This wasn’t about productivity. It was about being pulled apart by life.

Working full time. Being a mom. Building something that matters. Holding space for everyone.

Trying not to lose myself in the process.

By the time I walked into that hotel room, my nervous system was fried. I wanted to rip my fucking hair out.

And then I closed the door. Dropped my body on the bed. And felt relief hit me like oxygen. This episode isn’t about doing more. It’s about what happens when you finally stop. When you choose yourself before you break.

🎙️ Untamed Spirits This one is for the women who are tired of being strong and ready to stop abandoning themselves.

This episode is the moment before everything went sideways — the quiet breath before the chaos I ran toward for years. Before the drugs, the streets, the jail time, the rape, the hustling, the “strong girl” mask I wore like armor. This is the version of me I never honored: the calm-before-the-storm girl who didn’t know what was coming, but damn sure survived it. If you’re ready to Break the Fuck Out of Numbing just to survive. https://www.paypal.com/ncp/payment/NY9ANGXRLQQNAI’m pulling back the curtain on the life I built in survival mode, the identity I crafted out of pain, and the chaos I chased because I didn’t know another way to feel powerful. This isn’t about trauma. This is about reclamation. About becoming the woman who leads with her voice instead of her wounds. About owning the story that shaped me and using it as fuel — not a cage.

In this raw, unfiltered episode of Untamed Spirits, I rip the mask off.

I take you into the party house where it all started, the all-nighters at the skating rink, my first DUl at 19, and the brutal truth behind why I drank-not to celebrate, but to disappear.

This is where the "the strong one" was born, the party girl armor was built, and the addict identity took root before I even had a chance to grow up.

This isnt healing-this is war. This is nervous system regulation for the woman who never felt safe. This is emotional reparenting for the girls who were left alone with trauma. This is your permission to feel what you've been swallowing for decades.

If you've ever felt too far gone, to fucked up, or too broken to begin again-this episode is for you.