In this deeply personal episode of Real Talk, Real Change, Ryan sits down with his daughter Emma to share her powerful story of adoption, trauma, healing, faith, and family.

Emma was adopted just before her fourth birthday after being removed from a heartbreaking situation of neglect, poverty, and instability. In this conversation, she opens up about the memories she still carries, the trauma of losing one family and joining another, the challenges of cross-cultural adoption, and the healing journey God has walked with her through.

Together, Ryan and Emma talk honestly about the realities of adoption, including language barriers, racial differences, childhood wounds, rejection, belonging, and what it means to be loved as a daughter. Emma also shares how she came to know Jesus for herself, how her faith helped her face deep emotional wounds, and how becoming a wife and mother has changed the way she sees her story.

This episode is especially meaningful for anyone considering adoption, walking through trauma, parenting adopted children, or needing to be reminded that God can redeem even the most painful beginnings.

Emma’s story is not only one of rescue, but of restoration. It is a reminder that adoption is not second-class love. It is a picture of the Father’s heart, where we are welcomed, chosen, and loved fully.

In this episode, we talk about:

• Emma’s early childhood before adoption
• Being removed from a home of neglect
• How churches helped feed Emma and her siblings
• The day Ryan and his wife met Emma
• The trauma and beauty of adoption
• Cross-cultural and transracial adoption
• Growing up as an adopted daughter in a pastor’s family
• Childhood wounds, rejection, and healing
• Finding personal faith in Jesus
• Becoming a wife and mother
• How adoption reflects the gospel and the love of God

If this conversation encouraged you, please consider subscribing, following, and sharing this episode with someone who needs to hear Emma’s story.

What does it really take to break free from a painful past? In this powerful and deeply honest episode of Real Talk, Real Change, Ryan sits down with Duan Coetzee to unpack a story marked by trauma, brokenness, and ultimately, transformation.

Duan shares his journey through a childhood filled with abuse, neglect, exposure to addiction, and deep emotional wounds. From being introduced to alcohol at a young age, to navigating environments of violence, drugs, and instability, his story reflects the harsh reality many people silently carry.

But this conversation is not about staying stuck in pain. It’s about healing, identity, and hope. Despite everything he went through, Duan refused to let his trauma define him. Instead of becoming a victim, he chose a different path, one marked by surrender, faith, and intentional healing. Through his encounter with God and a journey of personal transformation, he found freedom from addiction, destructive patterns, and the weight of his past.

In this episode, you’ll discover:

• How to break out of a victim mindset and take ownership of your healing
• Why your past doesn’t have to define your future
• The role of faith, surrender, and identity in true transformation
• Practical insights into overcoming addiction, trauma, and destructive cycles
• How to begin your own journey toward healing, even if you feel stuck

This is more than a story, it’s an invitation. If you’ve ever felt trapped by your past, overwhelmed by trauma, or unsure how to move forward, this conversation will remind you that it’s not too late to change. There is hope. There is healing. And there is a way forward.

In this raw and honest conversation, Ryan Langkilde sits down with Jean-Marc Masson, to tackle one of the most prevalent yet hidden struggles of our time: pornography. With vulnerability and grace, Jean-Marc shares his personal journey of brokenness, addiction, and ultimately freedom through Christ.

Together they unpack the devastating effects pornography has on marriages, mental health, and personal identity, and reveal how intimacy with God offers the true path to healing. This episode is filled with practical wisdom, biblical truth, and real hope for anyone caught in the cycle of shame and secrecy.

If you’ve ever wondered how to break free, reclaim intimacy, and step into your God-given identity, this conversation will encourage and equip you.

Disclaimer: This episode contains mature themes, including open discussion about pornography and sexual brokenness. It is intended for a mature audience, and listener discretion is advised.

What does it really mean to follow Jesus in today’s world? In this episode of Real Talk, Real Change, Pastor Ryan sits down with Maurice and Taylor Epps — a powerful ministry couple from Long Island, New York — to talk about what authentic Christianity looks like when the church service ends and real life begins.

Together, they explore:

• Why so many Christians live a double life
• The difference between struggling with sin and being okay with it
• How church hurt holds people back from true transformation
• What it actually means to surrender to Jesus as Lord
• The cost of discipleship, the beauty of relationship, and why your personality might need to die too

Whether you’re struggling with inconsistency, feeling distant from God, or wondering what a real relationship with Jesus looks like, this conversation is raw, relatable, and full of truth.

Get ready to be challenged, encouraged, and inspired to go all in.

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In this gripping episode of Real Talk Real Change with Ryan Langkilde, Ryan sits down with Riaan Swiegelaar, former co-founder and spokesperson for the South African Satanic Church. Riaan shares his astonishing journey: 15 years spent as a professional practitioner in the occult, five years at the forefront of Satanism in South Africa, and the radical encounter with the love of Jesus that changed everything.

Ryan and Riaan have a real, unscripted conversation about what’s really happening with occult and Satanic activity in South Africa, how the spiritual world operates, and why Christians often underestimate both the reality and power of spiritual warfare. Riaan exposes common misconceptions about Satanism, explains how seemingly “innocent” spiritual practices can open doors to darkness, and warns about the very real spiritual battles taking place all around us.

But above all, this episode is about hope. Riaan testifies to the relentless love of God that reached him even at his darkest, the power of prayer, and the reality that no one is beyond redemption. Ryan and Riaan also share practical advice for Christians who want to stand strong, pray effectively, and live in the victory Jesus won for us.

Whether you’re curious, skeptical, or searching for hope yourself, you’ll find this conversation raw, challenging, and full of truth.

Rejection is a wound that runs deep - especially when it starts in childhood. In this honest and heartfelt conversation, siblings Ryan Langkilde and Bonnie-Jean Masson open up about their journey growing up together, navigating the fallout of divorce, and the choices that shaped who they are today.

They get real about what it’s like to carry the pain of rejection, how it shows up in unexpected places, and why so many people feel stuck because of old wounds. Most importantly, Ryan and Bonnie-Jean talk about practical ways to spot the signs of a “rejection wound,” how to begin the healing process, and why hope is always possible - even when the past feels heavy.

Whether you’ve faced rejection, are walking through family brokenness, or want to understand yourself (or others) better, this episode will inspire, encourage, and help you take your next step toward healing.

In this honest and powerful episode, Ryan Langkilde sits down with Joseph Mathiba to unpack one of the most pressing issues of our time: the crisis of fatherlessness and its impact on manhood. Together, they explore what it truly means to be a Godly man in today’s world, how toxic masculinity distorts that calling, and the challenges of developing Godly character when you’ve never had a role model to follow.

Whether you’re a father, a son, or simply someone searching for purpose and identity, this conversation offers hope, insight, and practical wisdom for becoming the man God created you to be.

In this powerful episode, Ryan Langkilde sits down with guest Louis Mare to explore the often-overlooked struggles of Christians with depression and anxiety. Together, they delve into the realities of mental health in the church, how faith intersects with these challenges, and how believers can find healing and hope in the midst of darkness.

Ryan and Louis share their personal struggles, offering insight into the emotional battles many face and the importance of vulnerability, support, and God's unwavering love. This episode is for anyone who has ever felt isolated in their struggles or unsure of how their faith can help them through mental health challenges.

Don't miss this honest and open conversation about faith, mental health, and the power of God’s grace in our darkest moments.