Many of us who were raised to be good little girls are facing some hard realizations these days.

This episode is a stark look at the links between cults, high-control religion, and sex trafficking rings, and their impact on girls and women.

Amanda grew up inside the Institute in Basic Life Principles (IBLP) cult, a high-control religious system where girls were trained to be compliant, deferential, and self-policing. Being “good” meant protecting the system. It meant absorbing harm quietly. It meant never being the problem.

In this conversation, Amanda and Kyle explore how “good girl” conditioning doesn’t just operate inside cults. It operates anywhere power is protected and girls are expected to stay agreeable. They talk about what it means to be “good” in these systems, about silence, about trauma in the body, and about why watching powerful men avoid consequences can feel destabilizing for women who were trained to keep everyone comfortable at their own expense.

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We're focusing on our little family this week, but will release back-to-back episodes to make up for the delay. See you in a week!

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Fear lives in the stories we tell ourselves, the categories we cling to, and the way we decide who is safe and who is “other.”

In this episode, Amanda and Kyle examine how fear quietly shapes worldviews in cults, families, belief systems, politics, and everyday thinking. Amanda reflects on a question listeners have asked for years: How did your parents end up in a cult? Her answer is simple, but unsettling: fear.

Together, Amanda and Kyle explore how fear and high-control systems operate in strikingly similar ways. They simplify complexity. They demand certainty. They divide the world into clean categories: good and bad, safe and dangerous, us and them. Over time, those categories harden into ideology and, eventually, into identity.

This conversation also looks inward. How does fear get internalized? How do we inherit beliefs without examining them? How does learned fear turn into a “cult of one,” where data no longer penetrates and unhelpful beliefs go unquestioned?

This episode invites listeners to slow down, notice what fear is doing inside them, and gently interrogate the beliefs they’ve been taught to protect.

If you’ve ever wondered how people come to believe what they believe, this episode offers language, clarity, and a slower, steadier way of noticing what fear is doing inside us.

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We’re often told that exposure leads to change. That once harm is named, brought into the light, or made public, something will finally shift.

But that hasn’t been Amanda's experience.

In this episode, Amanda and Kyle talk through why exposure alone rarely produces real change and why, in many systems, it actually becomes a substitute for it. They look at how harm can be acknowledged over and over without anything structural changing, how public reaction creates the feeling of accountability without enforcing it, and why the same dynamics keep repeating even when everyone inside the system knows what’s happening.

This conversation is about naming a pattern: the difference between awareness and transformation, and what gets lost when we confuse the two.

If you’ve ever felt unsettled watching harm be exposed again and again with no meaningful consequences, or felt pressure to disclose while power remains untouched, this episode is meant to give you language for that dissonance, and a clearer way of understanding what you’re seeing.

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In 2024, as public conversations about abuse, grooming, and accountability unfolded again and again, Amanda found herself watching familiar patterns repeat. These patterns felt uncomfortably close to the high-control religious world she thought she had left behind. For Amanda, this was not just cultural commentary. It was personal.

In this episode, Amanda and Kyle step away from sensationalism to offer something different: structure.

Using the cases of Jeffrey Epstein and Bill Gothard, Amanda explains the architecture of abuse. She examines how power is built, protected, and normalized, how grooming operates long before it becomes criminal, and why systems so often defend themselves at the expense of survivors.

Rather than focusing on graphic details or individual pathology, this conversation examines the conditions that allow abuse to flourish. It explores why the stories in the news feel eerily familiar, why true accountability and justice rarely occur, and why simply removing bad actors never fixes the underlying problem.

By the end of this episode, you will have a clearer framework for recognizing grooming and power dynamics.

This episode is for anyone who has felt disoriented watching recent narratives unfold, and for those who want language, clarity, and a steadier way of understanding what is really happening beneath the headlines.

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The holidays come with an expectation of joy. For many people, that expectation can feel impossible.

In this quiet, honest conversation, Amanda shares a truth she’s been sitting with for a long time: healing doesn’t automatically make you receptive to happiness or joy. When your nervous system formed in trauma, joy doesn’t arrive on command, and it often can’t depend on other people or outcomes you can’t control.

Together, Amanda and Kyle talk about trauma and the weight of holding other people’s stories, as well as what it looks like to create moments of joy that aren't forced or performative. Amanda shares how she has reframed joy to focus on small, sensory, unexpected moments that arrive when we make room for them.

If the holidays feel heavy this year, this episode is an invitation to let joy look different — and to know you’re not broken if it does.

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In this episode, Amanda and Kyle dive into moral scrupulosity OCD and how it has shaped Amanda’s life. She shares openly about the intense anxiety and compulsive behaviors she developed growing up in a high-control religious environment under Bill Gothard’s IBLP cult. These patterns looked like “perfectionism” on the surface but were actually rooted in fear, uncertainty, and shame.

Amanda discusses the research connecting high-control religion to obsessive-compulsive symptoms and explains how scrupulosity didn’t disappear when she left the belief system, it just changed form. Today, it shows up in relationships, conflict, and her own internal self-perception. She talks through the coping strategies she uses now, the progress she’s making in therapy, and what healing looks like in real time.

This episode is an honest, thoughtful conversation about anxiety, identity, and the leftover rules your brain keeps long after you’ve left a cult or high control religion behind.

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