I'm back. New space, new walls, and honestly a lot to yap about.

In this solo episode I'm having the conversation I've been sitting with for a while. I moved, I turned another year older, I became a published photographer, and somewhere in the middle of all of that expansion - my creativity went completely quiet. And I had to figure out why.

This episode is about what happens to your identity when your environment shifts. I spent years building my creativity, my business, my whole aesthetic out of chaos, pain, and dark beauty. And then I finally landed somewhere safe - and my nervous system didn't know what to do with it. Neither did my art.

If you've ever gone through a big transition and felt yourself go quiet right when things were finally starting to work - this one's for you.

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What does it mean to live as an infinite being inside a finite human experience — and how do you stop fighting that paradox?

This week on Proper Madness, I'm joined by Nino Palacio: behavioral coach, breathwork guide, mystic, poet, and retreat facilitator. Nino's work lives at the intersection of psychology, philosophy, and spiritual practice, and this conversation goes places I didn't expect.

We talk about discovering autism later in life, losing his best friend to psychosis, and why that loss made him question everything about traditional psychology. We get into psychedelics as a tool that bypasses the logical mind, the danger of intellectualizing your own healing, and shame alchemy - using content creation as a genuine spiritual initiatory process.

And we end up in a full conversation about the villain era, what your shadow self is actually asking for, and why expressing your truth online might be one of the most liberating things you can do.

This one is for the overthinkers, the mystics, the healers, and anyone who's been living a little too small.

Find Niño: @eldivinenino

In this episode, Sabi sits down with Ranela- marriage and family therapist, life coach, actress, and host of The Life Edit podcast - for a deeply honest conversation about what it actually takes to rebuild yourself from the ground up.

Ranela shares her journey from a life heavily rooted in religion to a full identity deconstruction at 27. They go deep on codependency, attachment patterns, what it means to live between cultures as South Asian women in the West, and why the loneliest and most necessary journey is the one you have to take with yourself.

This one's for anyone who's ever felt like they were climbing the right ladder only to realize it's leaning on the wrong house.

Find Ranela: Instagram: @lifewithranela Podcast: The Life Edit with Ranela