What if the life you built on your own terms still left you empty?

Jarod Taylor grew up in chaos — broken homes, addiction, instability, and learning early that if anything was going to work out, it would be on his terms.

God wasn’t someone he hated. God just wasn’t real.

Through his teens and 20s, Jarod became his own authority — chasing women, music, nightlife, success, and control. Eventually, he built a strong career, a home, and a family.

And still felt hollow.

What followed wasn’t a dramatic conversion. It was curiosity.

Jarod decided to “try on” Christianity — reading Scripture analytically, wrestling with doubt, logic, science, and reason.

Somewhere in the process, he fell in love with Jesus.

If you’ve ever:

• Lived life on your own terms

• Believed faith and logic were opposites

• Felt spiritually numb or hardened

• Wanted proof before belief

Jarod’s story is a reminder:

You don’t need all the answers. You just need an open heart.

What if the faith you thought you had wasn’t the same as surrender?

Jason Kanapkey grew up in church. Baptized at eight. Knew the language. Believed in Jesus.

But by 12, he was experimenting with drugs. By 16, chasing highs. By 17, couch-surfing and barely holding life together.

He believed in God. He just wasn’t following Him.

Years later, sitting on his couch as a young adult, reading Scripture with fresh eyes, everything shifted. And when he finally let go of the identity he was clinging to, he discovered something unexpected: obedience felt like abundance.

In this episode, Jason shares:

• Growing up around religion but discovering relationship

• Addiction, identity, and the quiet drift from God

• The surrender moment that transformed everything

• Serving before fully understanding

• Finding deep discipleship and brotherhood

• Navigating open-heart surgery and learning to receive grace

• Living out faith in the marketplace, not just the church

This isn’t a story about having it all figured out. It’s about daily transformation.

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Read: Romans 12:1–2, Matthew 6:33, Hebrews 11:6, Revelation 3:20

What do you do when the faith you inherited never brings the peace you’re promised?

Suzanne Hancock was born and raised in the Mormon (LDS) church. She followed the rules, did what was expected, and built her identity around a faith tradition handed down for generations—yet peace always felt just out of reach.

In this episode, Suzanne courageously shares her long, honest journey of seeking truth:

• Growing up Mormon and quietly questioning what didn’t sit right

• Feeling trapped between loyalty, identity, and unanswered questions

• Wrestling with shame, anxiety, and depression while searching for peace

• Stepping into a Christian church for the first time—alone and uncertain

• Discovering Jesus not as a system, but as a relationship

• Walking away from a lifelong identity and choosing Christ for herself

• Experiencing baptism as freedom, joy, and new life

• Learning to trust God daily with anxiety, parenting, and purpose

This is not a story about switching religions. It’s a story about seeking truth, finding peace, and choosing Jesus—no matter the cost.

If you’ve ever:

• Felt spiritually restless even inside a faith tradition

• Feared disappointing people by asking hard questions

• Struggled with anxiety, shame, or identity loss

• Wondered whether Jesus could really bring peace

Suzanne’s story is a powerful reminder that Jesus keeps His promise: “Seek, and you will find.”

🎧 Listen now to hear how surrender, courage, and grace reshaped one woman’s faith—and future.

• Matthew 3:17
• Matthew 7:7–8
• Jeremiah 29:11
• Psalm 103

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