What happens when the firehouse stops feeling like home?

In this episode of Kitchen Table Talk, the conversation gets real—uncomfortable at times, emotional at others, and honest all the way through. Host Michael Long, firefighter/paramedic and founder of Break The Stigma Inc., sits down with co-host Nick Robben and fellow firefighters Nate Miller and Mike Robinson to talk about the part of the job most people never see: how department culture can either keep you going… or quietly break you down.

This isn’t a polished leadership talk. It’s a kitchen-table conversation about burnout, loss of purpose, anger, identity, and what it feels like to hate the person you’re becoming—even while wearing the uniform you once loved. The group shares personal stories of career lows, mental health struggles, near-misses, and the moments where one conversation, one crew, or one fresh start made the difference.

They challenge the idea that mental health crises only look like rock bottom. Sometimes it looks like wanting to quit the job you swore you’d do forever. Sometimes it looks like silence. Sometimes it looks like drinking more, laughing less, or just feeling “off.”

This episode dives into:

• Why culture doesn’t change by accident—it’s built, protected, and lived every shift
• The power of leaders who say “I don’t know” and crews who actually care
• How trust, vulnerability, and connection can prevent crises before they happen
• Why noticing small changes in each other can save careers—and lives
• What it really means to love your crew and show up for each other

This is a reminder that behind every helmet is a human being. That mental health matters just as much as physical health. And that sometimes, the most powerful thing you can do is pull up a chair, tell the truth, and let someone know they’re not alone.

Grab a cup of coffee. Take a seat. You belong at this table.

In Episode 4, Michael Long sits down with co-host Nick Robben and special guest Teena Silkwood for one of the most powerful and raw conversations yet. Together, they break down the reality of mental health crises in first responders — from suicidal ideations and repeated attempts, to the life-saving impact of one person speaking up at the right moment.

This episode dives deep into:

• How old-school culture still prevents first responders from seeking help
• The gap between generations entering the field
• Why “we’ve always done it this way” is costing lives
• Ketamine treatment, stigma, misconceptions, and real-life outcomes
• How departments can implement “mental light duty,” sabbaticals, and proactive wellness policies
• The importance of being a “bully for positivity” in the station
• Using ketamine alongside therapy, EMDR, and modern mental health practices
• What treatment actually looks and feels like from someone who’s been there

This episode is emotional, educational, and full of practical strategies that departments, leaders, and responders can implement now. Whether you’re a first responder, an administrator, or someone who cares about supporting those who run toward danger, this conversation is essential listening.

Break the Stigma Inc. continues its mission to change the culture, normalize mental health treatment, and provide hope to those who feel like they’re out of options.

In this episode of Kitchen Table Talk, Michael Long and Nick Robben sit down for a candid conversation about what it really means to lead in the fire service—long before the promotion, long before the badge, and long before you’re officially “in charge.”

The guys reflect on their early episodes, the surprising experience of listening back to their own stories, and how much growth comes from simply talking openly about mental health. They dive into the importance of informal leadership, the responsibility every firefighter carries, and how mental health readiness is just as essential as physical training.

Michael and Nick also explore how communication, vulnerability, and checking in after difficult calls can change an entire crew’s culture—for the better. From navigating home life to supporting each other in the station, this episode highlights how breaking the stigma starts one honest conversation at a time.

Pull up a chair and join us at the table. These are the conversations that strengthen crews, save careers, and remind every first responder that it’s okay to not be okay.