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Grief Is Not A Dirty Word

Grief Is Not A Dirty Word

Written by: Nick Gaylord
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Grief Is Not A Dirty Word is a weekly podcast that brings honest, real-world conversations about grief, loss, trauma, healing, and mental health into the light. Hosted by Nick Gaylord, the show creates a safe, compassionate space for anyone navigating the complicated emotions that come with losing a parent, partner, child, friend, relationship, or former version of themselves.


Originally launched as Our Dead Dads, the podcast has evolved into a broader mission: to normalize grief and break the stigma around talking about it. Nick explores every corner of the grieving experience — from anticipatory grief and sudden loss to complicated family dynamics, unresolved anger, identity shifts, and the invisible pain people carry long after the world assumes they’re “fine.”


Each episode features powerful, unfiltered stories from guests who have lived through loss and rebuilt their lives in deeply personal ways. Through conversations centered on resilience, vulnerability, courage, and connection, the podcast helps listeners understand that grief isn’t something to hide — it’s something that deserves space, honesty, and community.


Whether your grief is fresh or decades old, whether it’s tied to death or to a different kind of ending, this show will help you feel seen, supported, and less alone. If you’re looking for meaningful discussions about healing, emotional wellbeing, and the human experience — you’re in the right place.


New episodes every Tuesday.
Listen on all major podcast platforms or at griefisnotadirtyword.com.


Grief Is Not A Dirty Word — because every story matters, every emotion belongs, and healing begins when we speak the truth.



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Episodes
  • How Listening to Your Own Story Can Heal Trauma, Grief, and Shame with Susie Delo
    Feb 10 2026

    LINKS:

    Go to Susie's website HERE!

    Contact Susie HERE!

    Want to listen to Lauren Heaton's interview? Click HERE!

    Want to listen to Elissa Swihart's interview? Click HERE for part 1 and HERE for part 2!

    WHO THIS EPISODE HELPS
    Anyone carrying unresolved grief, long-term trauma, shame, or emotional self-judgment who struggles to offer themselves compassion.

    WHAT LISTENERS WILL GET
    A powerful, practical look at how grief healing deepens through self-forgiveness, reflection, and hearing your own story without judgment.

    DESCRIPTION:
    In this follow-up conversation, Nick Gaylord reconnects with Susie Delo after she listened back to her original Grief Is Not A Dirty Word interview for the first time. What she experienced surprised her: pride, compassion, and deep self-forgiveness for the woman telling the story — herself. Together, Nick and Susie explore how listening to your own voice can transform trauma, soften shame, and unlock grief healing at any stage of life. This episode dives into emotional self-compassion, forgiveness, and the power of reflection without blame. Susie shares why recording and listening to your own story can be a pivotal healing practice. The conversation also highlights community, safe connection, and why grief work must include caring for yourself first. This episode stands alone but builds powerfully on Susie’s original interview.

    This episode answers:

    • How can listening to your own story help heal trauma and grief?
    • Why is self-forgiveness so hard after trauma and loss?
    • Can hearing your own voice change how you see your past?
    • How do you stop judging yourself for what you survived?
    • What role does reflection play in long-term grief healing?

    Key Takeaways:

    • Self-forgiveness is essential for meaningful grief healing
    • Listening to your own recorded story can unlock deep emotional clarity
    • Trauma survivors are often harsher on themselves than anyone else
    • Healing accelerates when shame is replaced with compassion
    • You cannot support others fully without caring for yourself first


    GIVE THE SHOW A 5-STAR RATING ON APPLE PODCASTS!

    FOLLOW US ON APPLE OR YOUR FAVORITE PODCAST PLATFORM!

    BOOKMARK OUR WEBSITE: www.ourdeaddads.com

    FOLLOW OUR DEAD DADS ON SOCIAL MEDIA:

    Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ourdeaddadspod/
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    TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@ourdeaddadspod
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    38 mins
  • How Childhood Trauma and Domestic Violence Shape Grief with Susie Delo
    Feb 3 2026

    CHECK OUT SUSIE'S WEBSITE!!

    Go to Susie's website by clicking HERE!

    Contact Susie by clicking HERE!

    WHO THIS EPISODE HELPS
    People navigating childhood trauma, domestic violence, complex grief, and long-term emotional healing after abuse and loss.

    WHAT LISTENERS WILL GET
    A deeply honest conversation about grief, trauma, resilience, and how healing begins when someone finally feels that they matter.

