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Forking Off

Forking Off

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 A podcast for former feds who got the fork out of government service. In 2025, hosts and former FBI intelligence analysts Jill and Philip Fields joined the exodus of public servants leaving federal service under the deferred resignation program. Conflicted over what to do next, they began encountering other recently departed feds fighting to find their voice. They started Forking Off as a platform to lift them up, preserve the public record, and document the destruction of American governance. Join us every Monday as we share their stories.Forking Off Political Science Politics & Government
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  • Philip Fields Sifts Through the Wreckage

    Philip Fields Sifts Through the Wreckage
    Jan 19 2026
    The decay didn’t start with the election. The realization the Bureau was too fragile to survive started in the quiet, persistent failures of earlier years. By Election Day 2024, the writing was on the wall. FBI leadership had already surrendered.My initial reaction to "The Fork in the Road" email was visceral. When the email arrived, I hesitated. Twenty years of public service—thirteen as an FBI intelligence analyst—is no small thing to throw away.As my colleagues speculated over the legitimacy of the buyout and the institution crumbled around us, I recalled a friend's departing words from years earlier. They felt like they could do more for the FBI’s mission by not working there. I finally understood. Jill and I looked at our savings, and I weighed the moral cost of staying. Two weeks later and just hours before a federal judge brought the first deferred resignation period to a halt, I walked into a meeting with the head of the Los Angeles Field Office and told him I was leaving. I was hoping for a reason to stay but expecting nothing. I lacked faith in his ability to guide us through the darkness ahead.He sat there quiet and meaningless; a shape without form. Disinterested, unaware, and seemingly unbothered by the storm raging outside his door. He asked for more time; a gesture without motion. I left his office, returned to my desk, and replied ‘resign.’Four months later, I watched the news in horror as FBI Police placed United States Senator Alex Padilla in handcuffs just down the hall from where we’d met. Senator Padilla was detained for having the audacity to ask a question during a press conference in the FBI Los Angeles Field Office's Luis Flores Conference Room. At the head of the room, the same hollow man who had failed me months earlier stood by silent, a paralyzed force, headpiece filled with straw, leaning together among the rest of the hollow men. His silence was deafening; the irony suffocating. Luis Flores was a Salvadoran immigrant who grew up in a tough Chicago neighborhood, earned a law degree, and became an FBI agent at 26. The room was named to honor his memory. Yet, in that very room, the memory of Luis Flores was desecrated.For the first time in years, I have my voice. I, too, can do more for the FBI's mission from the outside.In a year when over 300,000 employees left federal service, hosting this podcast can feel a bit like The Star Thrower—tossing one sea star at a time amidst the wreckage and debris of life. Yet, there's solace in knowing we’re taking an active role in our strained democracy rather than idly watching its destruction. Maybe we’ll even inspire a few more throwers to join us at the foot of the receding rainbow.We’re also building Ravenwood Intelligence Cooperative where intelligence services are democratized, owned by the members, and driven by ethics and civic virtue rather than shareholders or political agendas.Two distinct paths diverged at the "Fork in the Road." One—a sunlit path crowded with hollow men—laid out clearly what would be expected, and the reward granted the compliant traveler. The other, vacant, bent into the undergrowth of uncertainty. I knew there would be no turning back. That was fine by me. I took the one less traveled.I’m tired of merely watching the destruction. It’s time to build something new.You can connect with Philip on LinkedIn.Learn more about this episode on our website.If you enjoy Forking Off with us, consider supporting us on ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Ko-fi⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, and ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠follow us⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ on ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Instagram⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠TikTok⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Bluesky⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠LinkedIn⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠YouTube⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, or wherever you get your podcasts.----------The views expressed in this episode are solely those of the individuals providing them and do not necessarily represent the views of the FBI, the DOJ, the United States, or any past or current employers.
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    33 mins
  • Jill Fields Follows Her Moral Compass

