My Pulmonologist believes this is the illness I have dealing with, where your nerves and muscles can't communicate with each other. Which causes weakness and fatigue. Mine is more advanced because I'm having trouble breathing . My lungs can't expand and are restricted. Myasthenia Gravis is a rare autoimmune disease. I have a heart test Friday to see how my heart is functioning, then I'll see the neurologist to follow through with a treatment plan.

The piano plays no more, it used to play. Music used to fill the room and everyone was happy and singing. Now everyone is singing with a broken heart and tears in their eyes. The piano doesn’t sound the same as well as the music is a silent background to it. How can the piano be used for every event in an individual's life become quiet? The scene of grief that begins with music will always end with music. Driving by the place that had so many memories and now a new family is going to live there. Many would say it's just a house, but it’s not just a house. So many memories were created here and now there is a for sale sign out. Now everything will hit differently.

You know you’re good when you no longer ask to see no one. If they don’t text you or respond, you don’t care anymore. I am tired of putting in the effort, being stood up or left in the dark. I don’t care anymore. You will never see me ask to see anyone ever again. Waiting in a restaurant for almost two hours, to no response, why should I care? I am tired of the excuses. You have gotten to the point in your life that being with your husband is the only thing you need or by yourself. You don’t need a large group of friends to be happy. You don’t need to see everyone all the time to be happy either. If they don’t make the effort, then why should I? This is a two way street, it can’t be a one way street. If we can’t meet in the middle, then I am done. I have had my limit. Life is too short to depend on the ones who can so easily leave you in the dark and not even care. They will keep repeating the same way they have treated you since from the beginning, until it either breaks you or makes you realize you deserve better. All of us deserve better, but sometimes we have to be taught the same lesson multiple times, to realize we deserve better and we should do something about it. It’s hard to step out of something you’re comfortable with, but that’s the only way for things to change. Even ending certain relationships because it’s effecting your health. It’s hard to walk away, but sometimes walking away is the only choice we have left. Walking away is when the healing starts, but you if don’t walk away you will never heal.