Get Your Free Audiobook

After 30 days, Audible is ₹199/mo. Cancel anytime.

OR

Publisher's Summary

Cutler Ryder was everything I wasn’t. 

He was the hockey star. I was an outcast. He was best friends with my stepbrother, that same stepbrother who hated me. His two parents loved him. My mom was a junkie. My dad barely knew me. 

Years passed. I got my life together. Cut went onto NHL stardom. Then there was a text. 

I was drinking. There was a party. Cut was there....

I loved Cutler Ryder since the first moment I saw him. 

The only problem? He never knew I existed.  

©2020 Tijan (P)2020 Tijan

What listeners say about The Not-Outcast

Average Customer Ratings

Reviews - Please select the tabs below to change the source of reviews.

No Reviews are Available
Sort by:
Filter by:
  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • M. Knight
  • 27-12-20

Teary-eyed.

I don’t think I’ve ever written much of a book review and I am not sure how far I will go with this. I hate when people ruin the experience by giving away too much in the review. Therefore, I will simply say that I loved it. Anyone that ever picked up a Tijan book know that between the pages there’s a lot to unpack. It took me a bit longer to finish this book because my emotions were on major overload. I am not sure if it was the narration but I cried and I laughed out load a few times. In my humble opinion, get the book you will not be disappointed. The characters are amazing, the narration is superb and the story/plot/resolution ibeautiful. It was a credit well spent. I believe you will feel something and maybe even learn something.. I did!

14 people found this helpful

  • Overall
    2 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    1 out of 5 stars
  • Margaret Acoff
  • 19-01-21

couldn't finish

listen if you are in your early 20's this will amazing, if you are over 30 you'll hate it. I was 40 minutes in and between her constant rambling of her thoughts and her saying "lite o Meter" I almost ran into a wall head first.

8 people found this helpful

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • LilleyLoohLah
  • 26-12-20

Five Fuoway Stars. I Floved it

You’ll understand the book title, and my star rating title when you listen to this wonderful story.
Wow! I am so in awe of Tijan. This audio completely blew me away. A wonderfully addictive college romance (and beyond). Dealing with some real issues in such a sensitive and realistic and funny way. I loved Cheyenne, she was so real, she was perfectly flawed, and her thoughts kept a smile on my face (mostly). Cutler Ryder, well what can I say? He was the bomb. He was caring, he was true, and he was my perfect book boyfriend. He was the perfect partner for Cheyenne. He got her. He calmed her. He understood her, well, as much as she understood herself. I wanted to go right back to the beginning and start this book again.I knows it will stay with me for a long, long time to come. It’s a bold statement, but it’s possibly Tijan’s best book yet. I loved it that much. Narrated by Andi Arndt and Jason Clarke who, I must say, were more than perfect for the roles of Cut and Cheyenne. All the emotions, and all the feels. One of my favourite audios, ever!

5 people found this helpful

  • Overall
    1 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    1 out of 5 stars
  • Astrid
  • 31-12-20

Will the “REAL TIJAN

please “STAND UP?”

Characterization was awful! Way too many characters and no depth to any!

Only Andi is the reason I kept listening. Jason Clarke was the WRONG pick for THIS audio.

Tijan’s reasoning for not telling us what Cheyenne suffers from, panic attacks, borderline personality, bipolar disorder, histrionic disorder, Peter Pan Syndrome or a schizo-affective disorder made her unbearable!! I spent the entire audio trying to figure out what she suffered from so that I could empathize with her.

In the acknowledgments, Tijan writes that she didn’t want to label Cheyenne, that Cheyenne was just, Cheyenne. That’s pure BS! Not knowing what was going on in her head and what medication she was taking her took away from how awesome the story could have been.

Sorry Tijan, this was not a hit; it was mess!

P.S. Could you please branch out narrator wise? I will never listen to Jillian Macie or Terese Plummer EVER again so I returned them. Andi’s my number one, Maxine Mitchell, Emily Woo Zeller, Angela Dawe, Sonja Field, Jessica Almasy, Jill Redfield and Amanda Ronconi! Top chicks & they don’t need male counterparts, they all can do many different voices, accents and male characters as well!

4 people found this helpful

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Kindle Customer
  • 22-12-20

What an outstanding book!

I love the characters in this book. You could feel their personalities. Cheyenne was such a strong character, you have to love her. Cut was so swoon worthy! Fantastic writing. Yes, its a romance, but this book is so much more!

