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Surrender Isn't Giving Up P.1 -- Ep. 007

Surrender Isn't Giving Up P.1 -- Ep. 007

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 I crawled into 2020 not wanting to live anymore. The 11 year journey to rock-bottom led me down a path to better understanding why I was so fucked up. 5-years later and I’m on the mend, off the couch, and forward living for the first time since separating from the Military. Back in 2017 — I had set out to learn why so many other Veterans, like myself, struggled after service to create a life worth living again for themselves. It didn’t make sense to me that so many smart, strong, and capable human beings in their youths would become shells of their former selves decades after service. At this point, 22 brothers and sisters a day were still killing themselves post-war which was 18x more lives lost than in actual combat throughout the last 25 years. Through an immersion into my own healing journey and subsequent transformation from it — I feel like I can bring clarity to this continuing issue today. 8 years ago, there was no true definition of PTSD. Today, I innerstand my own enough to manage it and live forward again. Same with Fibromyalgia — a condition that has crippled me until now. Scientistsand doctors still don’t really know what it is — yet, I’ve learned to manage it and can live a physical life once again. A big part of this shift was accepting that I’ll never be a 25-year old Marine Sergeant again. I’ll never be able to train like a spartan warrior again. I’ll never be able to work 18-hour days, 100-hour weeks, and still hit the gym 5x through out it again. The big acceptance came from realizing that I don’t actually want those things for myself anymore. Part of this healing journey was learning who I actually was and who I am truly becoming. Accepting who I’ve been and who I am no longer. Which facing my mortality as a Marine and GOD-forbid physical maturity has been difficult to say the least. There is no glory, dying in your sleep at 65. There’s only glory in giving life for purpose. Yet, I have given life for purpose. I gave the better years of my youth to understanding the plight so many of us go through, losing friends, careers, and lucrative opportunities along the way. I needed to learn why I hated everyone and everything — especially myself. I knew back then, that no matter how successful I was externally, all the pain inside would lead me to ruining it. So I gave up everything for a better understanding of myself, which has become an immense innerstanding, and now I am mended living forward once again as I continue to heal and always stay figuring it out. I mean, if I eat avocado oil — forgetta bout it, inflamed, in-pain, and out of my mind for days. Yet I now know the causes of such pain and insanity allowing me to curtail my life to mitigate symptoms. However, I know there are actual cures out there for what we all face. Part of this podcast’s purpose is to chronicle known remedies and cutting-edge modalities while discovering new ones. Yet, healing will always start and end with the greatest common factor — YOU. You have to choose to go through the fear and pain to heal, as well as all the “nevers” you said you’d never do. Yet, on the other side of this surrender through humility is true happiness through relief. It starts with a choice and it can start today. Let’s Jump In. Follow our social media pages: Facebook: ⁠https://www.facebook.com/share/1FWsPpcm3H/?mibextid=wwXIfr⁠ YouTube: ⁠https://www.youtube.com/@VeteranDadPodcast⁠ LinkedIn: ⁠https://www.linkedin.com/groups/13261037/⁠ Instagram: ⁠https://www.instagram.com/veteran_dad_podcast?igsh=a3M4OWY4ajN3bHg%3D&utm_source=qr⁠ X/Twitter: ⁠https://x.com/VetDadPodcast⁠ Shoot us an email with any questions or requests at: veterandadpodcast@gmail.com
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