference) ... Dad used to use that one a lot lol. Anyway, thanks for listening!

This one starts with me feeling pretty aggravated and a bit defeated. But by the end, I am in a much better place ... so I am happy I recorded when I did ... I just needed to talk it through. I hope this one helps for those out there that ARE OK ... but you are feeling like others don't believe you. It is also for the ones that are WORRIED that someone is NOT OK... ask them once, if they tell you they are, and their actions do not show otherwise, please just be happy for the version of themselves that deep down you knew they were always meant to be.

"You you have so many relationships in this life, only one or two will last. You go through all the pain and strife, then you turn your back and they're gone so fast." - MmmBop - Hanson.

Whether you like boy bands or not, I invite you to listen to this episode that talks about stopping and remembering what it is that you LOVE, and making sure you make time for that in your life.

So this HANSON episode one is another dedicated to you Dad, who woke up at 4am many years ago, taking me, my sister, cousins, and friends to see Hanson at Arthur Ashe Stadium in QUEENS, New York ... and never complained! In fact he was leading the charge!

I love you Dad ... and will ALWAYS and forever be a Hanson Fan!

This one starts with the frustrations of shoveling snow for the first time in my life .... and then ends up talking about Celine Dion, Divorce, Self-Harm, the movie Ghost, and how I feel like Whoopie Goldberg talking to My Dad in Heaven! And of course, at the ending off with the message we all should know by now.... please keep holding onto that H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain Ends.

Let's Lighten this place up after that last one! This is definitely one that was fun to make .. because it went in a different direction as I kept talking! For those of you out there ... who sometimes just hear a song lyric ... or connect with a song and you don't understand why ... this one is for you! After you listen to this episode, I ask that you create a NEW playlist on Spotify ... called "H.O.P.E" and fill it with songs that have meant something to you at different stages of your life ... to remind you, how far you have come, and the adventure of H.O.P.E that lies ahead of you!

TRIGGER WARNING - This episode discusses heavy themes of Suicide Ideations. Please do not listen if this is something that is difficult for you (or if you know me, love me, and would have missed me... bc this is a very hard to hear).

This is by far, the most emotional episode I have shared so far. I would not recommend listening while driving ... (especially after my last episode about the detours)! But this one is very real ... and I think SO many people who are struggling out there NEED to hear this. Keep holding onto that H.O.P.E - Hang. On. Pain. Ends.

This was an epiphany I had (while going to the bathroom... but that is besides the point)! About a time years ago, where I took on responsibility for something that happened to my sister, because of MY illness. The crazy thing? After I recorded this, but before posting it, I sent it to my Sister ... and she sent me back a voice note, saying that she wanted me to know, when she looks back on this... she NEVER had any connection that MY illness had ANYTHING to do with what happened to her... and she also shared, that the feeling I am having at this moment .. this drive and passion, and feeling like "this is exactly what I should be doing at this moment" ... is how she felt, after she lost the job, and started on her new journey. She said "Sis, I've never been happier that my life took that detour ... so, I am giving YOU the green light now! Keep going sis .. follow those signs, prepare for greatness."