This is one of those conversations that changes how you see your entire life. Leah Young shares what it actually feels like to have your belief system collapse in real time and what it takes to rebuild from the ground up. From reading the CES letter to nearly losing her marriage, this episode goes deep into identity, fear, control, and the moment you decide to trust yourself. If you’ve ever questioned what you were taught, needed guidance on how to talk to believers, or wondered who you are outside of the system you were raised in, this episode will hit!

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Balanced Living With Leah Website: https://balancedlivingwithleah.com/

Leah's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/balancedlivingwithleah/

CES Letter: https://cesletter.org

Steven Hassan: https://freedomofmind.com/cult-mind-control/bite-model

Mormon Stories Podcast interviews with Leah: https://youtu.be/aFr8Schuv5w?si=fo8t5WDusn7d2NY_

https://www.mormonstories.org/young-family/

Why is the U.S. bombing Iran? Why is it that we are seeing a sudden, frantic surge in apocalyptic rhetoric coming from the highest levels of our government? Is it possible that the people currently steering our military into a conflict with Iran are operating from a "prophetic blueprint"? Let's discuss.

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Buckle up to use your brains; we're talking neuroscience. Before I share how my 30 days of Mormonizing went, I wanted to open up about some big-picture ideas. I’m joined by Mat Sillito to talk about why belief isn’t just ideas in your head, it’s what your body rehearses. We get into the brain’s default mode network, how environments trigger responses before you “choose” them, and why rituals can function like drugs: shaping attention, identity, anxiety, and connection.

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In this episode, I chat with Elena Bridgers, science writer and author of Motherhood Until Yesterday to talk about the lie most moms are living under: that motherhood should feel natural, effortless, and fulfilling on its own. Instead, we uncover why modern motherhood feels so hard and why it’s not your failure, it’s the mismatch between how humans evolved to raise children and how we’re expected to do it now. Elena explains how real human parenting used to look, why community and support were the norm, and why isolation and pressure leave so many mothers overwhelmed and exhausted.

We also dive into the narratives many moms inherit from religion, feminist ideals, and internet culture that frame motherhood in ways that help just about no one. Elena’s work blends evolutionary biology, anthropology, and real-life experience to help mothers feel seen, understood, and less alone.

Elena Bridgers Links:

📍 Newsletter — Motherhood Until Yesterday (Substack): https://elenabridgers.substack.com/ 🌍 Website: https://elenabridgers.com/

📸 Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/elena.bridgers/

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What are the chances of a guy like Jesus and a girl like me ending up together? Not good. But I'm throwing my life into the turmoil of holiness anyway to get some data! I'm making my way through a year-long course on secular spirituality, and now it's time I introduce my project for 2026, working title: Mormonize Me. In this first episode, I introduce my ideas and talk to experts and friends like Britt Hartley @nononsensespirituality , Eve Pearce, Shaun Miller, and Eric Moutsos @ericmoutsosshow

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1. CONTENT WARNING: This episode includes frank discussion of racism, domestic violence, religious trauma, online harassment, and threats.
2. Today, we dive into de-radicalization, Christian nationalism, and the real human cost of propaganda, featuring Jennie Gage from Life, Take Two a former white supremacist and ex-Mormon. Jennie rebuilt her life through community, accountability, and hard truths. We talk about how racism was spoon-fed to us as normal, and how indoctrination separates people from themselves and the beautiful world around us.
3. Life Take Two channel, "How MAGA Destroyed My Life": https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vXQa7jW_QmY
4. Jennie's Substack: https://lifetaketwo.substack.com/p/i-was-a-white-supremacist?r=35knav&utm_medium=ios&triedRedirect=true
5. Business Insider Article: https://www.businessinsider.com/trad-wife-on-tiktok-shares-idyllic-lifestyle-risks-money-2024-3
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1. My first working title for this episode was: "Leaving Mormonism and Flying Frontier: What I Wish I Had to Survive." I think that sums it up! Storytimes are always fun, so sit back and let me tell you the tale of the girl who had to rebuild a nervous system from scratch. "That doesn't sound fun." What if I include my newest lore and hijinks without end? Great.
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Everyone be nice. It's a heavy time.

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