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  • 12 Hidden Signs of Childhood Trauma ACEs in Adult Life

    12 Hidden Signs of Childhood Trauma ACEs in Adult Life
    Jan 5 2026
    Childhood trauma and adverse childhood experiences (ACEs) frequently manifest in adult life through patterns so subtle that many people never connect them to their early years. These hidden signs operate beneath conscious awareness, shaping relationships, health, and self-perception in ways that feel entirely normal to those experiencing them—until they recognize the pattern. The prevalence of child childhood trauma is staggering, with millions of children worldwide experiencing adverse events each year. Many children who experience trauma suffer in silence, unable to articulate their pain or seek help from caregivers who may be unaware of the abuse or neglect occurring within the home. This article covers the 12 most overlooked signs that adults who experienced childhood trauma may not recognize as trauma-related. The information serves adults experiencing unexplained life patterns, mental health professionals seeking to identify complex trauma presentations, and family members supporting trauma survivors through their healing journey. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BY7X4505Eow The 12 hidden signs include: chronic emptiness, difficulty with emotional intimacy, hypervigilance in relationships, over-responsibility for others’ emotions, persistent imposter syndrome, inability to identify personal needs, normalized self-criticism, feeling fundamentally flawed, unexplained chronic health issues, extreme sensitivity to criticism, compulsive busyness, and constant alertness or startling easily. By the end of this article, you will: Recognize hidden trauma patterns that may have gone unnoticed for yearsUnderstand how childhood adversity creates lasting but treatable effectsKnow when and how to seek appropriate mental health services administration supportGain clarity on the connection between early childhood experiences and current struggles Understanding Childhood Trauma and ACEs Adverse childhood experiences represent traumatic events occurring before age 18 that disrupt a child’s sense of safety and healthy development. These include physical abuse, sexual abuse, emotional abuse, physical neglect, emotional neglect, witnessing violence, domestic violence, substance abuse in the household, mental illness in caregivers, parental separation, and having family members who are incarcerated. Childhood trauma becomes “hidden” through the brain’s protective coping mechanisms. When overwhelming experiences occur at a young age, the developing mind employs strategies like dissociation, repression, and normalization to survive. These same protective responses later prevent adults from connecting current difficulties to past events, creating a disconnect between present symptoms and their original trauma. The cumulative effects of trauma can undermine a child’s sense of self-worth, identity, and resilience. This can have a profound and lasting impact on a person’s life, affecting their overall well-being, mental health, and ability to form healthy relationships. The ACE study, surveying over 17,000 adults, established that negative childhood experiences create measurable, dose-dependent effects on adult functioning. Each additional adverse experience compounds risk for mental health problems, physical health problems, and relationship difficulties—a pattern called biological embedding where early adversity literally alters brain development and stress response systems. How Trauma Hides in Plain Sight Psychological mechanisms protect trauma survivors from overwhelming emotional pain, but these same mechanisms obscure the connection between childhood adversity and adult struggles. Repressed childhood trauma operates through the brain’s capacity to wall off threatening material from conscious access, while dissociative amnesia creates gaps in memory around traumatic experiences. Dissociative episodes can significantly impact an individual’s sense of self and reality, making it difficult to connect present-day feelings and behaviors to past trauma. Brain development during traumatic experiences creates lasting but subtle patterns in neural circuitry. The prefrontal cortex, amygdala, and hippocampus develop differently under conditions of chronic stress, creating heightened threat sensitivity and emotional dysregulation that feel like personality traits rather than trauma responses. Adults often describe these patterns as “just how I am” rather than recognizing them as adaptations to childhood adversity. The ACEs Study Foundation The landmark ACE research revealed that at least one ACE affects approximately 61% of adults, while multiple ACEs create compounding health risks. Higher ACE scores correlate directly with increased rates of heart disease, cardiovascular disease, autoimmune disorders, substance abuse, mental health conditions, and reduced life expectancy. This dose-response relationship means that childhood trauma in adults manifests proportionally to the severity and accumulation of ...
