• Season Two Finale on ACTIVISM
    Jun 14 2025
    I'd hoped to make season two an even 20 episodes again, but there's more important work to be done right now.... Transcript: Well, I had hoped to have three more episodes before closing for the summer, but I had a long month and a half off after my dad's passing, and I didn't get back on until last, uh, two weeks ago. And in the meantime, our country seems to be in quite a bit of turmoil. Our world seems to be in quite a bit of turmoil and I don't feel comfortable kind of moving merrily along on my path, just ignoring that at this point in time. I've always been an activist, at least at heart. I have only been an activist actively since I was about 30, when I adopted my daughter, but. I think I was meant to be an activist 'cause I picked it up and ran with it. And, uh, so I feel like that's where I need to pour my efforts right now. A lot of heartbreaking things going on in our country. A lot of shock and awe, which is just part of the plan with this administration, but also just legitimate, heartbreaking. Things happening. A US center senator in California was thrown to the ground by the FBI in his own federal building in his own state after having been invited there by the feds. And, it just seems particularly interesting that they invited him there and provoked him to speak and, um, speak the truth and then threw him to the ground and handcuffed him. That I just can't get over that, that is like so rattling to me that I can't talk about anything else right now. And today I'm recording on Saturday, the day before this is going live. And today is No King's Day, otherwise known as Trump's birthday and, Flag Day and the 250th anniversary of the military or the army. A lot of things today. It's a, it's a very momentous day and I've already been to one demonstration and I'm headed out in an hour to go to another one. And that's what's giving me life right now. I can't even talk about breast cancer advocacy because I've gotta get out in the streets and do the thing that brings me hope. Um, but I wanted to share, for those of you who are intentionally ignoring the news the way that I did up until a few months ago, I wanted to share some of the things I've been learning. That do affect us in all of this as breast cancer survivors and patients. And I think the most upsetting thing to me is this, um, what they're calling the big beautiful bill in Congress and, um, all of the damage it will do to Medicare and Medicaid patients. We've already seen a lot of our breast cancer research funds go away. They're gonna be going away permanently in the fall, but they're starting to dwindle already now. And I, I would encourage you to not give up on breast cancer research and do what you can to contribute to research through organizations like the Breast Cancer Research Foundation and Komen and other local research, uh, providers so that we can keep as many scientists in our country as possible because a lot of them are already leaving for Europe, where they'll be paid to do what they're good at. But I also wanna talk about the VA. Uh, the fact that VA is slated to lose 83,000 employees and the VA already serves breast cancer patients really poorly right now, they are stretched thin on the budget that they have right now. And so just imagine 83,000 employees going away Our veterans who, largely because of their service in the military, are being exposed to the toxins that cause breast cancer are going to be left out in the rain, out in the cold and not served sufficiently at all. And that is really tragic to me. I did wanna say one thing that I was hoping to say in this episode, the episode that followed my interview with Nanette. Uh, before I go for the summer, I wanna say, uh, there was a reference in my interview with Nanette where I kind of was shocked and showed my shock very candidly. And, um, that was because I had just read, a review of, of trial, of studies, making it clear that CT scans are extremely dangerous for us cancer patients and for people in general, especially when they're performed over and over again in close proximity, like within a year of each other. So I was really shocked to hear that she got regular CT scans as a part of her trial, and I think that's pretty common. Trials are there to see if drugs are working, and the way to see if drugs are working is scans. Um, and CT scans are among the best. And so of course trials are gonna be set up and designed to require a lot of scans. I think. It's really hopeful to me that, um, we still have some research money here in the US for breast cancer and the research money that we do have still here in the US is the kind that, requires things like patient involvement in studies. And I just became a patient advocate on a, on a study myself that hasn't been funded yet. Hopefully it will be funded, but it's, it's in the application process for funding. Going to a different source than the national, the federal funding that's been ...
