I recorded this episode during a moment of intense vulnerability, only to have it vanish. I thought it was deleted—buried so deep in my phone’s storage that it was gone for good. But today, it resurfaced. This "lost" episode is a living testimony that nothing is ever truly lost when you keep moving forward. It is honest, raw, and a reminder that even when our voices feel hidden by the weight of MS and daily complications, they deserve to be heard. When I realized this recording was missing, it felt like a heavy blow. It wasn't just a technical glitch; it felt like my words and my energy from that moment were stripped away. I searched everywhere and eventually had to let it go, assuming it was part of the "noise" and frustration we often face.

​Finding it today, tucked away in a hidden corner of my device, reminded me so much of my journey with MS. There are days when I feel like my spirit or my strength is buried under layers of pain and exhaustion. I think it’s gone, but it’s actually just waiting for the right moment to be uncovered. I'm sharing this now because it represents the persistence required to be a warrior—sometimes you have to dig deep to find what you thought you lost.Finding this file was a sign: what is meant for you will always find its way back to you.

Even though my pain is less intense today, you can hear my MS affecting my words. I’m choosing to keep these slips in to show you that my faith remains resilient, even when my speech feels resistant. In today’s episode, I’m diving into [The Raw Resistant Faith of the MS Warrior] and how we can find peace in the middle of a flare-up. Lean in with me.

In this episode, I share the honest weight of living with MS—from the physical toll of insomnia, pain, and artificial foods to the emotional journey of moving from denial to reality. I reflect on the importance of the sun as a life source, the blessing of a doctor who truly listens, and how my attention span prioritizes what matters most. I’ve kept my speech slip in the intro as a living testimony of my resilience and the daily truth of this walk.

​In this episode, I share:

​The "Warrior Spirit": How I navigated a technical crisis that felt like losing everything to a blank screen.

​Grace over Giving Up: Dealing with the reality of exhaustion and insomnia without losing hope.

​The Creative Process: Why letting go of "perfection" allowed my art to finally breathe.

Faith in the Unseen Finish Line