Old patterns do not show up because you are failing. They show up because you are expanding.

In this episode, I take you inside a real time moment where I almost went back to a version of myself I had already outgrown. Not because I didn’t trust my vision or know where I was going, but because growth can feel unsafe to a nervous system that's acclimated to complete and utter chaos.

We talk about survival identity versus leadership identity, why familiarity gets mistaken for safety, and why doing more is often a trauma response rather than a strategy. If you have ever felt the urge to go backwards right before things start to move forward, this episode is your reminder to stay.

In this episode we will dive into:

>> Why old patterns surface right before expansion
>> The difference between survival identity and leadership identity
>> Why your nervous system prefers predictability over progress
>> Why more clients eventually become a ceiling (not a solution)
>> How expansion asks you to earn and lead differently

>> Why ease can feel more uncomfortable than burnout

Please know, if anything here resonated today, you do not have to navigate this season alone!

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If you’ve been forcing yourself to work harder, stay consistent, or keep up, then this episode is for you!

I’m naming what most women never get language for: forcing yourself doesn’t build success, it breaks trust with YOURSELF.

This isn’t a productivity-hack or hyped up type of episode.
It’s about how forcing yourself fractures identity, drains creativity, and teaches your nervous system that success equals pressure.

I’m sharing my own lived experience; the years of forcing routines that weren’t built for my brain, performing productivity, and wondering why success still felt heavy.

Inside this episode:
>> Why rebranding often becomes self-soothing
>> How forcing kills creativity and consistency
>> Why discipline feels violent for busy, creative brains
>> What leadership feels like when it’s steady instead of urgent

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Not every client is your client. And that is a good thing.

In this episode, I am coming in hot with a truth you need to hear. Your worth is not up for negotiation (ever).

I share a story from one of my CEO Circle women who stood firm in her boundaries and let a misaligned client gawked at her pricing and walked out when she found out about her waitlist... Instead, my client remained calm, and released that client with confidence. THIS is real leadership., and this is what it looks like to respect yourself and EMBODY your brand, in order to support yourself AND your business.

We talk about how and why your pricing is meant to act as a boundary, and why confidence is not so easy to find for the sake of performance, but a practice that bring you PEACE. We dive into what it means to stop outsourcing your power in order to be liked, accepted, or just to get paid.

This episode is for you if you have ever second-guessed your worth after a single comment. If you have ever lowered your prices or bent your process to avoid conflict. If you are ready to stop shrinking and start standing tall in your own energy.

Tune in now and remember this: the right people are not going to need to be convinced, they will HAPPILY reach out and throw money your way just for the change to work with you.

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In this episode, I’m starting the conversation so many of us are scared to have; the one about why slowing down feels like a threat instead of a gift. If you’ve ever tried to rest and found yourself fidgeting, doom-scrolling, or counting down the minutes with guilt in your gut, please know you’re NOT broken! You’ve been bracing...

This isn't just about rest. It's about the nervous system patterns, productivity trauma, and internalized pressure we carry, it's the old stories that tell us rest has to be earned, or justified in some way. That stillness is "lazy" or that slowing down means you will fall behind.

But here’s what I know - most of us weren’t taught how to receive rest. We were taught how to outperform the rest.

In this episode, I talk about:

>> Why rest can feel so damn unsafe

>> How to recognize the “guilty glitch” that keeps you running on fumes

>> Why your leadership depends on your ability to slow down and stay present

>> What real, resourced rest looks like (hint: it's not just spa days and white space)

>> The truth about rest as receptivity, and how that changes everything

This isn’t just a conversation. It’s a reclamation. Letting rest land is letting yourself be LOVED again. Listen now and let this be your permission slip to stop hustling for healing and start BEING yourself again.

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We are not broken. We are burnt the F out.

In this episode, we pull back the curtain on the kind of burnout that hides in plain sight. The kind that wears productivity like armor and fills calendars to avoid the stillness. If we’ve ever felt like we’re doing everything but going nowhere, we are not alone. We are not failing. We are just fried.

Burnout rarely looks like a breakdown. Most of the time, it shows up as success. People applaud our packed schedules and call it ambition, but inside, we are holding our breath and bracing through the day. We are running marathons we never trained for. And it is exhausting.

This conversation is a reclaiming. We name what over-functioning really is and why we have been taught to hustle even when our bodies are screaming for rest. We explore what it means to lead with capacity, not collapse. We do not need more willpower. We need wisdom. We need a nervous system that feels safe enough to stop performing and start healing.

We are not broken. We are bracing. And we get to do things differently now.

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What if burnout wasn’t a sign to burn it all down but a sacred invitation to come home to yourself?

In this episode, we're going to flip the burnout BS script, because maybe you do not need a total identity collapse, another dramatic pivot, or a flashy rebrand.. Maybe the fire you have been trying to reignite isn't smothered like you thought, but rather buried under the years of misplaced performance, pressure, and pretending.

This is your permission slip to STOP building from some half-baked attempt to survive the real world and start building from what is TRUE!

Let's unpack what it means to evolve WITHOUT erasing yourself (or any part of your history).

In this episode we will explore:

>> Why some seasons make you want to set fire to your work and why the real work is about tuning the frequency back to YOU!

>> AND Speak to the high-achieving creatives and leaders who feel out of sync with their own vision and offers a path back to a healthy senses of whole hearted-ness.

No more scrapping it all, just to bust your booty starting over AGAIN.. and no more pretending to be who you never were in the first place.

Because when you lead from identity, not optics, you do not just sustain the work; the work starts to sustain you.

You don't need a new strategy., you need a new standard - which begins with rebuilding from the woman, not the wound.

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This episode is your call to stop performing and start being. If showing up leaves you feeling drained, disconnected, or like you're constantly editing yourself in real time, then this one is for you!

We explore:

• >> The true cost of performing a version of you that was never real to begin with

• >> How masking shows up even when you're "being authentic"

  >> Why visibility without vulnerability just isn’t enough anymore

• >> What it actually looks and feels like to lead from your truth

  >>How to stop hiding in plain sight and let the real you speak

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  You don’t need a new strategy. You need your whole dang self - actually leading from YOUR heart, YOUR soul, and owning who TF you are, SiSTAR!

  
  

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You’re Not Lost... You Were Never Allowed to Be YOU!

What if you’ve never been lost, but rather buried under years of being told who or how to be?

In this powerful episode, Jeska breaks down the truth about identity, masking, people-pleasing, and the myth of “losing yourself.”

We cover:

• > Why most women feel lost when they were never supported to be themselves

  > How early conditioning and masking shape our sense of worth

  > The exhaustion of over-functioning and scanning every room

  > The identity crash so many high-functioning, undiagnosed women experience

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  It’s time to stop proving and start BEING YOU, again.

  
  

  Listen now, take off the mask, and lead from your truth.

  
  

  📲 Reach out to me directly in the DMs on instagram (⁠@xoheartlab⁠) or by email at hello@xoheartlab.com to share what landed for you today!

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