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    32 mins
  • Understanding and Calming Hypervigilance: Grounding Techniques for Feeling Safe

    Understanding and Calming Hypervigilance: Grounding Techniques for Feeling Safe
    Dec 22 2025
    Introduction Understanding and calming hypervigilance through grounding techniques for feeling safe involves learning specific strategies that help regulate your nervous system while maintaining necessary environmental awareness. This guide immediately addresses the importance of grounding techniques for feeling safe, ensuring you have practical tools to manage heightened states of alertness. When you’re stuck in a state of constant alertness, traditional relaxation methods often feel impossible or even dangerous, making specialized grounding approaches essential for finding relief. The basics of grounding techniques involve simple, basic mental exercises that help manage anxiety, reduce negative thoughts, and refocus the mind. This guide provides concrete techniques that work specifically for hypervigilant states—those moments when your brain refuses to stop scanning for threats, even in safe environments. At the first mention, hypervigilance (a state of increased alertness where the brain is constantly looking for perceived dangers) is a key concept for understanding why these techniques are necessary. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hUBxGhT5fP0 What This Guide Covers You’ll learn evidence-based grounding strategies designed for people whose nervous system stays in high alert mode, practical breathing techniques that calm without creating vulnerability, and daily routines that signal safety to an overactive nervous system that is working hard to detect threats. Specifically, you will discover: How hypervigilance differs from normal alertness and why it persistsNervous system regulation through awareness-maintaining grounding techniquesThe 5-4-3-2-1 technique adapted for safety-conscious individualsBox breathing methods for calming without vulnerabilityBuilding predictable routines that signal safety to your brain Who This Is For This guide is designed for individuals experiencing hypervigilance from trauma, anxiety disorders, PTSD, or chronic stress who need concrete techniques to feel safe in their environment. Whether you’re dealing with constant jumpiness from past trauma or anxiety that keeps you perpetually on edge, you’ll find practical strategies that honor your need for awareness while providing nervous system relief. Fear and feeling anxious are common experiences for people with hypervigilance, and grounding techniques can help manage these emotions and negative thoughts. Why This Matters Hypervigilance keeps your nervous system in constant activation, disrupting sleep, relationships, and daily functioning while creating exhaustion that never seems to resolve. Common symptoms of anxiety include increased heart rate, sweating, and difficulty focusing, and occasionally people experiencing hypervigilance may even develop recurring panic attacks during everyday activities. Grounding techniques offer relief by working with your nervous system’s natural regulation processes rather than against your survival instincts. If you experience persistent hypervigilance or anxiety, consider seeking professional help. Grounding techniques are not a substitute for professional mental health treatment. Next, we’ll explore what hypervigilance is, how it impacts your daily life, and why understanding your nervous system’s role is crucial for effective grounding. Understanding Hypervigilance and Its Impact Hypervigilance is a state of increased alertness where the brain is constantly looking for perceived dangers. This survival mechanism involves your brain’s threat-detection system working overtime, interpreting neutral situations as potentially dangerous and maintaining readiness to respond to perceived threats at any moment. Fear and negative thoughts often drive the brain’s threat-detection system into overdrive, making it difficult to distinguish between real and imagined threats. Unlike normal alertness that you can turn on and off as needed, hypervigilance represents an inability to “power down” your threat detection system. People with hypervigilance tend to develop certain symptoms or behaviors, such as being unable to relax or disconnect from their environment. Your brain stays activated even during activities that should feel relaxing, leading to exhaustion that rest doesn’t seem to fix. The Nervous System in Hypervigilance Your sympathetic nervous system—responsible for fight-or-flight responses—remains chronically activated during hypervigilant states. This means your body produces stress hormones continuously, keeping your heart rate elevated, muscles tense, and mind racing with anxious thoughts about potential dangers. Physical sensations during hypervigilance include jumpiness at unexpected sounds, difficulty concentrating on tasks, muscle tension that won’t release, and feeling overwhelmed by normal environmental stimuli. People in hypervigilant states tend to experience common symptoms of anxiety such as increased heart rate, sweating, and difficulty focusing. ...
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    17 mins
  • Marriage Conflict: What Is Your Fighting Style?

