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Pondoff's Anonymous

Pondoff's Anonymous

Written by: Chris Pondoff Jeff Allen Zoë Mendenall
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Pondoff’s Anonymous is the unfiltered recovery podcast that says the quiet part out loud. Hosted by Chris Pondoff, Jeff Allen, and Zoë Mendenall, it’s real talk about addiction, recovery, and everything between. Each episode dives into relapse, trauma, shame, and the hard f*cking work of getting better. Honest, raw, and laced with gallows humor, because sometimes the only way through pain is to laugh at it.Chris Pondoff, Jeff Allen, Zoë Mendenall Hygiene & Healthy Living Psychology Psychology & Mental Health
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  • Best of Season Two: Sobriety, Chaos, Healing & All the Shit in Between
    Jan 5 2026

    This ain’t your tidy little self-help podcast. This is a molotov cocktail of truth, trauma, healing, heartbreak, and a whole lotta swearing. We’re cracking open some of the rawest, realest, and most *fuck-it-let’s-go-there* moments from Season Two. If you're not ready to get honest, bounce now.


    First up, Megan Gehrs and Bree Badgley are back after five years. These two come in hot—talking relapses, divorces, cookie cakes, sober birthdays, and how to sit in self-pity without drowning in it. Megan shares what it’s like staying sober with a fully stocked liquor cabinet in the house. Bree opens up about blackouts, bruises, and holding her newborn niece in the hospital while still swollen from the night before. This ain’t Instagram recovery—it’s the messy, beautiful kind.


    Then Christina Preston drops a fucking hammer: kidnapped, trafficked, and held in a hotel room with a pistol on the console. She survived it. Barely. And now she’s helping women claw their way back from the same hell she escaped. This is not a movie. This is real. And it happens down the damn street.


    Kurt Garner swings through next—radio host, tequila junkie turned sober globetrotter. From Mexican strip clubs with angry bouncers to solo Valentine’s Day JT concerts in Chicago, he proves life doesn’t end when the bottle does. His turning point? A 10 a.m. tequila binge after a failed date that led to pouring out the bottle and walking toward something better.


    Then we go deep with Sean Weiss—yeah, *that* Sean Weiss. Goldberg from *The Mighty Ducks*. You’ve seen the mugshots. But this dude has lived through shit most people wouldn’t survive. $20K gone in three months. Dope. Shoplifting. Using a needle he *knew* was HIV-positive because detox hurt more than death. This conversation isn’t for the faint of heart—but it’s for the ones still out there thinking there’s no way back.


    And finally, Rafe Williams takes the mic. Stand-up comic, radio guy, and full-time truth-teller. He cracks jokes about Southern Illinois, grandma’s Doral cartons, and Paducah gas station cigarettes—but make no mistake, he’s lived it. The rooms, the relapses, the rollercoaster of finding peace in a loud-ass world. He gets honest about masculinity, depression, and why vulnerability is a hell of a lot scarier than any open mic.


    This one’s for anyone who’s tired of hiding. You don’t have to pretend anymore. Just press play.


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    CHAPTERS

    00:00 Introduction to Honest Conversations

    02:08 Returning to Recovery: Megan Gehrs and Bree Badgley

    05:01 Personal Struggles: Divorce and Alcoholism

    12:15 The Impact of Alcohol on Relationships

    19:52 Mental Health: Anxiety and Depression

    25:35 The Journey of Healing and Community Support

    26:03 Understanding Human Trafficking and Addiction

    35:00 Finding Redemption and New Beginnings

    40:41 The Wild Night Out in Mexico

    45:43 Rediscovering Life Without Alcohol

    51:31 Finding Joy in Sobriety

    56:14 The Cost of Addiction

    01:01:05 The Importance of Family in Recovery

    01:06:15 The Journey of Recovery and Transformation

    01:20:13 Reflections on Home and Change

    01:23:14 Growing Up in Small Towns: A Unique Perspective

    01:26:00 The Struggles of Vulnerability and Masculinity

    01:29:18 The Battle with Addiction: A Personal Journey

    01:31:07 The Impact of Sobriety on Relationships

    01:33:02 The Downfall of a Sports Star: Addiction and Consequences

    01:40:13 Finding Humility in Recovery

    01:45:59 The Role of Faith in Overcoming Addiction

    01:47:50 Understanding Identity and Acceptance

    01:59:29 Gratitude for Honest Conversations


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    Sponsored by McKelvey Insurance

    https://www.mckelveyins.com/


    And LightSource Psychotherapy

    https://findyourlightsource.com/

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    2 hrs
  • S2 E45 A Mother’s Story with Shelly Viverito
    Dec 29 2025
    A Mother’s Story with Shelly Viverito

    Who this episode is for:
    - Parents who’ve lost a child and are still standing somehow
    - Anyone who’s ever loved an addict and didn’t know how to help
    - Folks who’ve been burned by shady recovery programs
    - Those struggling with meth, depression, or both
    - Anyone trying to make meaning from unimaginable grief
    - And anyone who’s ever made a mess of their life and lived to tell the tale

    This one’s not for the faint of heart.

    Shelly Viverito joins the Pondoff’s Anonymous crew to tell a story no parent should ever have to tell — the rise, fall, and redemption of her son Nick, who battled brutal addiction, got clean, rebuilt his life, and then was ripped away by a random, deadly brain bleed. He beat meth. He beat depression. And he still died at 39.

    This is a mother’s war story. From locking her door at night during his meth psychosis… to getting a tattoo of his sobriety date… to launching a foundation in his name that now funds sober living for other young men fighting for their lives.

