In this episode, Kim and I sit down for an honest, unguarded conversation about what it truly means to be in service to the divine. We talk about devotion and the lessons that only come through time, surrender, and a few humbling mistakes. Together, we reflect on what we wish we could tell our past selves and what to trust sooner, what to stop fearing, and what actually matters when you're walking a path of spiritual service. This is a conversation for anyone navigating devotion, identity, and the long road of becoming.

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Season Two(Ep2) This episode explores the different philosophical approaches people take within spiritual, occult, and infernal practices, offering listeners a framework to better understand both themselves and others. Abella introduce four categories revivalist, revisionist, traditionalist, and non-traditional nonconformist and explain how each places authority differently, whether in ancient texts, lineage, critical analysis, or personal gnosis. Rather than presenting these categories as rigid boxes, the discussion emphasizes that they are fluid, overlapping, and useful primarily as language to describe perspectives, not to judge or rank them. Concepts like UPG (Unverified Personal Gnosis) and SPG (Shared Personal Gnosis) are clarified to reinforce that the podcast shares personal experience, not universal truth. Through candid dialogue and personal reflection, the hosts unpack the strengths and limitations of each philosophy, highlighting themes of sovereignty, freedom, and responsibility in practice. They share how their own paths evolved from seeking structure in traditionalism or revivalism to embracing revisionism and nonconformity illustrating how practices naturally change over time. The core message encourages listeners to release comparison and judgment, recognize where authority lies in their own work, and honor that different approaches can coexist without conflict. Ultimately, the episode affirms that there is no single "correct" way to practice only the way that aligns with one's values, experience, and sense of liberation.

Omniscient – adj. knowing everything

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Season Two (Ep1) We explore how working with deities is not about passive reception or instant transformation, but about understanding energetic exchange and personal responsibility. The discussion emphasizes that expectations placed on the divine particularly around psychic abilities, communication, and life outcomes often create confusion and disappointment when practitioners misunderstand the role of personal effort versus spiritual support. A central focus of the episode is a deeply personal account of long-term work with the divine, framed through the concept of energetic frequency. Abella describes how interacting with a powerful divine frequency repeatedly triggered upheaval in her life not as punishment, but as an alchemical effect that exposed unhealthy relationships, unresolved trauma, and patterns of self-abandonment. Over time, healing and self-worth made it possible to withstand and integrate this disruptive energy, leading to a renewed and deeper covenant. The episode closes by reinforcing that divine relationships are highly individual, that deities do not "fix" lives but catalyze growth, and that true spiritual work demands accountability, resilience, and inner transformation.

Onomatopoeia - the formation of a word from a sound associated with what is named

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