4 people found this helpful

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Gaudy Colon
  • 24-12-20

Such a great story

The story makes you have the main character in your heart, through her struggles and her courage it makes you root for her from the start. I really enjoyed this story, it was worth the credit

3 people found this helpful

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • brianne mihalik
  • 20-12-20

Amazing!

The is a beautifully written book. The characters are out of this world and you connect with Cheyenne instantly. Cut is perfect in every way! Just like every Tijan book, you get sucked in!

3 people found this helpful

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Kelly G.
  • 23-01-21

New to me author

Wow! This book had an impact on me. I went in totally blind. New to me author. Literally had no idea what I was getting into... all I did was listen to one of my favorite book pushers and she was ON POINT! I had so many feelings on this book that it really isn't even something I can talk too much about. I am usually not one for trigger warnings but I feel like this one could use one regarding the anxiety that Cheyenne deals with. She has some panic attacks during this book. I only say that because the author writes them so well that I actually started to feel a bit of an anxiety attack too... and then I felt so drained after! So REALLY great writing! And Cut was just everything.... super swoony to the max! I could have read so much more about these 2.

The narration was excellent! Same comments about the anxiety attacks.... Andi did such a fantastic job of describing them and bringing them to life that I was totally feeling it! And Jason is ... well 🔥 so basically perfect for Cutler!

I am so in love with this author and her writing that I have gotten a bunch of other books and I plan on getting into them as soon as I can. I am a fan!

2 people found this helpful

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Darlene
  • 08-01-21

Beautiful characters!

Such a beautiful story of how one person lives such a full life with mental struggles. Tijan masterfully modeled this character into such a loving person who wasn’t allowed to live in a healthy environment. Andi Arndt and Jason Clarke were perfect as always!

1 person found this helpful

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Posey Parks
  • 30-03-21

Heartfelt

I cried several times. My heart swelled for Cheyenne. I loved Cut. He was so patient with her. He was a true rock. Great story.

Sort by:
Filter by:
  • Overall
    4 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    4 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    4 out of 5 stars
  • Michaela Suomi
  • 13-04-21

The book has a good flow...

Loved it, never a dull moment in the story and as usual, Andi and Jason were great!

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • mazaraza
  • 04-04-21

As the saying goes you can't pick your family!!!!

I don't write many review but felt I had too. This book is one I've taken very much to my heart. It has helped me understand more about health issues of the brain/mind. I hope people can take away that we all are a little bit crazy and it's ok. Loved that Cut wanted to give Cheyenne a chance and understood her challenges where not total barriers. Thank you Tijan xxx
p.s you must have more stories about the Cat's ;)
p.p.s. I wish I could give you 10 stars....x

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Anonymous User
  • 19-03-21

Better than Ryan's bed & definitely funnier

This book made cry, made laugh, and fall in love. I think my favourite relationship is between Cheyenne and her brother, even though it was limited to emailing each other, you could feel their love for each other.

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Cathie McCartan
  • 01-02-21

New reader

Just recently discovered this author and can honestly say I’ve enjoyed every one of her books I’ve read so far .good story line and I feel the description of the characters in the book of their thoughts and feelings is very good. Looking forward to reading more 🙂

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Angela ~ Jezabell Girl & Friends
  • 19-01-21

What a story ❤️

Words couldn’t do this book justice so I’m not going to try to review it. Needless to say, the story has all the feels and leaves you with happiness and hope in your heart.

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Sarah
  • 17-01-21

One of best tijan books!

🎧 AUDIO REVIEW 🎧

AUDIO - 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟
BOOK - 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟

Wow I tijan books but this one was amazing. I loved cut from the beginning the way he got facts before he called it and the way he took to Chey.

Chemistry, connection, trauma, medical issues.

This book has everything!

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Anna W
  • 02-01-21

Love ❤️

This book is soooo good!
The approach to mental illness, the possessiveness and sweetness of the hero, the friendships! Just so so good!! Special love of mama Alice and Juna

Narration perfection - both my absolute favourite narrators....

Going to listen again now to ease the book hangover!

