I was part of a dance team when I was nine, we did the Christmas Day parade, Thanksgivings Day parade, as well as as other competitions which my team got in first or second place. Our photos were in the local newspaper. I also did gymnastics and Karate which I got a black belt at a young age. I always loved competing. I did several math competitions where you were times, and I got several trophies for beating the timer. During my eight grade year I had to represent a country. My country was the Republic of Congo, which there is two parts, but I represented Congo, not Republic of Congo. We had to do our speech in their native language which was French. I did speech in front of 300 people, while the day before I had surgery to have my tongue removed. I got our school in second place. Then my freshman year of high school I did a 4-h conference where I did a presentation in front of my colleges and universities. I also did Peer Administration my freshman and junior year, I always loved a good challenge.

Type write is more of a metaphor of how mad I was these last two years. Two individuals you trust with your confidentiality and they break it. It was handled, so I didn’t have to take any further, but this something that is one their record permanently. Good luck trying to be a doctor or if you are a doctor. Word does get around, good luck trying to lie your way out of this one. Not only did you use my private information to harass me, you knew what you were doing and that you were breaking the law. While violating HIPPA and PHI. Reporting you put end to this, this is something you will have to live with, not me. It’s too late now for your sob story, excuses or apology. The betrayal, the nail in the coffin. I took awhile to heal, but I do have the right to share my story and what you did. This is something that could have prevented. Out of all the things I have been through in my life, the one moment that hurt more than this moment was being sexually, mentally, physically and verbally abused. Each tough moment didn’t turn me bitter, it just made me shine brighter.

Years ago, They were filming a movie which Miley Cyrus was in it, and I got to be part of the crowd. Which this particular part was filmed on Tybee Island, and we got to meet Miley Cyrus. I was also the background in a Sponge Bob movie. I was on a school field trip in eight grade, and we happened to be walking down one of the streets in downtown Savannah, Ga. When we happen to stumble apron the filming of Sponge Bob. Not many get to say they got to be part of many projects many dreamed of being part of.

I am not afraid of death, I am afraid of leaving behind the ones who cared and supported me throughout the years. I almost died four times, when I was fourteen, twenty-two, twenty-three and twenty-five. I know where I am going, but the other thing that terrifies me is not remember the ones who care about me and supported me as well. What scares me is that I am fighting an unknown illness that has taken everything from me. Between my lung problem and other problems, sleeping is my only way to escape this nightmare. That’s why I am enjoying each moment that life has given me. I always try to be a better person to who I was yesterday. I don’t talk much, and I don’t share much. How can you share something that even you can’t comprehend. You can’t wrap your head around the fight that was given to you. Why it was you that had to go through this. Sleep is like the only escape I have from this harsh reality. This is something that needed to be shared, not just to be real and authentic, but to be raw. There are many days and nights I cry, I dread the next doctor’s visits. I have a wonderful support team and a great team of doctors. Who are trying to figure out what is going on. I have progressing got worse over the last several years. This didn’t happen over night. The night we me was journey I never asked for, but was given for a reason.

A funny story, I love the 24 Rolex at the Daytona International Speedway; I got to meet Patrick Dempsey. Dr. Mcdreamy or Derrick Shepard on Grey’s Anatomy. He was also a race car driver and his number was 58. I was wearing a Maine jacket, because I have been to Maine several times. I didn’t know Patrick Dempsey was from Maine, until he asked me if I was from Maine? No, I was from Mykolaiv, Ukraine. The funniest story ever, but most respectful and nicest celebrity I got to meet. I got to meet several celebrities over the years. The 24 hour Rolex at Daytona International speedway is a race that last 24hrs. I also got a shirt signed by the Weather Tech team as well. I love racing. I love baseball when Chipper Jones and Freddie Freeman were part of the Atlanta Braves. I was a big fan of Tom Brady not because I had the same last name as him. I always got questioned if I was related to “The Brady Bunch” or “Tom Brady”? I am also a big Eagles fan, the Philadelphia Eagles. Which they won the Super Bowl last year! Also Eric Dane who was Dr. McSteamy just passed away today.