    Marriage Conflict: What Is Your Fighting Style?
    Dec 8 2025
    “How couples argue and disagree about issues appears to be more consequential to the success of marriage than what they argue about or how often they experience conflicts.” To reword the above quote taken from an article by Hanzal and Segrin in the Journal of Family Communication, you could simply say “how we fight has far more influence on the future of our marriage, than what we fight about”. Therefore, our fighting style, or how we fight, really matters. Conflict in marriage arises from differences in preferences, backgrounds, and values between partners. Conflict in marriage is a natural and inevitable part of relationships, as two individuals bring together their unique perspectives, habits, and expectations. Before I get into the different styles of fighting, we need to be aware that gender differences make a big difference in our fights. In fact, a husband and a wife will experience the same fight differently. Not just because they have different perspectives, but because they are different genders. You might not be a typical couple, and that’s not necessarily a problem, but the following things, about how most couples operate are good to keep in mind. Studies show women tend to be more negative in conflict and use confrontational behaviors that say “this is all about me”, rather than the marriage. The behaviors include being demanding, hostile, threatening, insulting and insisting that all the change should come from their husband. Research shows that wives tend to use more destructive conflict behaviors than husbands, which can contribute to higher divorce rates. But to generalize men as well for a moment… Men are more likely to avoid. They get scared of the big emotions, so feel safer avoiding them altogether. Withdrawal behaviors, such as keeping quiet or leaving to cool down, especially when used by either husband, are linked to higher divorce rates. Another thing for men to keep in mind is that the less influence a woman feels she has in her marriage, the bigger the artillery she has to use to gain influence, so the more confrontational she will be. Husbands, if you want a happier wife, receive her influence! Remember, both husband and wife have the same end goal of trying to save the marriage, but they come at it from two completely different angles. Couples who engage in a demand-withdraw pattern, where one partner demands and the other spouse withdraws, are at a higher risk for divorce. Not only do they have different perspectives, but conflict behaviors in the early years of marriage can predict divorce rates over a span of 16 years. Some conflicts in marriage are perpetual and rooted in fundamental differences in personality or lifestyle, and unresolvable conflicts are inherent in all relationships because each partner is a unique person with their own reality. Nearly 70% of all marriage conflicts are considered perpetual and essentially unresolvable, but healthy conflict in marriage can lead to growth and deeper intimacy when managed well. Introduction to Conflict If you’re reading this, you likely understand that conflict is a natural part of your relationship journey—and yes, that includes your marriage. No matter how deeply you love your spouse, you will face moments when disagreements surface—whether they center on finances, parenting decisions, control dynamics, or simply the overwhelming pressures of daily life. Here’s what truly matters: it’s not whether conflict happens in your relationship, but how you and your partner navigate these challenges together as a united team. Learning to resolve conflict in a healthy, constructive way represents one of the most transformative skills you can develop for building the strong, loving marriage you deserve. Your marital conflicts often emerge from the beautiful complexity of bringing together two unique individuals—each of you carries distinct opinions, values, and personality traits that make you who you are. The key lies in approaching these differences with genuine mutual respect and a deep willingness to understand not only your own emotional experience, but your partner’s inner world as well. Effective conflict resolution begins with developing strong communication skills that will serve your relationship for years to come. This means you’ll practice active listening with intention, express your feelings with honesty and vulnerability (while avoiding the destructive patterns of finger-pointing or blame), and together create a safe emotional space where both of you feel truly heard and valued. Relationship expert John Gottman’s research demonstrates that couples who invest in truly listening and empathizing with each other experience far greater success in resolving conflicts and actually strengthening their bond through these challenges. It’s also essential for you to recognize that some disagreements—what Gottman identifies as “perpetual conflicts”—may never find complete ...
