I just read I Who Have Never Known Men by Jacqueline Harpman and I don’t even know where to begin…

This episode is not a “book review.” It’s a soul-spill. A reflection on what it cracked open in me about being a woman. About surviving in a world that doesn’t make sense. About living without mirrors, without answers, without a map, and still becoming.

I’m diving into the 5 core truths this story awakened in me:

✨Curiosity as a survival instinct

✨Femininity beyond performance

✨Authority as a spell we can break

✨Time measured in love & loss

✨Death as something sacred, not feared

If you’ve ever felt like your softness was your strength, or your questions were your compass… this one’s for you. Let your curiosity be holy. Let your ache to understand be enough. Let your becoming be art.

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This one’s for the girlies building their dream life without sacrificing their peace.

In this episode, I’m sharing the real-life rituals, mindset shifts, and energetic tools I’m using to design my 23rd year around alignment, abundance, and rest!

We’re talking:

✨Releasing hustle culture

✨Using Human Design + my 28-day cycle to plan my life

✨Calling in soul-level connections

✨Reprogramming scarcity with fridge-door affirmations

✨And showing up from overflow, not obligation

So, if you’re craving a softer, richer, more you-shaped way to live, this episode is your permission slip!

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Gentle TW: In this episode, I talk about moments in my past where I didn’t feel fully in control of my body or safe to say no. Nothing graphic is shared, but I do open up about experiences that involve coercion, shame, and the healing process that followed. If you’re tender right now, feel free to pause or come back when it feels right. Your safety and softness come first.

This episode is for the girls who froze. The ones who didn’t say no, but didn’t say yes either. The ones who blamed themselves, replayed the moment over and over, and convinced themselves it wasn’t “bad enough” to count. The ones who’ve carried silent shame for years.

Today, I’m opening up about the moments I lost my voice. The times I didn’t know I had the right to leave, to say no, to protect my body. I’m sharing the truth I used to hide (even from myself) and what it’s looked like to reclaim my body, my voice, and my sovereignty.

This isn’t just a story of grief. It’s a story of power. Of unlearning silence. Of honoring your nervous system, your boundaries, and your worth.

If you’ve ever questioned your experience, if you’ve ever felt like your trauma didn’t “count,” if you’re on the path of coming back home to your body… this one’s for you.

You are not broken. You are not to blame. And you are not alone.

DM me “READY” if you’re done shrinking, people-pleasing, or blaming yourself for the ways you’ve had to survive. If you’re ready to reclaim your voice, your body, and your damn power, I’ve got you! Or visit returntoselfprogram.com to schedule a 1:1 session with me!

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