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Stephanie Ann Again

Stephanie Ann Again

Written by: Stephanie Brinkerhoff
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 Deconstruction, spiritual crisis, psychedelics, and what it feels like to discover the world and who I am again (and again) after a lifetime of Mormonism.2025 Social Sciences
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  • #6 - Grief: What Happens when the Ego Meets a Clear Mirror

    #6 - Grief: What Happens when the Ego Meets a Clear Mirror
    Nov 5 2025

    In this episode I talk about a recent experience I had visiting a friend and spiritual mentor at her home on the East Coast. What I thought was going to just be a vacation ended up being a direct confrontation with non-duality, which was very confronting and felt a lot like ego death.

    I share my thoughts on what it means to have "clear mirrors" in our lives, and how directly encountering a clear mirror brought me face to face with my fear of loss and death.

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    41 mins
  • #5 - Connecting to Empathy, Love and Humanity through the Shadow

    #5 - Connecting to Empathy, Love and Humanity through the Shadow
    Oct 22 2025

    One of the greatest gifts of leaving a high demand religion has been feeling the depth of love and connection to my empathy and humanity greatly increase. In this episode, I talk about my experience with spiritual crisis that occured after leaving Mormonism and doing psychedelics, but how this direct experience with the darkness connected me to a deeper level of empathy and love than I ever felt in Mormonism.

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    45 mins
  • #4 - The Hatred of Women, The Hatred of Men, and the Hatred of the Self

    #4 - The Hatred of Women, The Hatred of Men, and the Hatred of the Self
    Oct 16 2025

    In this episode I talk about my own experiences with shame and self hatred that have largely come from growing up in a patriarchal environment. I talk about processing my internalized misogyny, and the healing I have found in accessing and tending to my shame.

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    43 mins
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