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    22 mins
  • Gaslighting Explained: The Ultimate Guide to What It Is, Why It Happens, and How to Stop It

    Gaslighting Explained: The Ultimate Guide to What It Is, Why It Happens, and How to Stop It
    Nov 24 2025
    Key Takeaways Gaslighting is a form of psychological abuse that makes victims question their memory, perception, and sanity through deliberate manipulationThe term is originally derived from the 1938 play “Gas Light” where a husband manipulates his wealthy wife into doubting her reality as he attempts to steal her generational wealthCommon tactics include lying, denial, minimizing feelings, blame-shifting, and rewriting history to gain power and controlVictims often experience anxiety, depression, low self-esteem, and difficulty trusting themselves or othersRecovery involves seeking support, documenting incidents, trusting your instincts, and potentially leaving the abusive relationship https://youtu.be/NfJGNfpg2IQ If you’ve ever found yourself constantly second guessing your own memories, wondering if you’re “too sensitive,” or feeling like you’re losing your grip on reality in a relationship, you may be experiencing gaslighting. This insidious form of emotional abuse affects millions of people, leaving them confused, isolated, and questioning their own sanity. It is important to remember that gaslighting is not the victim’s fault; the abusive behavior is a choice made by the gaslighter. Be reassured: you’re not imagining things, and you’re not alone. Gaslighting is a real, documented form of psychological abuse that mental health professionals recognize as deeply harmful. Understanding what gaslighting involves, why people do it, and how to protect yourself is the first step toward reclaiming your reality and your life. What is Gaslighting? Gaslighting is a type of emotional abuse where one person manipulates another into doubting their own memory, perception, and sanity. This deliberate psychological manipulation causes confusion, self-doubt, and increases the victim’s reliance on the abuser. Unlike simple lying or disagreement, gaslighting specifically targets your sense of reality itself. As a result, victims often feel unsure about their own perceptions and reality, further deepening their confusion and vulnerability. The longer gaslighting continues, the more a victim may start to rely on the gaslighter to define reality. The term gaslighting comes from the 1938 play “Angel Street” (later called “Gas Light”) and the 1944 Alfred Hitchcock film adaptation. In the story, a husband systematically manipulates his wife’s environment—dimming the gas lights in their home while insisting she’s only imagining the changes. He denies her perceptions so persistently that she begins to believe she’s losing her mind. This is a classic example of a gaslighter gaslighting their victim, using manipulative tactics to make her question her reality. This deliberate campaign to undermine someone’s grip on reality gave us the word gaslighting. The distinction between gaslighting and other forms of manipulation or lying is crucial. While all relationships involve disagreement and (unfortunately!) even some lying, gaslighting specifically targets one’s sense of reality. It’s not about winning an argument—it’s about making you doubt your own perceptions, memories, and mental stability to gain control. Gaslighters may even suggest you have a bad memory, using phrases like “You’re crazy – that never happened,” to discredit your experiences and undermine your credibility. Gaslighting can occur in romantic relationships, families, workplaces, and friendships. The National Domestic Violence Hotline reports that 74% of women seeking domestic violence support have experienced gaslighting, making it one of the most common forms of psychological abuse. Women and marginalized groups are more likely to experience gaslighting due to systemic power imbalances. Types of Gaslighting Intimate partner gaslighting is the most recognized form, occurring in romantic relationships where an abusive partner systematically undermines the other’s reality. This might involve denying conversations, rewriting relationship history, or making their partner feel “crazy” for having normal emotional reactions. Workplace gaslighting involves colleagues or supervisors undermining your credibility, denying conversations about work assignments, or dismissing your concerns about workplace issues. This form of abuse often targets competent employees to maintain power structures or avoid accountability. Parental gaslighting occurs when caregivers manipulate children’s reality and emotions, denying abusive incidents or rewriting family history. Children who experience this form of abuse often struggle with self-trust and healthy relationship patterns into adulthood. Racial gaslighting involves denying or minimizing experiences of bias and discrimination. This might include dismissing someone’s experiences of racism as “oversensitivity” or claiming that racial bias doesn’t exist in certain situations. Racial gaslighting discredits the experiences of an entire racial or ethnic group to ...
