In this episode we invite you to the recording of our first community episode on June 24th at Leaven Community Center across from Alberta Park in Portland.

We also discuss our disaster bonded friendship, shared mistakes and our ideas about the long and short term impact of things done imperfectly.

In this episode Sascha and I tell stories of our experiences of public grief. We notice how different it feels to hold grief other's than it feels to spill our own and wonder about what conditions make grief feel safe enough or wild enough to come out into the open.

In this episode Sascha and I talk about the ways we reach out from inside ourselves to meet the world.

We explore the difference between operating from our logical, thinking brains with our polished, public personalities showing vs opening from a deep and misty inner space that feels more vulnerable but also, maybe, more alive. We talk about how both methods have served us and what we think has shaped our access to our deep knowing and revealing.

In this episode Sascha and I talk about magic as a remedy for soul-bleaching imperialism. We share our personal strategies for sniffing out old stands of magic growing in the forests of our beings and tips for how to notice and tend spots of re-emerging magic in the wider world.

In this episode Sascha and I talk about the practice of sharing abundance.

We consider how awkward and un-practiced we feel at noticing what we have in abundance, believing it is needed and delivering it to actual beings who can use it. Similarly we discuss how often we feel under-resourced and blindly grasping for help we can't find though we know (or at least suspect) they can't be more than a few connections away.

We experiment with an abundance practice wherein we make short lists of what we, personally, need and have to give in this moment and also what we as a project have abundantly and need desperately, and notice that it feels good and useful right away. Before any actual help is exchanged.

We wonder at how we can build more structures for this kind of resource sharing, talk about some of our current efforts toward this end and feel a little hopeful about what might come next.

In this episode Sascha and I talk about how it feels to hand things over to something we can't see, know or control to tend.

We look at moments when we've come to the end of our ability to act and understand but nowhere near the limit of our ability to care or worry.

We wonder about what it means to let something go with a belief that it will be caught - by community, by forces of nature, by things we can't define - and how that compares to letting go with a feeling of dread and insufficiency.

We note how useful it is for imperial materialism and our constantly adored cell phones to have us feel like we are letting people down when we let thing go unfinished, and hope for ways we might practice new ways to whole-heartedly doing our part - including periods of work and periods of rest - for ourselves, each other and the big unknowable everything we live with.

In this episode Sascha and I sit together in person and talk about the wonder of loving one's self. We consider our differing aptitudes for it, its various and glorious side effects, and how we've experienced it alongside and nurtured it in each other through out our long friendship.

Join Sascha and Hannah Rumsey of Friends Missing Friends as we talk about the beauty and joy of having very dear friends and the disenfranchised heartbreak that can come along when those friends die.

In a heteronormative world that likes to make hierarchies of our losses, I was so happy to spend time hearing about Hannah's dear friend Lauren. In Hannah's grief journey she began Friends Missing Friends (a podcast, a community and a collective) where she helps folks find community while working through this particular note of loss.