Courtney’s original life plan was simple: keep drinking, keep using, quietly disappear. Sobriety was not the plan — but it turned out to be the thing that gave her a bigger, funnier, fuller life than she ever imagined. In this episode, we talk addiction, shame, strawberries, bad decisions, dark humor, and why getting sober didn’t end her life — it finally gave her a life worth living.

Show Notes:
Summary

The conversation delves into the personal struggles of addiction, highlighting the impact of choices made during this time. Courtney shares her experiences with theft and dishonesty, particularly in relation to her family, and reflects on the consequences of her actions.

Takeaways

Courtney openly admits to stealing money during her addiction.

She reflects on a specific incident of stealing from her niece's piggy bank.

The act of claiming to be a designated driver while being drunk illustrates her struggles.

Addiction often leads to low points in personal integrity.

Family relationships can be deeply affected by addiction and dishonesty.

Courtney's story emphasizes the importance of honesty in recovery.

The conversation sheds light on the emotional turmoil associated with addiction.

Consequences of addiction can manifest in various forms, including theft.

Courtney's experiences serve as a cautionary tale for others.

The discussion highlights the need for support and understanding in recovery journeys.

Chapters

00:00 The Struggles of Addiction

00:20 Consequences of Choices

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Both Emily and Courtney have had their run-ins with homelessness—sometimes more than once. This week, we delve into what it’s like to live without a roof over your head—and the bizarre blend of humor, humility, and resilience that comes with it. The little moments, the quiet dignity, and the unexpected things you discover about yourself when stability takes a hike. Honest, imperfect, and somehow more human—and maybe a little funnier—than we thought.

Show Notes:

Takeaways
Courtney dressed as The Jesus from The Big Lebowski for Halloween.
She was surprised that no one recognized her costume.
The conversation highlights the cultural impact of movies on Halloween choices.

Summary

In this light-hearted segment, Courtney shares her Halloween experience dressing as The Jesus from The Big Lebowski, expressing her surprise at the lack of recognition from others regarding her costume.

Titles

The Big Lebowski Halloween Costume Surprise
Cultural References in Halloween Costumes

Sound bites

"Nobody knew who I was."
"It went."
"Get out."

Chapters

00:00 The Emotional Farewell to Kiki

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Friendship breakups: somehow more devastating than romantic ones, and with none of the sympathy cards. In Episode 2, we unpack platonic divorces, alcoholism, bad judgment, recovery, and how two former best friends managed to survive each other long enough to start a podcast. Poor choices were made.

Show Notes:

Summary

In this episode, Emily and Courtney explore the complexities of platonic friendships, particularly focusing on the challenges and emotional turmoil that can arise when these relationships end. They share personal stories of friendship breakups, the impact of substance abuse on their connections, and the journey of recovery. The conversation delves into the importance of vulnerability, making amends, and the evolving nature of friendships as life circumstances change. They also discuss the healing power of friendship and the significance of reaching out for support during difficult times.

Takeaways

Everybody acts like they know exactly what's going on.

Friendship breakups can be as painful as romantic ones.

Substance abuse can severely impact friendships.

Recovery can change the dynamics of relationships.

Making amends is crucial for personal growth.

Friendships can evolve and change over time.

It's important to communicate openly in friendships.

Vulnerability can strengthen connections with others.

Letting go of past relationships is a part of healing.

New friendships can bring joy and fulfillment.

Sound bites

"I would date me?"

"I would love to date me."

"It'd be nice to hear from people."

Chapters

00:00 Navigating Post-Production Challenges

03:06 The Evolution of Platonic Friendships

06:00 Friendship Breakups: Personal Stories

08:44 Consequences of Substance Abuse on Friendships

11:50 The Impact of Recovery on Relationships

14:48 Friendship Dynamics in Recovery

17:47 The Complexity of Friendship Endings

20:52 Reconnecting After Years Apart

23:39 The Role of Apologies in Friendships

26:47 The Healing Power of Friendship

29:40 Making Amends and Moving Forward

32:44 The Shift in Friendships with Life Changes

35:43 Finding Joy in New Connections

38:11 The Importance of Vulnerability in Friendships

41:01 Letting Go of Past Relationships

43:59 The Journey of Friendship and Support

47:02 Listener Engagement and Sharing Stories

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