In this raw and revealing chapter of the Rikers diaries, the Feloni$t opens up about the emotional battles that shape her days behind bars. She speaks candidly about the search for real support, the painful work of confronting her alcohol addiction, and the tangled, often draining relationship dynamics — especially with her husband — that force her to face truths she once avoided. As she unpacks her fears and the weight of past choices, she also leans into the power of self forgiveness.

In this raw episode, The Feloni$t shares her battle with despair, hope, and faith. Through vivid dreams, conspiracy theories, and the ache of missing loved ones, she reveals resilience's core. She begins to discover how self-awareness and small symbols like pennies ignite hope. This isn't just about surviving; it's reclaiming power when life feels out of control.

In this episode, the Feloni$t opens up about the quiet battles that don’t make the headlines — the weight loss, the haunting dreams of loved ones, and the sharp loneliness that settles in when support feels out of reach. She confronts her attachment to outcomes she can’t control, the fragile but vital role of friendship, and the hard work of accepting the present moment.

In this episode, The Feloni$t rides the emotional whiplash of legal updates, sleepless nights, and the countdown to freedom. Valentine’s Day hits different on the inside, stirring memories of real connection while she leans on writing to keep her mind steady. Between tense moments with other inmates and unexpected flashes of support, she searches for meaning in small signs — even a stray penny on the floor. Dreams expose her fears, forgiveness tests her patience, and hope becomes the one thing she refuses to surrender.

The Feloni$t doesn’t sugarcoat a thing. In Episode 10, she digs into the bruises Rikers left behind — the family tension, the emotional landmines, the boundaries she’s done pretending she doesn’t need. It’s a raw look at the mess, the growth, and the fight to rebuild a home that won’t break her again. This is survival turned self‑respect, spoken straight from the inside out.

It's a new tradition: Feloni$t Friday, a Friday reflection on the current realities faced by felons. In this bonus episode, the Feloni$t dives headfirst into the emotions and triggers that many incarcerated and formerly incarcerated individuals face in today's dangerous political climate in the US.

In this episode, the Feloni$t lays bare the mental grind of Rikers — the hunger, the fear, the blame, and the fight to stay whole. She wrestles with the possibility of never going home, the pull toward independence, and the ache for her young daughter.

Now entering her fourth month on Rikers, the Feloni$t turns to daily journaling as her lifeline, using it to carve out boundaries and preserve her sanity. This episode follows her as she confronts the emotional toll of being “produced” from Rikers for court appearances and the constant tension with prosecutors, defense counsel, and the judge. It’s an unfiltered look at managing fear, frustration, and the relentless pressure of incarceration while fighting to hold onto her humanity.