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  • Yoga for Breast Cancer with Nanette Labastida
    Jun 1 2025
    My colleague and friend Nanette has been leading yoga for breast cancer survivors for the past few years in her community of Austin Texas, even as she's navigated the tough journey of recurrent metastatic disease in her bones. I think you'll love her spirit as she shares her story... Link to yoga4cancer: https://yoga4cancer.com/ Transcript: Today's guest is Nanette Labastida. She's in Austin, Texas, and she and I have been ambassadors together for Stand Tall AFC over the years. She is a realtor by trade, and her passion is yoga, which we'll talk about at the end of the interview. But I want to start out by asking Nanette about her background, diagnosis, and current, uh, treatment plans. Welcome Nanette. Hi, I am so excited to be here and chat with you. So yeah my history, my background diagnosis, I was originally diagnosed in 2010. I was 42, um, with breast cancer and it, it was--back then I didn't really pay that much attention to the words-- but I do know that it was ER/PR positive and HER2 negative. And I had chemo, like four rounds of chemo, no radiation. Um, and I had a mastectomy with implants, you know, with, uh, expanders and then implants. And I did tamoxifen for four years. and then in 2019 I explanted to flat. And so that's when I joined that community. It wasn't necessarily through any. um, implant illness Um, it was more like discomfort and never feeling like myself and knowing that at some point they'd need to be changed out and I'd rather not. I had the ability to do it timing wise and insurance wise--zero regrets. And then in 2022, um, I was diagnosed with, uh, stage four metastatic breast cancer. Um, so it was a recurrence, with mets to few spots in my bones, rib pelvis, and a couple on my spine. I think, um, a collarbone lymph node here, which is really the thing that got me into the oncologist. Thank goodness. And pleural effusion around my lungs. Uh oh. And then I started, uh, treatment at that time I was actually qualified for a, a clinical trial. My doctors did some research immediately and just based on like all the factors of my previous treatment and the type of cancer, all the stuff I, I entered this trial called the Serena--I might not remember the exact name of the trial, but the trial was a blind trial in which I was taking (a CDK4/6) Ibrance, taking two other pills. One was. Anastrozole. The other pill was a new drug called "SERD," or a placebo. So I would take both of them not knowing if I was getting which med I was getting. So I was getting treatment, I just didn't know which one. Okay. And it turned out in the end. Now, you just recently found out, uh, that you were on the blind arm of the trial, which means you were only taking a CDK4/6 inhibitor. It turns out I was not taking the SERD, the new trial drug, which was the blinded. So I was taking anastrozole, so I was on what I'd have been on if I wasn't on the trial, like the standard is like almost everybody or you know, a lot of people, they just do the, the CDK4/6 inhibitor and the AI and that's what I ended up being on for three years, almost three years. I didn't get the trial drug, which I've heard that it might be out later this year--a SERD on the market--an oral SERD. It's, it's, I think you had someone recently talking about fluvestrant and that's a SERD. Um, so it's kind of less, less quality of life and, and they all work a little differently anyway... For the sake of listeners who don't know what a SERD is, um, I personally got it mixed up with SERM, which is very similar. So there's selective estrogen receptor modulator. Or a SERD is the newer drug, which is a selective estrogen receptor disruptor. I believe those are the words. Degrader. Degrader, okay. Thank you. So it's, it's actually degrading the receptor site so that the receptor can't receive estrogen, right? Is that the mechanism? That's the mechanism, and so it's similar to an AI's to an aromatase inhibitor, but from a different like angle is what I understand. Well, it's similar to Tamoxifen, I think. Tamoxifen is a SERM where it's a, um, modulator, so it'll, it'll block the receptor so a SERM sits in the receptor and blocks it from receiving any oth other estrogens where a degrader, I think destroys the actual receptor. I love talking about the science. I, uh, I, I'm learning more and more, you know, especially 'cause I'm sort of such in the depths of it. And I also, like last year, attended the San Antonio Breast Cancer Symposium, um, as a patient advocate. And it, I, I'm so glad I did in this progression because I am so aware now you know, and I can bring them up to my doctor. It was. It I thought it was like too much information, but there's definitely some that like settled. Awesome. Yeah, me too. I'm, I'm hooked. Yeah. Okay. So tell us about what happened. So you had Mets in 22. Okay. That's when you started the trial right away, when you started with your diagnosis of Mets. So that's three years ago. And then just this year in 2025,...
