Episodes

  • When Trauma Shows Up in Your Nightmares
    Jan 11 2026

    Nightmares can feel confusing, unsettling, and sometimes even more exhausting than being awake. In this episode, I talk about how trauma can surface through our dreams, why the nervous system uses sleep to process what we haven’t had space to feel, and how nightmares aren’t a sign that you’re broken, but that something inside you is trying to be understood. If you’ve ever woken up shaken, emotional, or carrying a feeling you can’t quite explain, this conversation is for you.

    Disclaimer:

    I am not a medical or mental health professional. The content shared in this episode is based solely on my personal experiences, reflections, and lived perspective. This episode is not intended to diagnose, treat, or replace professional medical or mental health care.

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    15 mins
  • The Shame We Carry About Survival
    Jan 6 2026

    In this episode, I talk about the shame many of us carry around the ways we learned to survive. Whether it was shutting down, numbing out, or staying too long, those choices weren’t weakness. They were protection. I share a simple, grounding reframe you can use in the moment to soften self-judgment and remind yourself that healing happens by choosing yourself, one small step at a time.

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    8 mins
  • New Year, No Pressure
    Jan 1 2026

    The new year doesn’t require a new version of you. In this episode, I talk about releasing the pressure to fix everything at once and choosing a slower, gentler way to heal. If you’re feeling tired, overwhelmed, or unsure how to move forward, this is your reminder that taking things one day at a time is enough.

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    9 mins
  • When You No Longer Recognize Yourself After Trauma
    Dec 29 2025

    There’s a moment after trauma where you look at your life, your reactions, even your reflection and think, Who am I now?

    In this episode, I talk about what it feels like to lose touch with the version of yourself you used to know and the grief that comes with that. We explore why this disconnection happens, how survival changes us, and why not recognizing yourself doesn’t mean you’re broken. It means you adapted.

    This episode is for anyone who feels quieter, guarded, or different after what they’ve been through and is learning how to reconnect without rushing the process.

    You’re not lost. You’re in transition. And this part of the journey matters.

    You’re not broken. You’re becoming.


    Disclaimer:

    I am not a doctor, therapist, or medical professional. This podcast is based on my lived experience and what has helped me along the way. The content shared is for informational and educational purposes only and is not intended to replace professional medical, mental health, or legal advice. Always seek support from qualified professionals when needed.


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    8 mins
  • When Surviving Isn't the Same as Living
    Dec 29 2025

    In this episode, I talk about what it was like to live in survival mode while still inside an abusive relationship and how that state quietly stole moments I can never get back.

    I share how trauma kept me focused on getting through the day rather than truly being present as a mother, and the grief that comes with realizing parts of motherhood were experienced through fear, exhaustion, and self-protection instead of joy and connection.

    This episode isn’t about blame or shame. It’s about naming what survival costs, especially when you’re parenting while trying to stay safe, and honoring the strength it took to endure without minimizing the loss that came with it.

    If you’ve ever looked back and felt like pieces of your life or motherhood were taken from you because you were surviving, this episode is for you.

    You did the best you could with what you had. And your story doesn’t end there.

    You’re not broken. You’re becoming.


    Disclaimer:

    I am not a doctor, therapist, or medical professional. This podcast is based on my lived experience and what has helped me along the way. The content shared is for informational and educational purposes only and is not intended to replace professional medical, mental health, or legal advice. Always seek support from qualified professionals when needed.

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    14 mins
  • Why Pain Repurposed Exists and Who It's For
    Dec 29 2025

    This is the beginning of Pain Repurposed.

    In this first episode, I share why this podcast exists and who it’s truly for. Not in a polished, inspirational way. But in an honest one.

    Pain Repurposed was created for anyone who has lived through trauma, loss, abuse, or a season that changed them and left them feeling disconnected from who they used to be. It’s for the people who look “okay” on the outside, but inside are quietly rebuilding. For those navigating healing while parenting, choosing sobriety as a form of self-protection, and learning how to trust themselves again.

    In this episode, I talk about what helped me, what didn’t, and why healing doesn’t need to be rushed, forced, or performative. This is a trauma-informed, lived-experience space focused on transformation, not perfection.

    If you’ve ever felt like you survived something but don’t quite know how to live after it, you’re in the right place.

    You don’t need to have the right words. You don’t need to be “fixed.” You just need to show up.

    This is where pain begins to take on a new purpose.

    You’re not broken. You’re becoming.


    Disclaimer:

    I am not a doctor, therapist, or medical professional. This podcast is based on my lived experience and what has helped me along the way. The content shared is for informational and educational purposes only and is not intended to replace professional medical, mental health, or legal advice. Always seek support from qualified professionals when needed.

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    7 mins