we thought growth would feel more straightforward than this. that we'd make progress, learn the lesson, and move on.

instead, we find ourselves revisiting the same struggles, dropping the ball, extending grace, receiving accountability, and discovering that transformation is a lot less linear than we expected.

in this episode, we're talking about the messy process of becoming and the tension between who we are and who we're growing into. we unpack what it looks like to disappoint yourself without letting it define you, why the mess is an invitation to be seen rather than to hide, and how learning to depend on Jesus often happens most deeply when we've run out of our own strength.

the process isn't broken.

the mess isn't evidence that we're failing.

it's where God does some of His deepest work.

journal prompt: where have I believed that growth should look perfect or linear?

what if rest isn’t something you earn… but something you’re invited into?

in the first episode of our summer of becoming season, we’re unpacking the discipline of rest: why slowing down can feel uncomfortable, what our culture glorifies, and how true rest goes far deeper than just taking a break.

we talk about the tension between striving and stillness, the fear of falling behind, and the reality that rest with God often looks different than what the world tells us it should. we also explore play, creativity, and joy as forms of rest… and how learning what genuinely restores you is part of growing in wholeness.

because maybe rest isn’t about doing nothing. maybe it’s about discovering what truly refills you, not just what looks restful from the outside.

journal prompt: what am I afraid will happen if I slow down?

italy made us question more than just travel.

in this episode, we talk about slowness, presence, ambition, community, beauty, and what happens when another culture makes you reconsider the way you’ve been living your life...

we recorded this conversation while hiking through the mountains, so consider the traffic noise, heavy breathing, and occasional chaos part of the experience.

march 9, 2026