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  • Reflecting on Integrative Oncology
    Apr 20 2025
    Just a quick episode reflecting on Heather's story and the difference between "functional" or "integrative medicine" and "alternative" medicine. Subscribe on: APPLE PODCASTS - SPOTIFY Join my Newsletter List here: https://abreastcancerdiary.substack.com Heather's web site is: https://heatherjose.com/ and her podcast is here on YouTube at: https://www.youtube.com/@ImStillHereCancer/videos Kathleen does zoom based peer navigation/mentoring sessions now. Schedule a session here for a sliding scale of $35 to $95 per hour long session: https://kathleenmoss.simplybook.me/ Transcript:  Those of you listening on the day that this episode is released, happy Easter to you if you celebrate Easter. I'm just here again just me reflecting on some of the things we talked about in the last episode with my guest, Heather Jose. Her episode was packed full of controversial issues and I'm just gonna cover a couple of them today. And also wanted to give you a heads up that I may not be putting out episodes in the next couple of weeks. I've had a couple of guests cancel and have to reschedule, and then my dad just passed away this last week, and so I'm not able to reschedule with them soon. I do still intend to put out, um. Maybe three or four or more episodes before I take a break for the summer though. So I will be back at some point probably in May and not in April. Um, but don't worry, I haven't finished this season quite yet. So just to get back to last week's episode and some of the topics discussed with Heather, I wanted to talk about her complimentary or integrative, uh, approach to her oncology, the fact that she worked in tandem with both the conventional system and the lifestyle medicine system. This can be really confusing for folks who aren't familiar with. The world of functional medicine or even nature paths. There are so many different types of cancer experts, so-called experts in the world, and some of them are, are highly, you know, board certified and backed up with lots and lots of education and others of them may not be. All of them claim to have some interest in some kind of research, or usually they do, but not all of them have really solid research behind their practices, and so this can be really confusing and really expensive and kind of scary for the typical patient to explore. I have a background, personally, I'm a functional nutritionist, so I have a lot of experience with telling these kinds of schools of thought apart. And unfortunately in cancer there's a lot of quackery. I think there always has been. Throughout history with cancer. There's a lot of, um, people making false claims or really, really naive claims without a lot of research behind them. And this. Movie that we talked about that Heather and I were talking about briefly in the last episode that just came out on Netflix recently called Apple Cider Vinegar is a really good example of a couple of different really scary elements, um, in this kind of shady practice. In the movie Apple Cider Vinegar, which I'm not sure if you'll be able to watch as a cancer patient. For me, it was excruciating. It took me a couple of months to get through this very short series of episodes because it was just so painful and uncomfortable and cringey for me to watch. Just, just a really unfortunate story that seems to be somewhat true, um, that takes place in Australia. But, uh, there were two elements that were disturbing. One was that this one character in, in the film, which the film kind of was focused on, was completely lying. She was a sociopath and coming up with dietary measures for people to fix or. Cure their cancer through As someone who had never had cancer and was claiming to have cured her own cancer, that really never existed. Of course, that is a bizarre and disturbing story to watch for anyone. I. But then there were a couple of other characters in the movie that were kind of,, carrying on a claim for themselves, and they did have cancer. they were looking into all the alternative to conventional medicine options that were out there in the world. There were things in Mexico and South America and, um, different in indigenous practices and. , it didn't go into all the details of all of them, but the really poignant part of the story was the death of, of one woman who became kind of a thought leader and influencer of other cancer patients. And all the while her cancer had been progressing and she was denying that. And, it's a really good wake up call for those who are seeking the alternative kind of solution to cancer in in our world right now. I think we need to have that kind of sobering reality brought to us every once in a while, and yet people like my guest, Heather Jose, do feel like lifestyle changes, diet and exercise and stress. Related and sleep related changes in their lifestyle have made all the difference. So there is, there is something to the lifestyle end of things. And I think for ...
