In this episode, Kim and I sit down for an honest, unguarded conversation about what it truly means to be in service to the divine. We talk about devotion and the lessons that only come through time, surrender, and a few humbling mistakes. Together, we reflect on what we wish we could tell our past selves and what to trust sooner, what to stop fearing, and what actually matters when you're walking a path of spiritual service. This is a conversation for anyone navigating devotion, identity, and the long road of becoming.

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Season Two(Ep2) This episode explores the different philosophical approaches people take within spiritual, occult, and infernal practices, offering listeners a framework to better understand both themselves and others. Abella introduce four categories revivalist, revisionist, traditionalist, and non-traditional nonconformist and explain how each places authority differently, whether in ancient texts, lineage, critical analysis, or personal gnosis. Rather than presenting these categories as rigid boxes, the discussion emphasizes that they are fluid, overlapping, and useful primarily as language to describe perspectives, not to judge or rank them. Concepts like UPG (Unverified Personal Gnosis) and SPG (Shared Personal Gnosis) are clarified to reinforce that the podcast shares personal experience, not universal truth. Through candid dialogue and personal reflection, the hosts unpack the strengths and limitations of each philosophy, highlighting themes of sovereignty, freedom, and responsibility in practice. They share how their own paths evolved from seeking structure in traditionalism or revivalism to embracing revisionism and nonconformity illustrating how practices naturally change over time. The core message encourages listeners to release comparison and judgment, recognize where authority lies in their own work, and honor that different approaches can coexist without conflict. Ultimately, the episode affirms that there is no single "correct" way to practice only the way that aligns with one's values, experience, and sense of liberation.

Omniscient – adj. knowing everything

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Season Two (Ep1) We explore how working with deities is not about passive reception or instant transformation, but about understanding energetic exchange and personal responsibility. The discussion emphasizes that expectations placed on the divine particularly around psychic abilities, communication, and life outcomes often create confusion and disappointment when practitioners misunderstand the role of personal effort versus spiritual support. A central focus of the episode is a deeply personal account of long-term work with the divine, framed through the concept of energetic frequency. Abella describes how interacting with a powerful divine frequency repeatedly triggered upheaval in her life not as punishment, but as an alchemical effect that exposed unhealthy relationships, unresolved trauma, and patterns of self-abandonment. Over time, healing and self-worth made it possible to withstand and integrate this disruptive energy, leading to a renewed and deeper covenant. The episode closes by reinforcing that divine relationships are highly individual, that deities do not "fix" lives but catalyze growth, and that true spiritual work demands accountability, resilience, and inner transformation.

Onomatopoeia - the formation of a word from a sound associated with what is named

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Season One (Ep25) Abella's return after a prolonged illness of the flu, as she candidly recounts her experience with a severe strain of the flu that left her physically incapacitated, hallucinating, and emotionally stripped raw. Beyond the visceral details of sickness, caregiving, and fear for her child, Bella shares the psychological toll of losing access to her Clairs and team during her illness. What initially felt like abandonment became an intense confrontation with isolation, vulnerability, and the terror of being cut off from external spiritual validation. As the conversation unfolds, the episode transforms into a profound reflection on spiritual independence, self-trust, and building faith with her team. Bella realizes that the silence was not abandonment, but a deliberate lesson forcing her to discover that the source of connection, power, and guidance had always existed within herself. With Ryan offering grounding insight and support, the discussion reframes Lucifer not as a distant authority, but as a teacher who meets practitioners where they are. The episode closes with gratitude for the ordeal, humor born from survival, reflections on growth and voice, and a reminder that true initiation often arrives through discomfort along with a very practical plea to get your flu shot.

Legerity-Quickness of movement or agility. She danced with great legerity and grace

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Season One (Ep24) In this episode, Abella is terribly sick, so I take this one on myself. I explore Satan's archetypes as liberation not as a destroyer of relationships, but as an adversary to attachment, expectation, and illusion. Through personal reflection, the conversation unpacks the critical distinction between connection and clinging, revealing how much of our suffering arises from the need to control how people and relationships should appear. Drawing subtle parallels with Taoist and Buddhist principles, this episode examines how releasing expectation does not diminish love or humanity but instead purifies it. Satan emerges here as a mirror, exposing the unseen filters through which we perceive others, and as a liberator who breaks not our bonds, but the chains we did not realize we were holding.

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Season One (Ep23) This episode marks an important milestone as the podcast welcomes its very first guest Ashe Sorriel. One of the readers to join the expanding Bell Tarot & Company. Abella and Ryan open by reflecting on the growth of both the podcast and Abella's practice, emphasizing the importance of community, trust, and collaboration in occult work. Ashe is introduced not only as a reader, but as a long-time practitioner whose intuitive abilities and shared work with Lucifuge Rofocal deeply aligns with Abella's own path. The conversation explores how relationships with spirits form beyond names and labels, touching on the fluid nature of demonology, personal gnosis, and the way entities adapt their presentation to meet practitioners where they are. As the discussion deepens, Ashe shares their personal journey into the occult, beginning with prophetic dreams and childhood experiences, moving through years of quiet study, and eventually embracing formal practice during lockdown. The episode thoughtfully explores neurodivergence, intuition, and how Ashe's autism shaped their clairs and perception of energy framing psychic ability not as chaos, but as a different way of knowing. Ash also discusses their unique relationship with tarot, emphasizing the importance of finding tools that truly resonate, and closes with encouragement for listeners to trust their own instincts and begin their practice without fear. The episode ends on a reflective, affirming note, reinforcing that there is no single "right" path in the occult only the one you are called to walk.

Prattle – verb. Talking for long period of time about insignificant things

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In this episode, Abella tells a story about a recent conversation with a family member about friendship; what we expect from the people we love, what we actually need, and how messy those conversations can get.

A simple chat turns into a reflection on how we outgrow old dynamics, how we choose better ones, and how family sometimes says the accidental truth we didn't know we needed.

A short, real-life moment with big heart behind it and a dripping of Bella Lore.

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Season One (Ep22 )This episode centers on healing, spiritual perspective, and the subtle ways the divine interacts with daily life. Abella shares an update on her post-surgery recovery and how the slow, humbling process has reshaped her connection with the divine, especially Lucifer. Abella describes how healing forced her to slow down, release expectations, and appreciate small, nuanced signs rather than dramatic interventions. These quiet moments, she explains, have profoundly shifted her practice and her nervous system, showing her that the most meaningful spiritual experiences often arise from levity, presence, and simplicity.

The conversation expands into how many practitioners seem to experience similar spiritual themes at the same time, and how lowering expectations of the divine allows for deeper connection. Through personal stories including humorous, subtle messages like "don't worry about the title" and a transformative moment of noticing the first snowfall Abella emphasizes that divine beings don't enable shortcuts, especially with psychic development. Instead, they illuminate the internal work needed for growth. The episode highlights the importance of non-transactional relationships with the divine, co-evolution, gratitude, and embracing the magic within everyday moments rather than seeking constant intensity or grand revelation.

Inane - silly and meanless:

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