If these past few years have taught me anything, it’s that these things happen far too much to far too many people. They change the course of our lives, they become the defining moments of our lives. 

I’ve learned there are far too many people out there. Way too many. And so many feel guilty or responsible. They feel like they were at fault, even if they were only a child. 

We hide and run, we struggle to find a way and even die trying to pave our own. All because of the actions of someone else. Someone who doesn’t even try to hide. Or have any shame, who think they have every right and who think they can threaten you when they’re the only people responsible for any kind of crime. 

No remorse, no regret. Just entitlement. There are so many people out there who seem to walk every day in the shadow of a monster’s unabashed deeds.

And it’s not uncommon to hear stories of bad shit happening every day. But we rarely come across conversations discussing the solutions for all of this, even when we may try to kickstart these conversations ourselves. Instead, we tell ourselves we aren’t capable and let some random strangers worry about that. 

I hope to one day do much more about shit like this, but for now: This is what I can do.

This whole "podcast", isn't something I've written and rewritten and edited a bunch of times. It's just something that I went with. Like

I said in the audio right there, I'm just doing whatever I can, however I can. I'm letting go of perfectionism, I'm letting go of compulsions and just willingly relinquishing a lot of that "control" stuff.

I recorded things kind of in a one-go fashion, on my phone. Edited on Audacity, and one of them's even from DaVinci Resolve. I liked it. And I just wrote a bunch of things that came to mind for these description boxes. Uploaded and published.

Even the content itself - I tried to keep it simple - until I started talking of course.

But I really did do it all in the hopes of it helping somebody. And it's been a great experience for me as well.

Not just the learning to use Audacity part or the learning to make a podcast part, but writing the whole thing, narrating it and this whole process - it's been helpful to me in helping me let go. And closing a chapter.

Yet again, now:

https://speak-your-mind.pages.dev/

As we make our way through life, we come across a lot of decision-making. The more we venture through our minds or especially if we take the philosophical route - we tend to get stuck a lot more. But there comes a point where you gotta get out of your head and just do things.

What I've written here might not make any sense from an external view point with reference to the episode itself, but it's a huge dilemma that just got solved for me by going a bit easier on myself. I don't know if everybody has principles they live their life by, but I'm somebody who couldn't betray myself on things like that. I still haven't changed, it's just that maybe my mind's been callussed a bit in some specific ways.

Again, full-length script here:

https://speak-your-mind.pages.dev/