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  • 26 Year Metastatic Thriver, Heather Jose
    Apr 13 2025
    My guest Heather has been thriving with metastatic breast cancer for nearly 27 years! How did she do it? She feels that it's a combination of things--not necessarily the trial on stem cell therapy combined with high-dose chemo. She feels that her long-term drug, Faslodex, as well as lifestyle choices around nutrition, exercise and mindset are key in her success. Heather's web site is: https://heatherjose.com/ and her podcast is on YouTube at: https://www.youtube.com/@ImStillHereCancer/videos Kathleen does zoom based peer navigation/mentoring sessions now. Schedule a session here for a sliding scale of $35 to $95 per hour long session: https://kathleenmoss.simplybook.me/ Transcript: Today's podcast guest is Heather Jose. She's from Mount Pleasant, Michigan, and she's an occupational therapist, and the most remarkable thing to know about her is that she's a 26 year post metastatic breast cancer survivor and thriver. And that's a main reason why I have her on the podcast today. I've never met anyone that has lived that long and thrived that long after a metastatic diagnosis. I'm so excited to have you, Heather. H: Thank you. It's great to be here. K: Thanks for coming on. So a huge part of your story is, well, you're, you're a podcaster too, and you tell your story in an informal YouTube and podcast setting. Uh, there in your home with your husband usually, and sometimes your kids are, are joining to tell their part of your story. Um, so people can learn about your entire journey just by looking at back episodes of your podcast. But. I wanna hear what you feel you did differently than maybe some of the people you meet who have had metastatic breast cancer and how your path was maybe a little bit different than the conventional path after being diagnosed. Oh. Start out by telling us if you had an early diagnosis before your metastatic diagnosis. H: No, I was diagnosed de novo, so stage four from the start. Um. I think, and I, looking back, I was 26 when it happened, and I think some of what worked for me was being a little bit naive about a lot of things, right? I look at, my daughter is now 27 and doing great at life, but you know, there's a lot that you learn over the course of time, right? So I think it helped me to be able to just kind of go into this going, well, okay, how do I, how do I stay here? How do I figure this out without knowing, I don't know, even the gravity of all of it. K: Sure. Absolutely. And did you, how many months or years did you stay with just conventional treatment before branching out into integrative treatment? H: Well, the, my first doctor told me to get my affairs in order, I stayed with him for about 20 minutes and we were done forever. The, the next oncologist that I talked to was the next day. She told me even on that phone call, "drink some green tea, eat some fruits and vegetables and we'll start killing cancer on Monday." And it was so empowering, like, SO empowering. Here's a oncologist from the University of Michigan who you know, is renowned in her field and, and, she's telling me like, go get some green tea and it was the best thing ever for me. And that of course kind of was like, okay, what can I do? so right from there we started to do some research. And when I say we, I should say my mom, because I knew early on that I could not handle all the information coming in. I knew that it, I just needed to kind of protect my mind and kinda keep myself in a bubble. So she started doing, some exploration of, you know, what else is available that could help kind of bring pieces, of knowledge to the table. Because even at that time, and I, I know nutrition's tricky anyway, and I know you've talked about some of this, right? But you'll, somebody will tell you "a calorie is a calorie" and somebody else will say, "no, you have to do this." And we wanted somebody who was like, no, what we would like you to do is this, and the reason why is because the research has shown the way to go. So we actually found, um, an integrative oncologist early on. I, I was seeing him, I was diagnosed in December and I went to see him in February. K: And this is Dr. Block. H: This is Dr. Keith Block. So, yeah, and he's, um, he's in Skokie, Illinois now. He was in Evanston at the time, but they're just neighboring towns. And, um, it was so, it felt so good to me to be there, to have them kind of say, yeah, we'll, we'll help you kind of put together a plan, but also the reason why we're doing this is we're gonna look at these labs, or we know what this study says. All of that kind of information was great. I felt like I could just, you know, really rely on them. K: So when you went to see Dr. Block, did you leave the green tea oncologist behind or did you continue to work with her? H: No. She's still my oncologist. I mean, and, and I went to Dr. Block saying, Hey, I've got this great oncologist and what do you think of this plan? And he said, I think that's a great plan. And here's what, you know, ...