    DESCRIPTION:

    This episode of Grief Is Not A Dirty Word features trauma-informed peer coach and You Matter founder Susie Delo, who shares her powerful story of surviving childhood abuse, domestic violence, and profound grief. In conversation with host Nick Gaylord, Susie explores how unresolved childhood trauma and silenced grief shaped her relationships, identity, and sense of self-worth. She reflects on losing her brother as a child, growing up in poverty and addiction, and enduring emotional and physical abuse that followed her into adulthood. Susie also opens up about the death of her abusive husband and the complicated grief that followed, including blame, shame, and isolation. Through therapy, faith, and advocacy, she transformed trauma into purpose by creating You Matter to help others heal. This episode centers resilience, post-traumatic growth, and the life-changing impact of finally being seen and believed.

    This episode answers:

    • How does childhood trauma affect grief and adult relationships?
    • What happens when grief is silenced or ignored for decades?
    • How do survivors heal after domestic violence and emotional abuse?
    • What is complicated grief after losing an abusive partner?
    • How can trauma be transformed into healing and purpose?

    Key Takeaways:

    • Unresolved childhood trauma deeply shapes grief responses later in life
    • Silence around grief can create lifelong emotional damage
    • Survivors of domestic violence often carry shame that isn’t theirs
    • Healing begins when people feel believed, supported, and valued
    • Purpose and advocacy can grow from even the most painful experiences


    GIVE THE SHOW A 5-STAR RATING ON APPLE PODCASTS!

    FOLLOW US ON APPLE OR YOUR FAVORITE PODCAST PLATFORM!

    BOOKMARK OUR WEBSITE: www.ourdeaddads.com

    FOLLOW OUR DEAD DADS ON SOCIAL MEDIA:

    Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ourdeaddadspod/
    Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ourdeaddadspod
    TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@ourdeaddadspod
    Twitter / X: https://x.com/ourdeaddadspod
    YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmmv6sdmMIys3GDBjiui3kw
    LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/ourdeaddadspod/

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    1 hr and 17 mins
  • Living With Grief, Chronic Illness, and Caregiving with Jacob Kendall
    Jan 20 2026

    CONTACT JACOB:
    Personal website: https://www.jacobevanskendall.com/

    Business website: https://4Daging.com/

    LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/jacobevanskendall/

    WHO THIS EPISODE HELPS:
    People navigating grief, caregiving, chronic illness, and anticipatory grief after the loss of a parent

    WHAT LISTENERS WILL GET:
    An honest, grounded conversation about grief, caregiving burnout, mortality, and finding meaning after loss

    DESCRIPTION:

    Nick Gaylord sits down with Jacob Kendall, a grief-informed advocate, health educator, and caregiver whose life has been shaped by chronic illness, anticipatory grief, and the sudden loss of his father. Jacob shares the deeply personal story of caregiving after his father suffered a stroke and heart attack shortly after Jacob’s wedding, and what it meant to lose him only months later. Together, Nick and Jacob explore how grief changes shape over time, why caregiving can be emotionally and physically exhausting, and how anticipatory grief complicates both loss and love. Jacob also opens up about living with a mechanical heart valve, confronting his own mortality, and managing anxiety born from repeated medical trauma. This conversation weaves together grief, health advocacy, and the importance of not carrying illness or loss alone. It is an honest reflection on grief, resilience, and how suffering can inform meaningful work without defining a life.

    THIS EPISODE ANSWERS:

    • What does anticipatory grief feel like when illness changes everything?
    • How does caregiving impact grief after a parent dies?
    • Why doesn’t grief ever fully go away after losing a parent?
    • How do chronic illness and mortality anxiety shape daily life?
    • What helps caregivers avoid burnout while navigating grief?

    KEY TAKEAWAYS:

    • Grief does not shrink, but people learn how to live alongside it
    • Caregiving can deepen grief and exhaustion if done alone
    • Anticipatory grief creates complex emotions before loss occurs
    • Chronic illness often brings hidden anxiety tied to mortality
    • Talking openly about grief and illness builds connection and healing


    GIVE THE SHOW A 5-STAR RATING ON APPLE PODCASTS!

    FOLLOW US ON APPLE OR YOUR FAVORITE PODCAST PLATFORM!

    BOOKMARK OUR WEBSITE: www.ourdeaddads.com

    FOLLOW OUR DEAD DADS ON SOCIAL MEDIA:

    Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ourdeaddadspod/
    Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ourdeaddadspod
    TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@ourdeaddadspod
    Twitter / X: https://x.com/ourdeaddadspod
    YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmmv6sdmMIys3GDBjiui3kw
    LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/ourdeaddadspod/

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    50 mins
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