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    22 mins
  • Is My Spouse a Sex Addict? Understanding This Massive Challenge and Reclaiming Your Marriage

    Is My Spouse a Sex Addict? Understanding This Massive Challenge and Reclaiming Your Marriage
    Nov 10 2025
    Discovering that your partner might be struggling with sex addiction can feel overwhelming and frightening. You may be experiencing confusion, deep hurt, or uncertainty about your next steps. If you’re asking yourself, “Is my partner a sex addict?” this article is here to provide you with the understanding and clarity you deserve during this difficult time. Sexual addiction, also known as compulsive sexual behavior or hypersexual disorder, is a complex mental health condition that affects many individuals and the people who love them. Recognizing the signs and understanding the true nature of sex addiction becomes a powerful starting point for addressing its impact on your partner, your relationship, and your emotional well-being. Key Points in This Article Understanding Sex Addiction: Sex addiction is a mental health condition rooted in emotional and psychological wounds, characterized by compulsive behaviors similar to other addictions, affecting about 3% to 10% of the population.Distinguishing Sex Addiction from Healthy Sexuality and Porn Addiction: Unlike healthy sexuality, which fosters emotional connection, sex addiction involves secrecy, shame, and behaviors used to avoid difficult emotions, often linked with broader compulsive sexual activities and pornography use.Signs, Symptoms, and Causes of Sex Addiction: Signs include loss of control, preoccupation with sexual thoughts, risky behaviors, and continuation despite negative consequences, often caused by trauma, family background, neurochemical factors, and co-occurring mental health conditions.Treatment and Support Options for Sex Addiction: Effective treatment includes individual, group, and couples therapy, sometimes medication, and support groups like Sex Addicts Anonymous, focusing on managing urges, addressing emotional wounds, and rebuilding trust.Supporting Partners and Moving Toward Recovery: Supporting a partner involves encouraging professional help, honest communication, boundaries, and patience, with recovery being a long-term process that can restore trust and foster emotional healing. What Is Sex Addiction? Sex addiction is a real, tangible challenge rooted in deeper emotional and psychological wounds—not simply a relationship issue or a matter of willpower. It’s crucial for you to understand that sex addiction isn’t caused by a lack of love or attraction toward you; rather, it stems from underlying psychological struggles that require specialized, professional support. Sex addiction mirrors other addictions, such as substance abuse, involving compulsive behaviors, intense cravings, and difficulty stopping despite devastating consequences. Studies suggest that sex addiction may affect about 3% to 10% of the general population in North America. Additionally, sex addiction occurs more frequently in men than women, with research indicating that for every two to five males with hypersexuality, one woman is affected. This article explores what sex addiction truly is, how it differs from healthy sexuality, the underlying causes, and the proven treatment options available for those ready to reclaim their lives from this condition. Defining Sex Addiction Sex addiction is often misunderstood, creating confusion about what actually constitutes compulsive sexual behavior versus a healthy sexual appetite. It’s important for you to understand that sex addiction isn’t simply having a high sex drive or enjoying frequent sexual activity with your partner. Healthy sexuality involves intimacy, closeness, and affection that foster emotional growth and deeper connection between you and your partner. In contrast, compulsive sexual behavior is characterized by using sexual acts to avoid difficult emotions, ultimately leading to significant amounts of shame, lies, betrayal and alienation within your relationship. Sex Addiction vs. Porn Addiction Sex addiction is also distinct from porn addiction, though the two can be interconnected. While some individuals struggling with sex addiction may frequently engage in pornography or phone sex, sexual addiction encompasses a much broader range of compulsive sexual behaviors. These behaviors include reckless sexual activity, excessive masturbation, frequent one-night stands, infidelity, paying for sexual services, seeking out strangers for sexual encounters, or involvement with sex workers and strip clubs. Cheating on you as their partner is a behavior that arises from the compulsive nature of sex addiction, creating even deeper wounds in your relationship. Moreover, sex addiction is not synonymous with sex offending, although many sex offenders may also struggle with sexual addiction. Criteria for Sex Addiction Mental health professionals rely on specific criteria to identify this disorder, including: Loss of control over sexual actions and compulsive behaviors despite repeated efforts to stop.Preoccupation with sexual thoughts and fantasies that dominate daily life.Inability to fulfill ...
