In Episode 3, I reflect on how anxiety shaped my identity long before alcohol entered the picture. I talk about silence, avoidance, and the inner world I built to feel safe—and how that world slowly became isolating.

Episode 2

Before alcohol ever entered my life, my mind was already loud.

In this episode, I continue Chapter One of The Trails and Trials of Addiction and Anxiety and talk about the inner world anxiety built long before drinking became part of my story.

I reflect on growing up inside a constant loop of fear, imagined judgment, and self-doubt—and how silence, not intoxication, was what I was really searching for.

This episode explores how anxiety can quietly become an identity, how isolation can feel like safety, and how the search for relief can lead us down paths we don’t yet understand.

In this first episode, I read from Chapter One of my book The Trials and Trails of Addiction and Anxiety and reflect on the moment I first learned how to quiet the noise in my mind.

At thirteen years old, I didn’t understand anxiety, self-doubt, or why my thoughts never seemed to stop. I only knew that alcohol brought silence — and I mistook that silence for peace.

This episode explores the early link between anxiety and alcoholism, the stories we tell ourselves as children, and how a search for relief can quietly turn into a long detour from ourselves.

This podcast is about clarity — looking back with honesty, compassion, and understanding.

Take care of yourself. We’ll talk soon.