    Nick Wilson may be gone, but his light — and his pit bull Jax — continue to move mountains through Shelly’s advocacy, fundraising, and raw honesty.

    Learn more:
    💥 The Nick Wilson Foundation: https://www.thenickwilsonfoundation.org
    💥 Learn to Live Recovery: https://learntoliverecovery.com
    💥 Harris House: https://www.harrishouse.org

    Time Stamps:
    00:00 Introduction to Recovery and Support
    02:51 Navigating Personal Stories and Backgrounds
    12:51 The Journey of Addiction and Recovery
    26:19 Understanding the Impact of Addiction on Families
    27:22 The Cost of Recovery Programs
    28:44 The Challenges of Interventions
    30:34 The Impact of Hope in Recovery
    32:18 Navigating Relapse and Recovery
    37:30 Finding Support in Recovery Programs
    40:10 The Role of Family in Recovery
    43:55 The Journey to Independence
    53:28 Tragedy and Loss in Recovery
    56:35 The Gift of Life: Organ Donation and Its Impact
    57:57 Navigating Grief: A Mother's Journey
    01:00:02 Finding Purpose Through Pain: Advocacy and Speaking Out
    01:02:57 Creating a Legacy: The Nick Wilson Foundation
    01:07:34 Community and Connection: The Power of Support Groups
    01:12:57 Healing Through Fun: The Importance of Joy in Grief
    01:22:33 Creating Community and Support
    01:25:06 The Power of Shared Experiences
    01:29:50 Fundraising and Community Events
    01:31:11 The Importance of Mental Health Awareness
    01:34:40 Finding Hope in Tragedy
    01:39:04 Celebrating Life and Connection

    Sponsored by:
    👉 McKelvey Insurance: https://www.mckelveyins.com
    👉 LightSource Psychotherapy: https://findyourlightsource.com

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    1 hr and 45 mins
  • S2 E44 The F*ck Around Show Preview 2
    Dec 22 2025
    Welcome to the unfiltered chaos of Pondoff’s Anonymous, where recovery meets real life with no bleep button. This week, it’s a full‑house f*ck‑around session with Chris, Jeff, Zoe, and special guest Kenny “Iggy” Strode — the St. Louis radio legend with a sharp tongue, a broken filter, and a suspiciously high body count.You want deep? We’ve got deep. You want weird? Strap the hell in.Iggy drops stories from Bermuda beaches (where topless tourists get scolded by dudes in linen), explains how a freaky music review got him a nickname that’s lasted 50 years, and claims full credit for the BlueChew catchphrase that celebrities now scream into the void. Zoe brings warmth, humor, and grounded honesty — talking about music, recovery, and showing up with heart. Chris puts it best: it just means more having a strong female voice in the mix. Jeff and Chris unveil the upcoming Pondoff Anonymous Media Network and the new app that’ll put recovery, resources, and rogue banter in your damn pocket.Also covered:– How to apologize for Facebook ghosting live on‑air– Why “I’d like that” is the worst line in any movie ever– The theology of poop mirrors and peanut butter mishaps– When grief, comedy, Jesus, and erectile dysfunction collide– Singing for the Spirit, shaving your balls, and showing up anyway📲 New app drops January🎙️ Pondoff Anonymous Network launching with three weekly shows💀 Recovery, mental health, addiction, grief, nudity, and boner jokes — all wrapped up in love and laughter00:00 Introduction to Recovery and Community Support05:52 The Importance of Mental Health and Therapy12:06 Building a Podcast Network and Future Plans14:52 The Role of Humor and Lightheartedness in Recovery17:59 Reflections on Pets and Personal Growth24:19 Cultural Norms and Nudity25:30 Identity and Nicknames26:42 High School Dynamics and Music29:28 Relationships and Social Connections31:10 Podcasting and Community Engagement35:23 Mental Health and Recovery Advocacy39:09 Personal Stories and Impact42:56 Humor and Lighthearted Banter47:18 Navigating Personal Challenges49:10 Pet Peeves in Movies and TV Shows50:57 The Art of Performance and Stage Presence54:52 The Power of Authenticity in Sharing Stories01:01:12 The Impact of Addiction and Recovery01:07:01 The Importance of Community Support01:15:46 Podcasting Insights and Personal Reflections01:18:40 Navigating Mental Health and Social Work01:21:31 Community Building and Support Systems01:26:09 Creative Ventures and Future Aspirations01:32:33 Personal Stories and Connections01:38:26 Exploring Love and Connection01:39:05 Family Bonds and Shared Experiences01:41:06 Navigating Life’s Challenges01:42:01 Pet Peeves and Movie Critiques01:43:34 The Role of Nudity in Film01:45:32 Understanding the Adult Industry01:49:41 The Complexity of Relationships01:50:27 Empathy and Understanding in Recovery01:52:00 The Importance of Female Voices01:54:19 Grief and Loss in the Industry01:56:34 The Impact of Online Interactions01:58:44 Finding Peace Amidst Chaos☕ Check out the coffee that fuels the chaos:Light in the Dark – A bold Colombian roast born in recovery, made with Long Story Coffee.Available now at: https://www.pondoffsanonymous.comSupport Kenny “Iggy” Strode’s Patreon:👉 https://www.patreon.com/IggyUncutSponsored by:McKelvey Insurance – https://www.mckelveyins.com/LightSource Psychotherapy – https://findyourlightsource.com/
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    2 hrs and 5 mins
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