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    21 mins
  • Loving a Sexual Abuse Survivor: A Partner’s Practical Guide

    Loving a Sexual Abuse Survivor: A Partner’s Practical Guide
    Oct 27 2025
    Loving someone who is a survivor of childhood sexual abuse (CSA) is a journey many walk but few discuss openly. As the partner, you stand in a unique and often challenging place. You may feel confused by triggers, hurt by what feels like rejection, and helpless in your desire to connect with the person you love. The past trauma can feel like a third person in your marriage, impacting everything from sexual intimacy to everyday affection. You are not alone in this. And more importantly, there is hope. Healing is possible, not just for the survivor, but for the relationship. We invited author, speaker, and survivor Mary DeMuth to Normalize therapy for a compassionate and practical conversation. She and her husband, Patrick, have navigated this path and offer a rare window into the journey from both sides. https://youtu.be/XcpGYV0JfJ8 Here is an edited transcript of our conversation, offering practical wisdom for partners who are committed to loving their spouse toward healing. Meet Mary DeMuth: A Survivor’s Perspective Caleb: Mary, thank you so much for joining us. Your willingness to speak on difficult topics like this is a lifeline for so many. Before we dive in, for listeners who may not be familiar with your story, could you share a little bit about why this topic is so close to your heart? Mary: Yeah. So as you mentioned, I am a survivor of sexual assault in, uh, several different kinds of forms, primarily one year as a kindergartner, uh, for multiple times. And so there’s just a lot of sexual brokenness there. Knowing the statistics and knowing how many people, whether men or women who have been sexually assaulted… it deeply impacts your intimate relationships. And… no one ever talked to us about it, and it was not an easy climb out of that hole. So I just am here to offer some hope because there were many years where I felt hopeless about it. The “Hottie For Your Honey Seminar”: Why Culture Gets Sex Wrong for Survivors Caleb: In one of your articles, Mary, you described being at a woman’s conference where the speaker was exhorting women to be a “hottie for your honey”. And… your description of feeling so uncomfortable and out of place… you also use the phrase of feeling like a “skinny girl at a sumo wrestling seminar,” that kind of really powerful image of feeling alienated. Can you talk about that gap between the common cultural or church narrative about marital sex and the actual reality for survivors of childhood sexual abuse? Mary: I remember sitting in that room… and I was so mad. I knew the statistics and I knew that between anywhere from 40 to 75% of those women had been sexually assaulted in some way. And for them to be forced or pressured… to act a certain way, was hard enough for someone with no injury, but… almost impossible for someone with sexual injury. There’s two problems. One problem is, as a survivor of sexual abuse, some of the things they were telling us to do were impossible for me, at least at that time. The second part was that in a lot of these spaces… they’ll be like, “Don’t have sex before marriage”. Okay, great. The moment you’re married, then suddenly… you have to just be a hundred percent okay with everything when you’ve been told that it’s bad and awful and terrible up until that point. So if you take those two things together, if you’re a sexual abuse victim and you’ve been raised in that kind of evangelical complex… it makes for a very disappointing and freaked out… wedding night. Caleb: Yeah. And then day of marriage, you’re supposed to flip a switch… I can’t even imagine layering on top of that when you’re a survivor of sexual violence and your body is just like, “What? This is safe now?” It’s very confusing. Beyond the Bedroom: When Even a Hug Feels Unsafe Caleb: And so while it… makes sense that the sexual intimacy is a huge challenge, you’ve also written about how trauma affects… everyday non-sexual affection too. You used… this beautiful and kind of funny metaphor about it being easier to “chase an aloof cat” than to hug your own family sometimes. Can you unpack that for us? How does the trauma footprint extend beyond sex into daily acts of physical touch? Mary: Well typically, and not always, but typically in an abusive situation, um, your body helps you by disassociating you. For instance, when I was being harmed… as a five-year-old, I’d fly up to the top of the trees. I would dissociate from it. And… that becomes this like safety pattern for you… this fear of connecting with your body. I also was raised in a home where there was very little affection. I had to beg for it. And so when my kids would be injured, I knew what the right thing to do was. I knew that I needed to comfort them. I needed to wrap my arms around them. …but that was not innate to me. And I, so I had to tell myself to do those things… My fallback was to disassociate. And so I had to coach ...
