By 22, Amanda Lawrence had four DUIs, multiple arrests, and had failed out of college twice. The dreams she once had — law school, a future, a plan — were buried under drugs, alcohol, and a three-day party that ended in an overdose.

She woke up in her apartment that Christmas and looked in the mirror. She had no idea who she was looking at.

That was 2006.

Today, Amanda holds a master's degree in clinical mental health counseling. She founded Haia Ministries, which offers mentorship, faith-integrated counseling, and is opening a sober living discipleship home for women. She's living proof that God meets us in our lowest moments — and doesn't leave us there.

In this conversation, Amanda shares it all: the childhood sexual abuse that started her running, the darkness that almost took her out, the woman named Carolyn who loved her without an agenda, and the moment she finally surrendered.

If you're in a season where you feel too far gone, this episode is for you. You're not.

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Moses wasn't in trouble when God found him. He wasn't in crisis. He was just... hiding. Comfortable in Midian. Forty years into a life that was never meant to be his destination.

I think a lot of women are living in Midian right now.

This podcast is for the woman who feels like she's been on a scavenger hunt — searching for pieces of herself that got lost somewhere along the way. But I don't think you're searching for someone new. I think you're ready to reclaim the woman God called you to be from the very beginning.

Barefoot Conversations is not polished. Some stories might offend you. Some might be hard to hear. But if you're really listening, you'll hear God drop something on your heart.

Take off your sandals. This is holy ground.

I'm Rachel D. Fox. Episode one drops February 20th.

Her dad died when she was five. Her mom was kicked out of church and told God was punishing her. Andrea grew up without boundaries, without faith, and without anyone showing her what love looked like.

By 14, she ran away. By 15, she was in a home for troubled youth. One night, she jumped off a bridge and broke her leg. Her brother spent the entire night writing her a letter — because he thought she was dead.

In this episode, Andrea shares the decade she spent desperately hoping God was real. The night she was attacked in her apartment and knew He was. The 3 AM moment on a porch where God whispered, "Be still." The move to a tiny town in Iowa where she met her husband a month later. And the cancer diagnosis that arrived three days before she boarded a plane to Hawaii.

This is a story about body image and shame. About gaining 45 pounds on medication and learning that beauty isn't a size — it's a story. About a season where all God asked her to do was breathe.

If you've ever looked in the mirror and struggled to love what you see — this one's for you.

Guest: Andrea Mathes — With Light and Lens Photography (withlightandlens.com) Host: Rachel D. Fox

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She moved to LA with a dream and a packed car. She ended up in rooms most people will never see — label meetings, industry deals, opportunities that looked like gold. But behind the glitter was something darker. In this episode, Ciara shares what the music industry almost took from her — her integrity, her peace, her faith. She talks about the proposition that would have cost her everything, the abusive relationship that left her jaw twisted, the prophetic warnings she couldn't shake, and the studio fire that changed everything. This is a story about chasing something that glitters and discovering it was never what it seemed. About spiritual warfare disguised as opportunity. About a man named Samuel who told her, "God is waiting for you by the well. It's time to come home." If you've ever felt lost in the pursuit of something — this one's for you. Guest: Ciara Lee-Blackstone Host: Rachel D. Fox Apply to share your story: https://forms.gle/4N5hrWWcFWKjvpPB9