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  • Giving Back Through Breast Cancer Advocacy
    Apr 6 2025
    Today's episode is part two of my advocacy series. I hope it's helpful, but if volunteerism and advocacy isn't your thing, I'll have more stories from guests coming up in the next two weeks! Subscribe on: APPLE PODCASTS - SPOTIFY - AMAZON Join my Newsletter Mailing List: https://abreastcancerdiary.substack.com Links: NBCC: https://stopbreastcancer.org LBCA: https://lobularbreastcancer.org Tigerlily Foundation (WOC, young ambassadors locally): https://angel.tigerlilyfoundation.org/ Inflammatory Breast Cancer Network: https://theibcnetwork.org/ Project Life MBC (metastatic): https://www.projectlifembc.com/ Project Life MBC/LGBTQ: https://www.projectlifembc.com/project-outreach MBC Alliance (metastatic): https://www.mbcalliance.org/members/ Triple Negative Foundation: https://tnbcfoundation.org/ Stand Tall AFC: https://standtallafc.org Not Putting on a Shirt: https://notputtingonashirt.org/whcra/ Make Cancer Less Shitty: https://www.makecancerlessshitty.com/our-ambassadors Young Survival Coalition (science and legislation): https://youngsurvival.org The Breasties: https://thebreasties.org/ For the Breast of Us (women of color, national): https://www.breastofus.com/on-podcast/ Cancer Culture (for metastatic patients, event driven, in Virginia): https://www.cancerculture.org/ Today, it's just me again, and I'm going to be talking about advocacy again, this is part two of my two part series on advocacy for breast cancer patients or former patients who are thrivers and survivors. And my first, if you heard. Didn't hear my first edition, uh, to this series. It was about the less intense ways to become an advocate. The ways to just dip your feet in the water and try it out. Uh, less commitment, less intensity, less time involvement, less, less longevity to the commitment that was last week. Now, this week I'm gonna be talking about the kinds of ways to become an advocate that are longer term, more time intensive, not necessarily, you know. Something you couldn't do in your evenings and weekends if you're still working full-time, but, uh, a little bit more hardcore advocacy. And like I said last week, it's mainly in the niche areas, in the edges or the margins of breast cancer that you find opportunities to become an advocate, but not always. So I'm gonna start out by talking about the more mainstream organizations that support breast cancer advocates, the ones that aren't fitting into any of those niche, margin. Topics or populations. So, as you may have guessed, Komen and the American Cancer Society are two of the most visible organizations that work with breast cancer survivors. Long term, they have mixed reviews. They're, you either love them or you hate 'em. People who are critical of them are critical because a lot of the dollars they raise go back towards the bureaucracy of running their very, very large infrastructure organizations. So it's a little bit of criticism there. They're doing the best they can, making improvements, aware that they're being criticized. Komen will tend to want to partner with people around just fundraising and awareness raising and visibility for their campaigns. They have a couple of different campaigns nationwide. The main one is More than Pink and that's just their walks in different towns and cities, you can show up there, bring a team and , get your team to raise money for them, raise visibility for them, and they will be very happy. The other thing that Komen does is they train science advocates and their program is called Advocates in Science. AIS and once you sign up for that, you'll wanna look in your email inbox to make sure and catch all the a IS emails. I am an advocate in science with Komen, and sometimes I don't know the name of the person that's emailing me from them, but usually they'll put the, the, um, letters A IS in the email. So it's a very hands off. Uh, advocacy training, it's all online. It's very impersonal. You don't actually get to know any one person in particular. And that, for me, was hard. I like to do a little bit more personal work and be mentored and, I don't know, see people in person when possible. So, AIS is a really good program that I recommend for those of you who are maybe introverts who don't wanna travel across the country. To go to an in-person advocacy training. And again, that is science advocacy. That is a very particular brand of advocacy. We have mainly two brands of advocacy, um, education and science, and then there's fundraising for those that wanna just do fundraising. So to, oh, and then there's actually, there's four that I'm gonna talk about today. So education, that's peer-to-peer. Uh, sometimes you can educate your clinician. Usually you're not trying to do that. And uh, science is usually with regard to educating yourself in terms of research so that you can go and be, an advocate in the research community. And then fundraising obviously is really easy. You just go out and raise funds ...
