Less than 10 minutes into recording and the inner critic already showed up.

NOT Episode FOUR captures something most creators never say out loud — the moment perfectionism walks in mid-creation. The ring tapping the phone. The urge to edit. The voice that says is this good enough?

Derrick names it in real time. And something interesting happens: the moment he names it, it starts to fade.

In this not-episode:

• What happens when perfectionism shows up 10 minutes into a creative session
• Why naming your inner critic out loud is enough to defuse it
• The part of your brain that's trying to protect you — and why you don't have to listen to it
• Why a two-minute episode is just as valid as any other

Short. Honest. And proof that keeping on is always the move.

This Is NOT a PODCAST! is hosted by not-your-host Derrick Yanford — meditation teacher, coach, choreographer, author, and recovering perfectionist. New not-episodes drop every Tuesday. Subscribe on Substack at substack.com/@dureeko

No espresso yet. Three episodes in. Still going.

NOT Episode THREE is a dare — to the listener and to himself. If this isn't for you, turn it off. No hard feelings. And if it is? Welcome.

This one gets into something real: what it actually feels like to exist unapologetically, without code-switching, without performing, without shrinking into whatever shape someone else needs you to be. Plus — Derrick issues himself a challenge: record all the way to NOT Episode TEN without listening back to a single one.

In this not-episode:

• The freedom of truly not caring if you turn it off
• What "unapologetically me" actually feels like as a lived experience
• The unglamorous, normal, sometimes boring parts of life — and the beauty inside them
• Why he's committing to zero editing, zero listening back, zero second-guessing

Raw. Unfiltered. Created and released — just to see what happens.

This Is NOT a PODCAST! is hosted by not-your-host Derrick Yanford — meditation teacher, coach, choreographer, author, and recovering perfectionist. New not-episodes drop every Tuesday. Subscribe on Substack at substack.com/@dureeko

Recorded less than 60 seconds after NOT Episode ONE — because why wait?

NOT Episode TWO is where the experiment starts to reveal itself. No espresso yet. No agenda. Just an honest conversation about what it means to stop performing and start being.

As Derrick approaches his 50th birthday, one thing becomes undeniably clear: there's no more time to be anyone other than exactly who he is. Raw, unedited, and unapologetically real — this is what freedom sounds like in practice.

In this not-episode:

• Why the format gets to change from episode to episode — and why that's the whole point
• The difference between performing and being, and why one gets exhausting
• What turning 50 has to do with finally choosing freedom
• Why unpolished, unfiltered, and uncut is actually the preference

Three minutes. Long pauses included. No apologies.

This Is NOT a PODCAST! is hosted by not-your-host Derrick Yanford — meditation teacher, coach, choreographer, author, and recovering perfectionist. New not-episodes drop every Tuesday. Subscribe on Substack at substack.com/@dureeko