In this next chapter in my ongoing series recounting my efforts to live in a safe, comfortable environment, it is finally time to talk about my dad’s death. To put it in context, we take a deep dive into his life and go down some side routes, talking about my family in general. These times were also complicated because my sister Carol was battling throat cancer. This is a very long episode, but there is no good place to split it in the middle. The YouTube version has many photos, videos, and illustrations. So, you might want to watch this one rather than just listen.

Links of Interest

• Indiana School for the Deaf

• Delirium tremens a.k.a. “The DTs”

• Arsenal Technical High School

• Mission Impossible (1966 TV series)

• Peter Lupus

• Sydenham's chorea a.k.a. Saint Vitus' dance:

• Old Indianapolis City Hall

• Defense Finance and Accounting Service:

• Emmett J. Bean Finance Center

• Fort Benjamin Harrison

• Gallaudet University

• Sheet Metal Workers Union:

• Indiana Bell Telephone

• HPV-positive oropharyngeal cancer

• My video about the NFL “Crucial Catch” ceremony 10/21/2018:

• Central Indiana Council on Aging (CICOA

• Greenwood Healthcare Center:

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In this episode, I continue my series by recounting my efforts to maintain my Medicare and Medicaid benefits and live in a safe, comfortable environment.

Links of Interest

Special Needs Trust: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special_needs_trust

Employer Identification Number (EIN): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Employer_Identification_Number

Central Indiana Council on Aging (CICOA): https://cicoa.org/

2010 FIFA World Cup in South Africa: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2010_FIFA_World_Cup

Surname “Adewale” 218th most common in Nigeria: https://forebears.io/surnames/adewale

Larue Carter Mental Hospital: https://indyencyclopedia.org/larue-carter-hospital/

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In this episode, I am beginning a series that could possibly be the last of this podcast. It might not be. But it’s a series I need to get finished in case this is the last.

Unless I pull off a minor logistical miracle sometime in the foreseeable future, I will be leaving the house that I have lived in since I was a few weeks shy of my fourth birthday. I will be moving into a skilled nursing facility where I hope to live out my days in comfort.

This series will chronicle my battles to receive the benefits I need to live a safe and fulfilling life. It will lead up to my current situation, which has led me to conclude that it’s time to move on to a different setting. I have no idea how long this series will take. It’s a long story.

Links of Interest

Spinal Muscular Atrophy (SMA): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spinal_muscular_atrophy

Duchenne Muscular Dystrophy (DMD): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Duchenne_muscular_dystrophy

Indiana Department of Vocational Rehabilitation: https://www.in.gov/fssa/ddars/brs/vocational-rehabilitation-employment/

Indiana Aged and Disabled Waiver: https://www.in.gov/medicaid/members/home-and-community-based-services/aged-and-disabled-waiver/

Indiana Development Disability Waivers: https://www.in.gov/medicaid/members/home-and-community-based-services/family-supports-waiver/

Developmental Disability Defined: https://www.in.gov/gcpd/developmental-disability/

An older document defining DD: https://www.in.gov/fssa/ddars/files/Eligibility_and_ICF_ID_DD_LOC_Determination_signed.pdf

Mensa International: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mensa_International

Types of trusts: https://blogs.iu.edu/sharedsolutions/2023/08/21/planning-for-the-future-special-needs-and-miller-trusts-explained/

Newspaper article about Special Needs Integrity agency: https://www.indystar.com/story/news/2015/11/16/nonprofit-accused-taking-millions/75886746/

Interview with Greg Fehribach: https://www.ibj.com/videos/interview-issue-2015-greg-fehribach

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In this episode, we review the last four films in this year’s survey of the Oscar-nominated Best Pictures. We will recap all of the winners versus my picks.

Links of Interest

“What Dreams May Come” (Act III, Scene I) “Hamlet”: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/What_Dreams_May_Come

“Train Dreams” (2025 film): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Train_Dreams_(film)

“Marty Supreme” (2025 film): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Marty_Supreme

“F1” (2025 film): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/F1_(film)

“Winning” (1969 film): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Winning_(film)

“Hamnet” (2025 film): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hamnet_(film)

“Hamlet” (play c1600 William Shakespeare): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hamlet

Movie awards for 2025 releases

98th Academy Awards: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/98th_Academy_Awards

82nd Golden Globe Awards: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/82nd_Golden_Globes

32nd SAG Actor.Awards: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/32nd_Actor_Awards

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In this episode, we continue our look at Oscar-nominated films. In this episode, I explore four films so bizarre that they left me asking, “What the hell was that?”