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  • The ABC's of Breast Cancer Advocacy
    Mar 31 2025
    Today I'm just talking from my own experience about some of the simpler ways to "stay in" the breast cancer community as an active advocate. Here are some of the organizations that came up: After Breast Cancer Diagnosis gives and trains mentors here: https://abcdbreastcancersupport.org/ Stand Tall AFC is the flat visibility organization that I work for: https://standtallafc.org Lobular Breast Cancer Alliance welcomes advocates of all types: https://lobularbreastcancer.org Wildfire Magazine is here: https://www.wildfirecommunity.org/ AskEllyn's blog is here: https://askellyn.ai/lifestyle-blog-sharing-breast-cancer-wisdom-stories/ Blessing Box, out of Texas, is here: https://blessingboxproject.com/ Knitted Knockers is here: https://www.knittedknockers.org/ Transcript: Today I want to talk about advocacy, and I realize that I have so much to say on this subject that I think I'm gonna do two episodes on it. So, this will be the first of two in a two-part series, and I think this is a really important topic. I kind of wish that I had addressed it earlier. I've had a lot of folks asking me about advocacy lately, and it's a tricky topic because you don't really approach it in the same way in other parts of life. Um, we don't see a lot of people, uh, for example, you know, when you get diabetes, you don't hear about diabetic advocates, but you do in the breast cancer community a lot. And I think it's because it's a women's health issue. And women's health issues, usually they involve some amount of maybe injustice or a lack of power, or a lack of notoriety, traditionally. I think that that is not true at this point about breast cancer, but for whatever reason, the breast cancer community has really pushed itself into the public eye in so many different ways. And so now being an advocate in this space is very normative. And yet most people don't know as they enter the breast cancer community as a new patient, what it really means to be an advocate. And if they have permission to be an advocate. So advocacy is actually one of the main reasons that I started this podcast. I wanted to tell the stories of all of the amazing advocates that I've met in the world, and I meet more and more every year, and I never seem to run out of interesting advocacy stories, and yet I've never really qualified that... I've never said, well, this is today's advocate is as I'm interviewing people. So I've done a poor job of defining what an advocate is and. That's mostly because it's pretty hard to define. It is so broad reaching and multifaceted, and it can be very simple or it can be very complex. And so today I wanna talk about the ways to do advocacy that are simple. And next week I'm gonna talk about the ways to do advocacy that are a little bit more complex and involve a little more education and oversight. Uh, maybe some mentoring, maybe some coaching from others along the way. So first I wanna define my. Kind of idea of what it means to be an advocate in this context. Unfortunately, the word advocate stems from a Latin word, which means lawyer. And so a lot of people when they hear this word advocate, they think about legal spaces. And I, most of all, because I actually had one of my, uh, most recent jobs actually was working for, uh, the foster care community. . There's an organization that's a national organization called CASA, which is court appointed special advocates, is what CASA stands for. And CASAs are volunteers that go into the court system and advocate for foster kids in a way that their attorneys can't. And I won't go into that because it's a totally different subject, but like most people, I have the same association of the legal system when I hear the word advocate, but in our culture and in our language, advocate means something different. It means supporter of a cause or public support of a cause or a group. And that's what we mean when we stand in the breast cancer community and use the word advocate or the word advocacy. We just mean support and raising your voice in some way. Or doing an action in some way that supports this cause or this group, or in most cases, a subgroup of this larger group of breast cancer patients and breast cancer science and all the different ways that we need to be active in breast cancer. And so the simple ways that you can do that, uh, and still call yourself an advocate legitimately, are to raise visibility and support in any of the niches that are involved in breast cancer culture. So first off, visibility. What does that look like? Well, it means raising awareness and showing up in groups where there's under, or misrepresentation of a minority group. So in breast cancer, there are many minority groups. There are the typical minority groups which have to do with race and gender, and then we have other minorities that have to deal with subgroups of diagnoses and, um, subgroups of, of breast cancer itself. So we have the triple negative subgroup that ...