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    47 mins
  • Is Past Trauma Affecting Your Singing Voice?

    Is Past Trauma Affecting Your Singing Voice?
    Oct 13 2025
    For many performers, the voice can feel like a mystery. You practice the techniques, you know the music, but a persistent block, chronic tension, or crippling stage fright holds you back from your true potential. What if the root of that struggle isn’t in your technique, but in your history? The body keeps a score of our experiences, and for a singer, whose very instrument is their body, the impact of past trauma can be profound. Unresolved trauma can manifest as physical “body armoring,” a deep sense of being unsafe on stage, and a destructive inner critic. To explore this powerful connection, Therapevo’s Caleb Simonyi-Gindele sat down with our colleague Ron de Jager. Ron lives at the unique intersection of world-class performance and clinical counselling. As a Doctor of Musical Arts, an accomplished vocalist, and a specialist therapist, he offers a unique and compassionate perspective on what it takes to heal the instrument and set your voice free. https://youtu.be/h67KrGHF7hg Here is a polished transcript of their conversation. Why is a singer’s experience of trauma so profoundly different? Caleb: For our listeners, can you start by explaining one of the powerful statements from your research: “A singer’s body is his or her instrument.” Why does that make a singer’s experience of trauma so profoundly different? Ron: I started as a pianist, so my instrument was here in front of me. It was me and the instrument, and the audience was there. Then all of a sudden, you take that away and it’s just me. That becomes a much more vulnerable situation. When you’re vulnerable, more things will start to show up. We might be a little bit naive in thinking that we’ve got it masked and covered very well, but sometimes the audience is pretty perceptive. No matter our best job at covering it, our body will still show certain things. As a singing teacher, I started to become aware of those things, like, “Where is that showing up, why is it showing up, and what is it indicative of?” It’s a symptom of something rather than just being the problem. Just something like getting nervous—if you get a little nervous when you’re speaking, the voice can start to quiver, you don’t get enough breath underneath it, and all of a sudden you squeak and crack. That body stuff might show up more for singers than other kinds of musicians because it’s just you and your voice out there. How can past trauma manifest in a singer’s performance? Caleb: You’ve said that trauma affects the entire organism—physical, mental, social, and spiritual. Can you give us an example of how a past trauma, like childhood sexual abuse, might manifest in a singer’s voice or performance in a way that most of us would probably not even recognize? Ron: For sure. Especially if it’s undealt with, it can show up physically in different ways. Some things that I’ve noticed with singers is locking through the lower abdominal areas, through the solar plexus, and right into the pelvis. It can be in the knees and the buttocks as well. All those areas will just lock and get tense. It can be jaw or tongue tension as well. You can see it sometimes if the individual is really trying to get sound out without releasing; you can see trembling in the lower abdominal area. Jaw tension is often a position of “we’re not going to let anybody in.” In a place where you’re trying to express very openly and freely, when you’re not letting people in, people can see something’s going on there. If the tongue is really tense, it will pull the larynx high, which means you’re going to have to work extra hard. Imagine if we’ve got tension here, and here, and we’re trying to make a free sound—how much that’s going to hold the singer back, not just in their sound, but in their storytelling. You’re working against all these roadblocks. How can singing be both healing and re-traumatizing? Caleb: Many people see singing as a joyful and expressive act. How does unresolved trauma create a paradox where the very act of singing can be both a source of potential healing and, simultaneously, a source of re-traumatization? Ron: Music is such an amazing healer, and we can never underestimate that. From a singer’s standpoint, the fact that we have to inhale from a really deep place and then release breath—that breathing itself is cathartic. But then feeling that all of a sudden we can make sounds, that we actually have a voice and that voice matters. Often with abuse, the voice is squelched, physically or psychologically. If there was ever a time when the individual felt that their voice didn’t matter, all of a sudden it starts to matter. You have something worth saying. And you don’t have to just say it with words; you can say it with music added to it, because there’s so much more behind it. At the same time, it can be retraumatizing. I never really thought about this until I was working with singers more and I would ask...
