What happens when the gun fires… but you wake up anyway?

In this episode of The Roller Coaster Podcast, I sit down with Nick Rossborough, a former professional fighter who lost his identity, his marriage, and nearly his life. One night, alone on a mountain with a pistol in his hand, Nick made a decision he believed would end the pain. But something happened that shouldn’t be possible. And moments later, a small voice from inside his house changed everything.

Nick takes us inside the darkest night of his life, the divorce, the identity collapse, the silent suffering so many men hide, and the long road back through trauma healing, breathwork, purpose, and learning to love himself again.

This isn’t just a survival story.

It’s a wake-up call.

If you’ve ever felt lost, numb, or ready to give up, this conversation is for you.

Subscribe, share this with someone who needs it, and leave a comment below. You’re not alone.

Key Moments:

0:00 I Put the Gun to My Head

3:07 Divorce, Heartbreak, and the Breaking Point

6:30 “Dad, I Made You Cookies”

9:00 When Losing My Identity Destroyed Me

12:25 Why Men Bottle Pain Until They Explode

15:28 Reading the Bible in a Week While Falling Apart

19:08 Vowing Never to Hit Rock Bottom Again

21:52 Loving Someone When You Can’t Love Yourself

23:55 Breathwork Visions That Changed Everything

27:32 The Oxygen Mask Rule That Rewired My Life

30:46 Here’s How I Escaped Trauma

33:13 The Real Reason Men Reach the Edge

35:35 How Do You Find a Reason to Stay Alive?

38:18 Meeting the Version of Myself I Abandoned

41:07 The Bullet That Killed the Old Me

43:25 Becoming a Man Who Needs No Validation

45:50 Facing Fear Through Plant Medicine

49:48 Why Human Connection Saves Lives

52:06 Love, Empathy, and Healing Without Medication

What do you do when your worst fear comes true… and no one even knows the truth?

In this episode of The Roller Coaster Podcast, I sit down with Adriana Sansam, a mother whose life changed forever when her husband died alone in a hotel room from an accidental overdose. One moment he was on a work trip. The next, she was racing for answers, convinced something was wrong before anyone confirmed it.

Adriana opens up about loving a recovering addict, hiding his addiction from everyone, and the devastating phone call that left her raising three young children alone. But this isn’t just a story about addiction and grief. It’s about breaking the stigma, telling the truth, and turning shame into purpose.

If you’ve been touched by addiction, mental health struggles, loss, or single parenting, this conversation will stay with you.

Listen now. Share this with someone who needs it. And subscribe for more stories that change lives.

Key Moments:

0:00 “I Knew Something Was Wrong”

3:12 Married to a Recovering Addict

6:05 The Phone Call That Confirmed My Fear

9:02 “He’s Dead”, Hearing the Words

12:10 Who He Was Beyond the Addiction

15:08 Understanding the Mind of an Addict

18:04 Explaining His Death to Our 5-Year-Old

21:06 When Shame Turned Into Silence

24:18 The Message That Changed Everything

27:30 Why I Finally Told the Truth

30:12 Did He Have a Reason to Keep Going?

33:40 When the Past Blocks the Future

36:10 “I Don’t Need More, I Need You”

39:05 Speaking to Him After His Death

42:18 A Message to Fathers Battling Addiction

45:30 Watching My Son Look for His Dad

Guest Info:

IG: adrianasansam (https://www.instagram.com/adrianasansam/)

What happens when the thing that defines you is taken away in a single moment?

On this episode of The Roller Coaster Podcast, I sit down with Mahi Crabbe, a former full-time musician who nearly lost his life in a brutal rock-crawling accident that crushed his hand and shattered his identity as an artist on November 3, 2018.

In a matter of seconds, Mahi went from touring and playing sold-out shows to lying in an ambulance, convinced his career was over. The injury didn’t just threaten his ability to play guitar, it forced him to confront deeper questions about purpose, faith, manhood, and how to provide for the family he always dreamed of building.

We talk about the night everything changed, the fear of starting over, the anger he carried toward God, and how losing his “guitar hand” ultimately led him to build an entirely new life as a business owner and father.

If you’ve ever had your plans ripped away, your identity shaken, or your faith tested, this conversation will hit home.

Watch this episode to see how losing everything became the beginning of something bigger.

Key Moments:

0:00 The Day I Lost My Hand

3:02 My Hand Was Hanging By Skin

6:05 Life Flashing Before My Eyes

9:10 “That’s His Guitar Hand”

12:36 Waking Up, My Identity Was Gone

15:32 I Couldn’t Be A Musician Anymore

18:39 From Hospital Bed To Truck Driver

21:30 Growing Up Without A Father

24:23 Becoming The Man I Never Had

26:50 The Night That Changed My Faith

29:40 From Leaving Church To Returning

33:03 Why God Took My Hand

35:41 My Family Came Back To Church

37:55 From Homeless To Business Owner

40:14 Why Hawaii Heals The Soul

42:49 My Message To Every Man Watching

Guest Info:

IG: @mahilive (https://www.instagram.com/mahilive/)