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  • Reflections, New Substack
    Mar 23 2025
    Subscribe on: APPLE PODCASTS - SPOTIFY - AMAZON Join my Newsletter List here: https://abreastcancerdiary.substack.com Transcript: Hello friends and happy Spring. I do not have a guest today, and that might be shocking to some of you who've just started listening to this podcast because for the last five episodes I've had guests and that is really unusual. From the very beginning in season one, I always did one podcast episode with a guest and then followed it up with some commentary and reflection on what we talked about. But for many reasons, this last month and a half has been different. And I've just done guest after guest after guest, uh, mostly because some of the guests had messages that were very time sensitive and I wanted to get their messages out. So, um. For example, Lori, who was the coach for the Dragon Boat team, uh, she wanted to tell her story because Dragon boat season has just begun, and I wanted folks to be able to learn about dragon boating in time to join them for the beginning of the season. At least here in the northwest, the season starts after daylight savings changes. So, um, wanted to get that out. And then this last interview with Christine Handy was extremely time, time sensitive because she wanted to get all of the breast cancer survivors and flatties and. Their caregivers and loved ones into the theater on April 1st, uh, for her screening. And at the moment that screening is sold out, she is trying to get a bigger theater. So if you've tried to get tickets recently and were turned away, you might try again in a week because they may secure a bigger theater within, uh, the man's Chinese theater. Kind of complex of theaters, so, uh, that's something you might keep trying if you really wanna join us there in person. And I have to say that if you're watching on YouTube today, you'll notice that I look very tired, and that's been true for the weeks since I got back from Las Vegas. Those of you who have subscribed to my newsletter and followed me on Substack, uh, you will know that I had a trip to Las Vegas. Usually lasts around five days around my husband's archery tournament there. It's a worldwide gathering of archers, huge tournament that we go to just about every year. And I think the number of anesthesias that I've been through at this point, combined with all the smoke and just general anxiety that is present for me in Las Vegas, especially when I'm staying on the strip, which we did this time, which just extremely tiring and. Reminds me that I do have a small amount of chronic fatigue syndrome, that I do have to, uh, work to get past some of these barriers with fatigue and, and energy loss. So I'm still fighting my way out of that hole. But I'm here because I have so many things to talk to you about. Uh, first off, I want to tell everyone that I did get an ultrasound this last week and it came back clear. So I'd been waiting , post-surgery to get my. Final ultrasound to make sure that there was not still a suspicious lymph node the way that they thought there was. In my last ultrasound, uh, I had a excisional biopsy surgery in January, so I guess it's just been two months. Anyway, I. So I had all the inflammation from surgery. They couldn't go in into an ultrasound until that inflammation calmed down and I just had that ultrasound this last week and it came back clear indicating that it really was never a lymph node. Um, it was probably a complex cyst that ruptured sometime just before my surgery, and that's why there's no evidence of it in any of my, um, my excisional biopsy tissue. So that's good news. I don't have to worry about having a recurrence, uh, which I was pretty sure was the case, but I just had this final step that I needed to wait for and see myself through, and very reassuringly. My radiologist did not even come into the room to talk to me this time, which never happens. That's the first time I've ever not had her come in the room to talk to me after an ultrasound. So that was very reassuring. Uh, so I just wanted to share that news off the bat. And then I just wanted to go back and reflect on all of these lovely interviews that I've had over the last five weeks. Um, the first couple were, as I had told you, they would be, were with a couple of pretty good friends of mine, folks that I see every couple of weeks on average. Um. Brenda is just a local super close buddy of mine that, um, has had a lot of struggles and we've grown close through her struggles. Um, and through our connection through the breast cancer journey, we both went through breast cancer right about the same time, and she had a much longer treatment plan than I did. So she's just come out of her treatment not that long ago. And, um. Brenda is someone who, unlike a lot of folks that I. Tend to shine the spotlight on in my Instagram and other community posts, I find there are some people that are not celebrating their new body after breast cancer. You know, shockingly, of course. No. ...