Jacksonville, Daytona, Orlando, Cocoa Beach, Port Saint Lucie, Port Charlotte, Clearwater, Key West, Miami, Tallahassee, Saint Augustine Palm Coast, Jupiter, Kissimmee, Melbourne, Fort Pierce, Port Canaveral and Destin are several places I have been too in Florida. My favorite state is Florida. I have been to the Bahamas four times. Listening to Jimmy Buffett on repeat, also going to several locations of Margaritaville. With a Margarita in hand, it’s always Five O’ clock somewhere. I always to choose the warmth over the cold. The light blue ocean. Being out in the middle of the ocean. Either on a cruise or sailboat, usually everyone will know where to find me. I have been on four cruises. I will choose Royal Caribbean over Carnival, sorry Carnival. I did enjoy Carnival years ago, but Royal Caribbean has more to do. Waving to everyone going out to sea, or the horn battle. Being sunburned and all my hair was braid not the best combination. I remember one cruise I went on, it was during Christmas. Usually you get good deals for cruises during the holidays, but I have told many to not go during the holidays and here’s why. There was a Nor’easter, we had a port hole, and the water was up to our port hole. The ship was rocking back and forth. Everything was falling all over the place and all of us were walking sideways like we were drunk. We almost had to abandoned ship. The waves were extremely high. We were shaking for two weeks. The scariest moment of my life, but a story I could tell later. While in the Bahamas, we did a 12 mile bike ride and the last four miles we were soaked in rain because a tropical storm was forming near by. I love Florida, not dull moment ever.

Some of things I have been struggling with is talking, if you listen to my podcast it’s a struggle, where I didn’t have a struggle before, now I do. Swallowing, I choke a lot, eating, I am allergic to gluten and I don’t have an appetite half the time, but I still eat. My heart beats fast. My lungs can’t expand, so I am not getting enough oxygen and it’s hard for me to breathe. I black out or pass out, I get extremely hot or very cold. I am in pain that can’t even be measured on a scale. My vision goes dark or very blurry. I have very bad migraines that can last for days. Loosing my voice has been reoccurring, when I walk it’s like carrying bricks. When I breathe it’s many bricks on my chest or a very heavy weight. I either itch, have pins and needles pain or sharp or stabbing pan. I get so stiff, I can barely walk. Many wonder how I live my life. Well I still work and do many things. I am not going to let the illness win, but that doesn’t mean it looks easy. Call on you to say, is I don’t hate being around people, but I don’t have much energy left in me. I can sleep for days and I am still tired. I conserve my energy, I take naps but still doesn’t change how tired I am. This isn’t a normal tiredness of a long day of work. I am drained. I am weak, not mentally, just physically. I drop things, I struggle opening things. Every aspect in my life has become a struggle. I am very .thankful for support, I truly appreciate it. I just wish many would understand this isn’t for sympathy or it’s made up. This is the nightmare I am living every day. I might be dealing with Myasthenia Gravis, where my nervous system and muscles don’t communicate with each other

Trying to destroy my engagement and wedding day, now you have no connection to me anymore. Throwing a tantrum without giving me the chance to explain why everything happened the way it did. You just chose to jump to conclusions instead. My only real peace was leaving you in my past. Our relationship was good until I was thirteen. That’s when everything change, that’s when you switched. A hole in my heart that will never be stitched up. The only peace was finding the one and the family who connected with my dad, his family and my three brothers. I would never mention you ever again or have anything to do with you. Don’t ever ask my brothers what I am doing or up too, you chose to leave. The happiest day turned into the saddest day of my life, but at least everyone else had common sense. You did give me the tools to survive and we did have good moments plus memories, I won’t deny that, but this is too far. The white dress that was stained when my heart shattered from that particular day, was healed by the ones who understood what was going on.