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    38 mins
  • How Do I Know When My Marriage Is Beyond Repair?

    How Do I Know When My Marriage Is Beyond Repair?
    Sep 29 2025
    Key Takeaways Dr. John Gottman’s research identifies four critical predictors of divorce: criticism, contempt, defensiveness, and stonewallingSafety must come first – marriages involving abuse cannot and should not be repaired until the abusive partner commits to changeMany seemingly hopeless marriages can be saved through emotion-focused therapy when both partners show willingness to reconnectThe presence of fundamental respect, shared values, and mutual commitment to growth often indicates a marriage worth savingProfessional intervention through couples therapy significantly improves outcomes for distressed marriages when both partners participate https://youtu.be/wvZFraXEKyQ Asking yourself “how do I know when my marriage is beyond repair” represents one of the most painful moments in any relationship. When your marriage feels broken beyond repair, it’s natural to wonder if the damage can ever be undone. The constant fear that your entire relationship has reached an irretrievable breaking point can create an overwhelming emotional toll on your physical and mental health. Yet here’s what decades of research in emotion-focused couples therapy reveals: not all marriages that feel beyond repair actually are. While some relationships face truly insurmountable challenges, many couples who believe their marriage is beyond saving can rebuild their emotional connection and create a healthy relationship through professional guidance and mutual commitment to the healing process. Understanding the difference between a troubled marriage experiencing severe distress and one that’s genuinely beyond repair requires examining specific warning signs, recognizing when safety concerns must take priority, and knowing when hope for rebuilding remains possible. Immediate Warning Signs Your Marriage May Be In Serious Danger When couples find themselves feeling uncertain about their relationship’s future, certain warning signs indicate that immediate intervention is necessary. These symptoms don’t necessarily mean your marriage is beyond repair, but they signal that professional help is urgently needed to prevent further deterioration. Complete emotional shutdown represents one of the most serious warning signs. When one partner or both partners feel absolutely nothing positive toward each other anymore, the emotional distance has reached a critical point. This goes beyond temporary disconnection during stressful periods—it’s a persistent state where spending time together feels forced and artificial. Persistent contempt emerges through eye-rolling, name-calling, mocking behavior, and deliberate attempts to make your spouse feel inferior. Unlike healthy disagreements that focus on specific issues, contempt attacks your partner’s character and worth as a person. This toxic environment creates lasting damage to self-esteem and mutual respect. Total communication breakdown lasting months or years without any genuine attempts at resolution indicates that both partners have essentially given up on genuine communication. When conversations only involve logistics about daily life or escalate immediately into harmful behaviors, the foundation for rebuilding trust becomes severely compromised. Repeated betrayals involving infidelity, financial deception, or other major violations of trust—especially when accompanied by no genuine remorse or commitment to change—create a pattern that becomes increasingly difficult to overcome. The repeated betrayals destroy the safety necessary for emotional intimacy to survive. Active avoidance of each other and complete refusal to discuss relationship issues may indicate that one or both partners have emotionally checked out. When couples live separate lives under the same roof and actively avoid quality time together, they’re functioning more like hostile roommates than married partners. Spouse refuses all forms of marriage counseling or professional intervention, demonstrating an unwillingness to acknowledge problems or work toward solutions. When one partner categorically rejects the possibility of change or growth, the prognosis becomes much more challenging. The Four Horsemen: Gottman’s Predictors of Divorce Dr. John Gottman’s groundbreaking research spanning over four decades has identified four communication patterns that predict divorce with remarkable accuracy. These “Four Horsemen” represent toxic patterns that gradually erode the foundation of even previously strong marriages. Understanding these patterns helps distinguish between relationships experiencing temporary distress and those facing more serious threats. Criticism vs. Complaints Healthy marriages involve addressing problems through specific complaints that focus on particular behaviors or situations. Destructive criticism, however, attacks your partner’s character rather than addressing the underlying issues causing conflict. Constructive complaint: “I felt hurt when you forgot our ...
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    43 mins