Why do you still miss someone who manipulated, controlled, or emotionally hurt you?

If you've ever found yourself longing for someone you know wasn't good for you, you're not weak—and you're certainly not alone.

In this deeply personal episode of Strings Attached, Noah and Rose explore one of the most confusing parts of narcissistic abuse recovery: trauma bonds. Together they share their own experiences of grieving not only the people they left behind, but also the future they believed they were going to have.

You'll discover why leaving isn't simply a logical decision, why empathy can become self-abandonment, and why your nervous system can keep pulling you towards someone your mind knows wasn't safe.

Whether you're recovering from a narcissistic partner, a parent, or another emotionally abusive relationship, this conversation offers understanding, validation, and hope that healing is possible.

In this episode we discuss:

• Why you can miss someone who caused you pain
• The difference between love, hope, and trauma bonding
• Why survivors often defend abusive behaviour
• How childhood conditioning keeps trauma bonds alive
• Why leaving can feel emotionally impossible
• The hidden grief of losing the future you imagined
• How compassion and boundaries can exist together
• A simple exercise to help separate facts from explanations

If this episode resonated with you, please follow the podcast, leave a rating or review, and share it with someone who may need to hear that they're not alone.

Chapters

00:00 Introduction to Trauma Bonds and Emotional Pain

00:01 Why Do We Miss People Who Hurt Us?

01:32 The Difference Between Love and Trauma Bonding

02:23 Grieving the Potential, Not Just the Person

03:14 The Role of Childhood and Parent Relationships

04:01 Normalizing Dysfunction in Toxic Relationships

06:16 Memory and the Recollection of Arguments

07:09 Understanding the Impact of Defending Abusive Behavior

08:20 The Challenge of Recognizing Abuse in Enmeshed Relationships

09:54 The Importance of Self-Identity and Boundaries

11:22 The Power of the Trauma Bond

12:09 Love vs. Conditional Relationships

15:11 The Role of Guilt, Responsibility, and Love

17:56 Managing Old Patterns and Triggers

20:03 Why Leaving Is Not Simple: The Trauma Bond

22:18 The Complexity of Leaving Narcissistic Parents

24:41 The Inner Child and Healing Inner Wounds

30:47 Recognizing the Pattern of Control and Manipulation

36:15 Separating Facts from Explanations in Abuse

37:20 The Limits of Empathy and the Cost to Self

42:17 The Process of Healing and Moving Forward

44:51 Grieving the Potential, Not Just the Person

48:40 Practical Exercise for Clarity and Self-Compassion

49:47 Final Thoughts: Healing and Support

For more trauma-informed resources, recovery tools, and support, visit narcissistrecovery.com.

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If you've ever found yourself asking...

Why do I still miss someone who hurt me?
Why can't I move on from my narcissistic ex?
Why do I still feel responsible for them?

This episode is for you.

In one of our most personal conversations yet, we explore the reality of trauma bonding—the powerful psychological and physiological attachment that can keep survivors emotionally tied to abusive relationships long after they've ended.

Noah shares his own experience of believing for years that he and his narcissistic ex would somehow find their way back to each other, despite knowing the relationship was damaging. Rose explains how trauma bonding can exist in families too, describing the emotional bond she experienced with her covert narcissistic mother and why walking away felt impossible.

In this episode we discuss:

• What trauma bonding actually is (and what it isn't)
• Why leaving an abusive relationship often feels harder than staying
• How intermittent reinforcement creates emotional addiction
• Why survivors mistake loyalty, responsibility and hope for love
• The role of cognitive dissonance in keeping you trapped
• Why you struggle to recognise emotional abuse while you're living it
• How narcissists use kindness, promises and future-faking to maintain control
• What the nervous system is doing during a trauma bond
• Why no contact is often the beginning—not the end—of recovery
• How healing gradually weakens the trauma bond over time

Whether your trauma bond was with a romantic partner, parent, family member or someone else, we hope this conversation helps you understand that you're not weak, you're not "crazy", and you're certainly not alone.

Recovery begins with understanding what happened.

Resources

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Chapters

00:00 Understanding Trauma Bonding

05:55 The Complexity of Relationships with Narcissists

11:35 The Role of Responsibility in Trauma Bonds

19:07 Recognizing Abuse and Its Patterns

26:04 Navigating Intimacy and Control in Relationships

29:38 Understanding Abuse and Trauma Bonds

30:38 The Journey to Breaking Free

34:07 The Pain of Discard and Grief

43:40 Healing from Trauma Bonds

Have you ever escaped a narcissistic relationship, only to find yourself being pulled back in by family, friends or people you trusted?

In this episode of Strings Attached, we're uncovering one of the most painful and misunderstood aspects of narcissistic abuse: flying monkeys.

These aren't always malicious people. Sometimes they're parents, siblings, friends or relatives who unknowingly become extensions of the narcissist—passing on messages, applying guilt, gathering information or pressuring you to reconnect.

Through deeply personal stories and trauma-informed discussion, we explore why this betrayal cuts so deeply, how enabling family systems operate, and why protecting your emotional safety sometimes means accepting that someone isn't malicious... but they are unsafe.

If you've ever heard:
"Can't you just keep the peace?"
"They're really struggling without you."
"Why don't you just call them?"

...then this episode is for you.

• What "flying monkeys" really are
• Why narcissists recruit other people to do their work
• Flying monkeys in families, friendships and relationships
• The heartbreak of enabling parents
• Siblings who unknowingly become part of the abuse
• Why some flying monkeys don't even realise what they're doing
• Emotional safety vs good intentions
• How to identify who you can truly trust
• Building your own "Circle of Safety"
• Protecting your boundaries without guilt
• Why healing begins when you stop asking others to validate your reality

If you've experienced narcissistic abuse, coercive control, emotional manipulation, gaslighting, trauma bonding or family scapegoating, this conversation will help you understand that you're not imagining it—and you're certainly not alone.

We'd love to hear from you

Have you experienced a flying monkey in your own life?

Was it a parent, sibling, friend, colleague or someone you never expected?

Share your story in the comments or connect with our community.

Visit narcissistrecovery.com for recovery resources, practical tools and trauma-informed support.

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Chapters

00:00 The Pain of Losing Connections

03:01 Understanding Flying Monkeys

06:11 Family Dynamics and Boundaries

08:57 The Grief of Broken Trust

11:49 Navigating Relationships with Siblings

15:05 The Role of Parents as Flying Monkeys

18:07 The Impact of Enabling Parents

21:02 Friends as Unwitting Flying Monkeys

24:01 The Challenge of Emotional Privacy

27:09 Establishing Safe Circles of Trust

29:52 Reframing Relationships for Healing