In this episode, I’m sharing my personal experience with severe baby blues, not feeling an instant connection to my son after birth, and the emotional adjustment of becoming a first-time mom.

I loved my baby. But I didn’t feel bonded right away.

I cried daily. I felt overwhelmed. I questioned myself. I wondered if something was wrong with me.

Baby blues are common, but when you’re in the middle of postpartum hormones, sleep deprivation, and identity change, it doesn’t feel “normal.” It feels scary.

In this episode, I talk about:

• What severe baby blues felt like in my body and mind

• Not bonding with my newborn right away

• The difference between baby blues and postpartum depression

• Hormonal shifts after birth

• Why postpartum emotions can feel so intense

• The identity shock of becoming a mom

• Practical things that helped me regulate and cope

As a licensed mental health therapist and a mom of two, I also share tools that significantly helped me through early postpartum:

• Prioritizing sleep when possible

• Getting professional support

• Understanding what was happening hormonally

• Giving myself permission to not feel “blissful”

• Reducing shame around my experience

If you’re a new mom crying more than you expected, feeling disconnected, or wondering if this is normal — this episode is for you.

Not bonding instantly does not make you a bad mother.

Baby blues are real.

Postpartum adjustment is real.

And support matters.

You are not broken. You are in a massive transition.

In this episode, I’m sharing my birth story, my pregnancy experience, and the emotional shock that followed bringing my first baby home.

I loved my son. But I didn’t feel instantly connected to him.

Logically, I knew he was mine. But emotionally, something felt off. My body felt confused. My identity felt shaken. I cried often. I questioned myself. I wondered if something was wrong with me.

This episode is an honest look at:

• My pregnancy and delivery experience

• The emotional disorientation after birth

• Not feeling bonded right away

• Postpartum identity changes

• The hormonal and psychological shift into motherhood

• How life, relationships, and priorities changed overnight

• Feeling like a different person after baby

While baby blues were part of my story, this episode focuses more on the identity shock of early motherhood — the part we rarely prepare women for.

If you’ve ever thought:

“Why don’t I feel like myself after having a baby?”

“Is it normal to not feel instantly bonded?”

“Why does this feel so much bigger than I expected?”

You are not alone.

Becoming a mother is not just physical — it’s psychological.

It’s developmental.

It’s transformational.

This is the side of postpartum life we don’t talk about enough.

What is matrescence — and why does no one talk about it?

If you’ve had a baby and suddenly feel like you don’t recognize yourself anymore, you may be experiencing matrescence — the psychological, emotional, hormonal, and identity transformation that happens when a woman becomes a mother.

In this episode of The Lost & Found Mom, we break down the meaning of matrescence, why early motherhood can feel so disorienting, and why feeling lost after baby does not mean something is wrong with you.

Matrescence is the developmental transition into motherhood — similar to adolescence — and it explains:

• Why your emotions feel bigger

• Why your identity feels unstable

• Why friendships shift

• Why your relationship changes

• Why your confidence wobbles

• Why you love your baby deeply but still miss who you were

As a licensed mental health therapist and mom of two, I’ll help you understand the internal identity shift of postpartum life in a way that feels grounding instead of alarming.

If you’ve ever thought:

“I love my baby, but I don’t feel like myself.”

“Why does motherhood feel so overwhelming?”

“Is this normal?”

This episode will give you language for what you’re experiencing — and reassurance that you are not broken.

You are in matrescence.

And this is a real, powerful transition.