Love is the biggest taboo in sex work. Not sex. Not money. But feelings.

In this solo episode, I talk about what happens when the line between professional intimacy and real feelings becomes blurred. When does curated availability suddenly become... something that feels real?

I talk about dates where I no longer knew whether I was being paid or whether it was just nice. About post-date blues that feel like heartbreak. And about an American in senior military service who taught me a lesson about non-monogamy and charisma.

What makes a client dangerous? Not their appearance. But the way they listen. How they leave space. How they see your needs without you having to express them.

And then the big question: can I even love as an escort? Am I allowed to? And if so, at what price?

In the end, it's all about the Holy Grail: being emotionally available without becoming vulnerable. And why mastering this art leads to a rebirth of one's own self.

Trigger warning: emotional depth, personal vulnerability, and quite a few uncomfortable truths about love, control and self-sufficiency.

You've been waiting four weeks for this, Sherlocks. And trust me - it was worth it. In Part 2, I confess how a philosophy professor turned intellectual debate into foreplay, how forced cuddling broke down walls I didn't even know I'd built, and how I discovered that my brain might be my most powerful sex organ. From performance mode to pure presence. From power games to tantra. This is where it gets deep - in every sense of the word.

How do Australian clients differ from European ones? Why does the DACH region have such a thing for "amateurs"? And what does cultural attitude toward kink reveal about deeper societal patterns? Sienna Carlisle – trans escort, domme, and someone who actually lives between Berlin, London, Melbourne and Sydney - joins me for a conversation that decodes international sex work from the inside. Smart, layered, and unapologetically honest.

What happens when the things that terrify you are also the things that turn you on the most? In this episode, I take you from my vanilla beginnings into the world of power play, rope, and psychological domination - and why sometimes the best sex happens when you stop trying to be in control

This week, Lyra Bergmann is here to talk about something most people spend their whole lives avoiding: the moment you realize sex work didn't just change your job - it fundamentally rewired how you see every relationship you'll ever have. From dating to friendships to the uncomfortable truth about what financial freedom actually unlocks, Lyra's not holding back. And whether escorts can still have "real" connections after this work? Well, settle in because the answer might surprise you more than you'd like to admit.

Everyone's heard of the girlfriend experience. But what most people think it means? That's not even close. It's not about kissing during a booking or being sweet between the sheets. It's not a menu item you tick off alongside other services. And it's definitely not what I thought it was when I first tried to offer it years ago - back when I had absolutely no idea what I was getting myself into. This week, we're unpacking one of the most misunderstood services in the entire industry. What it actually takes to deliver. Why men pay hundreds, sometimes thousands, for it. And where the line between performance and reality becomes so blurred that even I can't always tell the difference anymore.

Because here's the thing nobody talks about: girlfriend experience isn't just a service. It's a mirror. It reflects back something most people don't want to admit about what they actually want from intimacy - paid or otherwise. And once you see it, you can't unsee it. So if you've ever wondered what's really being bought and sold when someone books GFE, or what it costs the person providing it, this episode will give you answers you weren't expecting. Welcome back to the pleasure dome, Sherlocks. Let's dive in.

Two escorts walk into a conversation about male desire. No, this isn't a joke - it's an autopsy. Elisa Carbo teams up with Eve Allegra, a red-headed Frankfurt accountant who moonlights in an industry where men's masks slip faster than their pants. Together, they dissect years of patterns, contradictions, and the things clients whisper in the dark but would never say at dinner parties.

Turns out, most bookings aren't about sex. They're about technical museum dates, strawberry picking, and the rare luxury of not having to perform strength. But here's where it gets interesting: what men say they want and what makes them come back are two entirely different animals.

In this premiere episode of Hedonista English Edition, I take you back to where it all began - from a well-behaved girl in the German countryside to an independent escort who chose this life deliberately. You'll hear about my first escort date with sweaty palms and racing heart, the moment I realized intimacy without the hunting game changes everything, and why my conservative grandmother compared my work to Jesus's teachings. This isn't a story of desperation - it's a confession of freedom, desire, and the courage to become exactly who I was meant to be.