Links of Interest

SNL sketch from 1979 “What the hell is that?” on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DU_Gd623HJo

“The Secret Agent” (2025): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Secret_Agent_(2025_film)

“One Battle After Another” (2025): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/One_Battle_After_Another

“Nuremberg” (2025): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nuremberg_(2025_film)

“If I Had Legs I’d Kick You” (2025): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/If_I_Had_Legs_I%27d_Kick_You

“Bugonia” (2025): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bugonia_(film)

“Poor Things” (2023): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Poor_Things_(film)

Episode 80a, which discusses “On the Line”: https://contemplating-life.com/?p=437

“On the Line” (2022): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/On_the_Line_(2022_film)

Movie awards for 2025 releases

98th Academy Awards: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/98th_Academy_Awards

82nd Golden Globe Awards: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/82nd_Golden_Globes

32nd SAG Actor: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/32nd_Actor_Awards

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Contemplating Life – Episode 110 – “The Cost of Revenge”

In this episode, I recount a harrowing experience with a health scare last week and an incident that angered me so much that I indulged the darkest parts of my personality to plot a revenge that I never intended to deliver, but simply crafted to give me peace of mind. What that plot told me about myself was quite revealing. Trigger Warning: This episode contains misogynistic and offensive language.

Links of Interest

David Gerrold: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/David_Gerrold

St. Francis Hospital, Indianapolis: https://directory.franciscanhealth.org/location/franciscan-health-indianapolis

Florence Nightingale: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Florence_Nightingale

Lycanthrope: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Werewolf#:~:text=)%2C%20or%20occasionally-,lycanthrope,-%5Bb%5D

Episode 22 “The Reunion” an award-winning article I wrote in 1987: https://contemplating-life.com/?p=149

Matthew 25:34-36 (NASRE): https://bible.usccb.org/bible/matthew/25?34

The Golden Rule: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Golden_Rule

Luke 6:31 (NASRE): https://bible.usccb.org/bible/luke/6?31

“Planet of the Apes” (1968): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Planet_of_the_Apes_(1968_film)

Clip from “Planet of the Apes”: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cdmqn9JIuzc

Report about racist tweet reposted by Trump: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jImPTGrwF4Y

Rosary: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rosary

George Carlin “Confession”: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iEyJ0XZoKSU

Episode 104 “Prophets Aren’t About Prophecy”: https://contemplating-life.com/?p=580

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In this episode, we continue our look at Oscar-nominated films. We will discuss three nominated films and a bonus film about men who have devoted their lives to show business. As they age, they look back at the sacrifices they had to make to fulfill their dreams.

Links of Interest

“Song Sung Blue” (2025): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Song_Sung_Blue_(2025_film)

“Song Sung Blue” (2008 documentary) Wikipedia article: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Song_Sung_Blue_(2008_film)

“Song Sung Blue” (2008 documentary), entire film free on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YDukMQIz1Sc

“Blue Moon” (2025): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Blue_Moon_(2025_film)

Lorenz Hart: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lorenz_Hart

Richard Rogers: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Richard_Rodgers

“Boyhood” (2014): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Boyhood_(2014_film)

“Oklahoma!” (1943 Broadway musical): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oklahoma!

“A Connecticut Yankee” (1943 Broadway musical): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/A_Connecticut_Yankee_(musical)

“Sentimental Value” (2025): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sentimental_Value

“Jay Kelly” (2025): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jay_Kelly

Movie awards for 2025 releases

98th Academy Awards: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/98th_Academy_Awards

82nd Golden Globe Awards: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/82nd_Golden_Globes

32nd https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/32nd_Actor_Awards

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It’s time for my annual review of the 10 Best Picture Oscar-nominated films. In this episode, we review three nominated horror films: Frankenstein, Weapons, and Sinners. I’m not going to be able to finish all of these reviews by the March 15 Oscar ceremony, but even if I can’t get them recorded, I will write the scripts and post them on the podcast website and on Patreon. Post comments and tell me what you thought of these films.

Links of Interest

“Hamnet” (2025): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hamnet_(film)

“Wicked: For Good” (2025): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wicked:_For_Good

“Frankenstein” (2025): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Frankenstein_(2025_film)

“Frankenstein” (1818) novel by Mary Shelley: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Frankenstein

List of films featuring Frankenstein’s monster on Wikipedia:

“Frankenstein: The True Story” (1973 made-for-TV movie) https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Frankenstein:_The_True_Story

“Frankenstein” (1992 made-for-TV movie): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Frankenstein_(1992_film)

Stereotypical character Igor on Wikipedia: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Igor_(character)

“Weapons” (2025): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Weapons_(2025_film)

“The Thing” (1982): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Thing_(1982_film)

“Sinners” (2025): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Thing_(1982_film)

Movie awards for 2025 releases

98th Academy Awards: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/98th_Academy_Awards

82nd Golden Globe Awards: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/82nd_Golden_Globes

32nd https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/32nd_Actor_Awards

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