In this episode, I get into something I think a lot of people carry around quietly: the relationship between self-awareness and the body. Specifically, my relationship with my skin, my relationship with exercise, and the moment I realised the patterns I had in one area were showing up everywhere else too.

From cystic acne and the all-or-nothing approach to skincare, to avoiding the gym because I couldn't bear to be seen not being good at something, I reflect on how much of what I was doing to "take care" of myself was actually about trying to earn something: desirability, validation, the right to take up space.

I also get into the beauty standards I absorbed growing up, from Disney Channel and Nickelodeon to early 2000s culture, and a conversation I came across online that made me realise the standard I'd been measuring myself against wasn't universal. It was constructed. And I'd never once questioned it.

This episode also introduces a new recurring segment, Uncomfortably Honest, where I say the thing I probably would have softened or talked around a few sentences ago.

If you've ever done all the right things for completely the wrong reasons, this one's for you.

Disclaimer: This episode discusses skin picking, body image, weight loss, fitness and appearance.

In this episode, I talk about the idea of being perceived, and how something as small as a throwaway comment can completely shape the way you see yourself.

From internalising being called “boring” to unknowingly building a personality around it, I reflect on how easy it is to adopt narratives that were never really ours to begin with. I get into confirmation bias, identity, social media, and the subtle ways we start performing versions of ourselves we think people expect.

If you’ve ever questioned whether you’re actually being yourself, or just living according to how you think you’re perceived, this one’s for you.

In this episode, I talk about why “cringe” is often just confidence we haven’t built yet. How secondhand embarrassment can be a reaction to visibility, vulnerability, or joy. And why so many of us stop ourselves from doing the things we want to do because we are worried about how they will look to other people.

This episode is about letting yourself be seen. About doing things without rehearsing every possible reaction. And about realising that free will is reason enough, especially when something brings you happiness and harms no one.

In this episode, I talk about a realisation that slowly settled with me: free will is reason enough. I reflect on why we feel the need to justify our choices, rest, boundaries, and decisions, and how over-explaining often comes from wanting understanding rather than permission. This episode explores people-pleasing, honesty, and what it means to let “because I want to” be a complete sentence.

In this episode, I talk about the moment a very simple realisation finally clicked for me: no one is coming to do it for you. I reflect on how this shifted my mindset at the end of university, the transition into adulthood, and what it really means to take responsibility for your own choices without turning it into pressure or perfectionism. This episode is about awareness, agency, and the slow, unglamorous work of doing things for yourself.

In this episode, I talk about the first time I realised I needed to change something about myself. It wasn’t dramatic or life-altering, just a small behaviour that didn’t sit right anymore. I reflect on how telling tiny white lies became a habit, why it felt uncomfortable, and how choosing honesty became my first real act of self-awareness. This episode is about noticing, sitting with discomfort, and choosing to do things differently. This is where it all started for me.

In this intro episode, I talk about why I started this podcast and what I actually mean when I say self awareness sucks. I share where this idea came from, why growth and doing “the work” can be exhausting, and why there is no real finish line. This episode sets the foundation for honest conversations about reflection, communication, and learning how to live with awareness without shrinking yourself.