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  • Fashion Model Gone Flat: Christine Handy
    Mar 15 2025
    My friend Christine joins me on this week's podcast to tell her story of explant and continued success as a model after her second "mastectomy," going flat and embracing her concave chest publicly on the runway. Her new biopic is coming out on April first in LA and she's invited us breast cancer survivors to come. Shoot me an email to find out how. kathleenmoss@protonmail.com Listen Here ...and Subscribe on: APPLE PODCASTS - SPOTIFY - AMAZON Join my Newsletter List here: https://abreastcancerdiary.substack.com Resources: We spoke about Christine's new film premiering on April first. Here's the Preview! You can buy tickets to join us here, but be sure you can come first because we really want to fill these seats! The organization that Christine and I know each other through is Stand Tall AFC Transcript: My guest today is my friend, Christine Handy. She is a breast cancer disruptor and a fashion model living in Miami, Florida, and now she's a film producer—just recently. Her breast cancer diagnosis was hormone positive lobular breast cancer. And she started out with implants, and that's really what I want to ask her about first today is the journey of the implants and what that story looked like for you as a model, as a fashion model. How did that disrupt your life? C: Well, I think originally breast cancer disrupted my job. That was in fact, I really wasn't planning on going back to modeling until I had implants for seven years and I really did love them, but they did not love me. And so seven years into it, I would say to my oncologist after my treatment, "Why am I still so foggy? Why do I still have joint pain? Why do I still feel this? Why do I have all these questions?" Because they were pinpointing the longitude of these symptoms on the amount of chemo I had, instead of looking at the fact that I had implants. And so I never thought that it was the implants until ultimately I had a MRSA infection in the implant and they were excavated. In an emergency situation, because I almost died the night that they were excavated, I had 104 fever and, um, it was, it had not gone into my organs, thank God, but MRSA is very dangerous. And so when I was, after I lost my implants and I woke up, it was during COVID and there was nobody allowed in the hospital. So I woke up from surgery not knowing what I was going into like they didn't say "you're gonna wake up with a concave chest." They just were "sign this form that says you're having number three and number four mastectomy," which was its own trauma and I was like, "I can't be having mastectomies already had mastectomies in 2012 when I had breast cancer" and they were like, "just sign it it's for insurance reasons." And I woke up in the hospital alone in the recovery room and there was so much grotesque pain and I reached to the middle of my sternum where there was grotesque swelling and I could tell that the swelling was in the middle of my chest and I kind of moved my hands to the left and to the right and there was empty space. And I thought, "I have no idea how to respond to this. I have no idea what the future of my chest is going to look like." And that was frightening. And about three weeks after I was in the doctor's office, and he said, "you know, there's no chance of reconstruction. Because you've had so many surgeries on your chest, you have very little skin." We had to take skin because the infection, you know, got into your skin. And that was, that was it. The game over. It wasn't like I knew that aesthetic flat closure existed because I didn't, nobody ever told me that existed. It wasn't a choice. Whether I would have made a different choice or not, I don't know, I can tell you that from a health perspective if I had known the risks of implants if I had known That multiple surgeries and reconstructions took so much time away from my life and my family Then of course, I would have chosen a healthier path And so it was then that I said to myself if I feel this I have this amount of emotional pain and I have a solid self esteem, I have a solid foundation and faith. How do these women that don't have a massive team like I do of women championing for them, have a solid self esteem, which many of us don't, and I can talk about it freely because I used to not. And maybe not have a foundation that I feel is unflappable, which is my faith. What do people, how do they get through this? And that was when I thought to myself, I have to go back to modeling. I have to get into New York fashion week and model on a bigger stage. I need to go to Miami swim week and model in a bathing suit. I need to go to package this up to major brands. And ultimately I did it. It was not without a lot of closed doors. But we opened a lot of the—my manager—and the reason was so that I could say to women my beauty was not dissected because my chest was excavated. My beauty is whole because I know who I am and my foundation is my self esteem ...
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