    Jill Fields Follows Her Moral Compass
    Jan 19 2026
    Growing up, I never considered working for the FBI. To me, the FBI was just special agents kicking in doors, arresting violent criminals, and putting themselves in harm's way. I wanted to help people, but let's face it: guns are scary, and I don't like running. As one of my high school best friends reminded me recently, I drove a pink car and wore bows in my hair. I was not what you think of when you think of FBI employees. In 2012, Philip joined the FBI. His first week on the job, he came home and told me about the Intelligence Analyst job. It was research, analysis, writing, briefing, and no guns or running. It was all the skills I learned as an attorney, but instead of applying those skills to divorces, contract disputes, and real estate deals, I could do something even bigger: protect our nation from terrorists, spies, and violent criminals. After four years of sequestration and hiring freezes, I joined the FBI in May 2016. The first six years, I worked counterterrorism matters, including a joint duty assignment as an FBI Liaison Officer at CIA's Counterterrorism Mission Center. In January of 2022, I became a Supervisory Intelligence Analyst in FBI's Los Angeles field office. I served as the intelligence coordinator for the Violent Crimes program and the Transnational Organized Crimes programs. The Violent Crimes program was not extremely intel-friendly, but I worked hard with my team to find ways to bring value to these programs and to the Intelligence Community. In January 2025, I was selected for a leadership position at our Headquarters in DC. With so much uncertainty and the rapid changes in the FBI's mission and priorities, I chose not to put my family through a cross-country move for a job that might not exist in DC in the near-future. The first half of 2025 was difficult. Going to work every day brought internal turmoil. I was put in charge of projects that I did not believe were morally and ethically sound. My moral compass was spinning. The projects were not what was being presented to the American people. We were not going after the "worst of the worst" or the most heinous criminals. At one point, I was asked to cross the red line.I refused. I was told I could get fired today or fired in four years—meaning I could get fired today for refusing to violate my oath, or I could get fired in four years when another administration is in office and looking at who participated in these violations. I said "Fire me today."They didn't.Instead, my squad was taken away from me. I was moved to a different position within my office and told that this was not a "personnel action." I received the lightly veiled threat that the "7th floor" (FBI executives in DC) knew about me. I was instructed to keep my head down and do as I was told. In May 2025, I took the deferred resignation. The decision came as a shock to most people, myself included.I wrote this in my LinkedIn post last spring announcing my departure from the FBI, and it is still true today:"If I learned anything in the FBI, it is that yes, you can say no. If something is wrong, unjust, or unethical, you speak up, and sometimes speaking up means saying 'no.' But with a no, there also comes a 'yes.' Yes, I will always uphold my oath. Yes, I will always do the right thing. Yes, I will always ask the important questions."You can connect with Jill on LinkedIn.Learn more about this episode on our ⁠⁠website⁠⁠. If you enjoy Forking Off with us, consider supporting us on ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Ko-fi⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, and ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠follow us⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ on ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Instagram⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠TikTok⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Bluesky⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠LinkedIn⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠YouTube⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, or wherever you get your podcasts.----------The views expressed in this episode are solely those of the individuals providing them and do not necessarily represent the views of the FBI, the DOJ, the United States, or any past or current employers.
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    32 mins
  • Kayla Staph Stays True to Herself

    Kayla Staph Stays True to Herself
    Jan 12 2026
    Kayla Staph grew up in a house built on a foundation of loving other others without partiality or discrimination. She comes from a legacy of service, so naturally, she entered into public service when the time came. Kayla started her career as a high school math teacher and coach. She also spent 10 months working with the International Justice Mission combating human trafficking, which opened her eyes to the holistic power of the justice system.In December 2020, Kayla joined the FBI as a special agent. Although she dreamed of investigating Violent Crimes Against Children, the Bureau assigned her to Cyber. Despite barely knowing what an IP address was when she started, Kayla dove into the deep end. She binged on Darknet Diaries and obtained SANS certifications. Before long, she was unmasking cyber criminals, shutting down dark web markets, and stopping terrorists and other national security threats. Kayla loved her mission of protecting the American people from sophisticated threats.That mission changed on January 20, 2025. Kayla watched with dread as the new administration issued sweeping pardons for January 6th defendants—including those convicted of heinous acts of violence against police officers. Days later, she watched as fear spread through the ranks while Acting FBI Director Brian Driscoll fought against efforts to release the names of employees who investigated the Capitol attack. Kayla later detailed that experience in her own words in a guest blog with The Justice Connection.The final straw came after the diversion of FBI resources away from cyber and national security threats to mass deportation efforts. Kayla watched as up to 40% of the FBI's resources in major field offices shifted to civil immigration enforcement. Despite claims the agency was targeting the "worst of the worst," the data showed thousands of operations targeting individuals with no criminal records.The Bureau Kayla loved had fundamentally changed—even removing "Integrity" from its core values at Quantico. She never imagined she would witness such a level of cruelty toward the immigrant population. When asked one day how she responded to sweeping injustice, Kayla wanted to be able to tell her future children a story that would make them proud. Honoring her oath and her own values, Kayla took the second deferred resignation and left the FBI in September 2025.Since leaving, Kayla has been finding her voice and investing in her writing. She also participated in the World Police and Fire Games. Kayla is now focusing on becoming part of the solution by seeking opportunities to leverage her skills as a cyber investigator and crisis negotiator in service of her community and the private sector. You can connect with Kayla on LinkedIn.Learn more about this episode on our ⁠website⁠. If you enjoy Forking Off with us, consider supporting us on ⁠⁠⁠⁠Ko-fi⁠⁠⁠⁠, and ⁠⁠⁠⁠follow us⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ on ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Instagram⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠TikTok⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Bluesky⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠LinkedIn⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠YouTube⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, or wherever you get your podcasts.----------The views expressed in this episode are solely those of the individuals providing them and do not necessarily represent the views of the FBI, the DOJ, the United States, or any past or current employers.
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    52 mins
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