  • Overall
    2 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    4 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    1 out of 5 stars
  • Wizzerwoogie
  • 27-12-20

this book was really really hard going,

I persevered and was determined to finish it but I was also glad to get to the end very disappointed. The only saving grace was the fact that 2 of the absolute best narrator's were at the helm delivering yet another fantastic performance

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • LilleyLoohLah
  • 26-12-20

Five Fuoway Stars. I Floved it

You’ll understand the book title, and my star rating title when you listen to this wonderful story.
Wow! I am so in awe of Tijan. This audio completely blew me away. A wonderfully addictive college romance (and beyond). Dealing with some real issues in such a sensitive and realistic and funny way. I loved Cheyenne, she was so real, she was perfectly flawed, and her thoughts kept a smile on my face (mostly). Cutler Ryder, well what can I say? He was the bomb. He was caring, he was true, and he was my perfect book boyfriend. He was the perfect partner for Cheyenne. He got her. He calmed her. He understood her, well, as much as she understood herself. I wanted to go right back to the beginning and start this book again.I knows it will stay with me for a long, long time to come. It’s a bold statement, but it’s possibly Tijan’s best book yet. I loved it that much. Narrated by Andi Arndt and Jason Clarke who, I must say, were more than perfect for the roles of Cut and Cheyenne. All the emotions, and all the feels. One of my favourite audios, ever!

Sort by:
Filter by:
  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Anonymous User
  • 11-01-21

Brilliant

An absolute must read! I started out not liking it, because it triggered me, my own childhood and her struggles, but I couldn't stop listening and crying. I also see my husband a whole new way for him accepting and anchoring me like Cut. Thank you, this has healed a part of me that I didn't realise was so raw.

2 people found this helpful

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Stef kowalski
  • 15-02-21

Love all Tijan books but this is the best

What a moving story that all should listen to that need some humbling. What an amazing girl such strength.

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Amazon Customer
  • 10-02-21

So worth it

Loved this book, great story and the narrators were on point.
I highly recommend this book

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Anonymous User
  • 01-02-21

A whole new world

I loved every Second of this book, It open by eyes to things That I've never thought about. I loved all the characters. It's worth buying it

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Kristie-Leigh
  • 30-01-21

Amazing book!

Wow this book was really something else. I was completely captivated by this story & the characters.

There is a lot of real topics mentioned in this book including mental health issues, bad childhood & drug use. Shi’s story was heartbreaking. Imagine being a child struggling in your own head & having not one person want you. Seriously the first part of the book had me raging!!!! I was so angry at Shi’s father & Natasha for not doing everything in their power to help her. Shi herself was so loveable, smart, beautiful and selfless. She just needed to be loved.

I absolutely adored Cut. He was nothing short of amazing 100% of the time. He was completely devoted to Shi from the moment he notices her. He is so understanding and it was so beautiful to read. The car park scene 🥰 So much intensity & looovvveeeeee!

Shi & her 2 besties are seriously GOALS! I loved reading their escapades. I loved that Shi had so many people around her that cared so deeply for her which made up for her shitty excuse of a family.

I also loved that Hunter maintained as much of a relationship with Shi as he could despite the family members trying to keep him from her. Don’t get me started on FUCKING CHAD! I’ve never loathed a book character more then Chad. Seriously I just couldn’t deal with how horrible he was and he didn’t even have a good excuse’ It was the definition of ‘but I was told... or ‘but I thought...’ I was so glad he basically disappeared & seemingly lost everything good in his life even though he was sorry at the end.

Seriously this book is worth the read. I literally didn’t sleep last night so I could finish it 😅

Narrators nailed it like always. Love these two!

⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Anonymous User
  • 13-01-21

Great story

This book is amazing. I love the characters and narrators. The story was very well written and was such an easy and enjoyable listen. The story was the perfect length, perfect rise and falls and so much depth to the characters. Loved it ! Would listen to it again

  • Overall
    3 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    4 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    3 out of 5 stars
  • Gemz16
  • 10-01-21

Meh

Better than some of this authors other books. It was ok, it at least made sense and the characters were likeable enough. Narrators were great.

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Anonymous User
  • 09-01-21

Beautiful

Shine you are amazing what a fab character.

As always Tijan delivers

The narrators are perfect

Highly recommend

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Felicity
  • 31-12-20

FANTASTIC

This was an amazing story. In the acknowledgement section, Tijan wrote that this book was different from the previous books she has written, and it is, but it is still just as amazing as her previous books. I have always loved reading books written by Tijan and this is no exception. This book isn't just focused on the romance, but it is also focused on life struggles and events that can have different reactions with everyone. Cheyenne was such a great character with situations in her life that she definitely didn't deserve, and yet, after it all she still dealt with her situations, no matter how hard, and came out still swinging. This is definitely a book I would recommend to you if you think you would like this, because if you decide to read this then you will definitely love it just as much as I did. I listened to this as an audiobook and loved both the amazing narration and the whole storyline. I hope you decide to read (or listen to) this, Enjoy!

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Heidi Budd
  • 22-12-20

fantastic

Narrative was fantastic, thank you Tijan for another winner. athlete will never be a time when we tire of reading what you write.