This episode is a confession, an homage to honesty, a bid of vulnerability on a deeply personal shift happening in my life that I've let through a couple of episodes but I haven't unearthed fully because -

Well,

I've been believing lies that have kept me scared and stuck.

Yes, even (ESPECIALLY) Miss.FiguringSh!tOutYapsALotPodcastHost has fear and doubt that chokes her up.

In this episode, I share what it’s like to find yourself standing between two voices:

The voice of fear and the voice of truth.

And how to discern between the two.

We touch on healing, EMDR, perfectionism, somatic work, and these hidden lies that keep us stuck long after we’ve outgrown them.

This is Figuring Sh!t Out - in it's deepest essence.

A real-time reflection on what it looks like to be unraveling the stories you've told yourself about who you are expected to be in order to survive, knowing that life is more than just surviving, and honoring that most of the things that scare the sh!t out of you don't just scare the sh!t out of you because of all that you have to lose -

But also, mostly, more importantly -

because of ALL that you have to gain.

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and how much of ourselves have we lost deciding that how we are, as we are, is not enough?

how much of our very nature has been stripped away, chipped away, from the gnawing need to be complete?

complete by what measure, by what degree?

by whose decree?

where did we learn that if it wasn’t done perfectly, then it shouldn’t be done at all?

that 0% until we can miraculously have 100% is better than 1% every day?

what freezes within us that causes us to choke at the words we yearn to say and long to express but don’t trust will come out “right” or “perfectly?”

what radical judgements have we internalized?

who told us that we were wrong? why did we believe them?

and why is it now, ourselves, who tell us we are wrong every day we begin something and learn we are bad at first, commit to something then let our second thoughts become our first, pine for freedom yet cut our tongue from speaking the words that free us?

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in this episode, we get real about the lie that is: "when i'm ready," and how it's really just code for: "when i'm willing to face the fear on the other side of pursuing something very real and very deep and very important to me,"

and i share with you how i'm navigating the exact same thing.

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The difference between your strongest desire and your deepest desire might just be what you're not seeing.

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for anyone who feels like they're behind:

a path is formed by walking

a path is formed by walking

a path

is formed

by

walking.

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"If no one sees your art, it is still revolution. You freed yourself, did you not?" - Jayla John

In this episode, we talk about how creativity could heal you - if you just let it.

And how to let it.

And if you need a little more help,

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let your tenderness speak, let it lead you into darkness, and let your darkness lead you into light.

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My darling, I have news for you.

You are here to feel safe enough, trusting enough - to pause, land, and unravel your very existence at the feet of something loving.

And if you are, (like too many of us are) living a frantic, disordered life, one that feels like you’re chasing a plot that never comes -

If you are clogging your heart with unwarranted worries -

If you are unknowingly caught in the hamster wheel of more, more, more -

Stop right there.

Have you noticed lately:

The sky? The tulips? The daffodils? The wind?

Have you listened to Figuring Sh!t Out on a good ol' day while strolling softly?

Let these things ground you down and bring you back.

I love you.

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How to hear the call of your divine assignment & listening to your Sacred Marching Orders - beyond what the inner critic has to say.

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I LOVE YOU!!