I always hoped I would find love again but I started to doubt if I ever would. The desire in my heart grew in the waiting but so did my loneliness and frustration. Was God hearing my prayers? How much longer would I need to wait? Was I asking for too much? Did God have a plan for me to love someone?

And then one day Jesse walked into my life and the questions I had been asking started to get answered. God was making sense out of nonsense, no detail overlooked. God had been crafting and curating a love story, in His perfecting timing, and wait that now felt worth it.

In this episode Jesse and I talk about:

• A full surrender that lead to finding and falling in love
• Dating from a male’s perspective
• The evolution of dating from your teens to adulthood
• God’s refinement in the waiting
• What it's like dating a widow
• The benefits and challenges of long distance dating
• Dating with intentionality

Show notes.

33 and widowed.

Something I never thought would be part of my story. I found love at a young age and skipped over the whole dating scene. I never imagined I'd be in the dating pool in my mid 30s after my husband Daryn passed away. 

I am absolutely, 100% the anti expert in dating but I hope that my experiences can provide the same survival guide of sorts that others have given me. Dating has been nothing like what I expected it to be. I remember feeling so clueless and awkwardly learning my way through the world of dating apps, first dates and meeting new people.

It's been hard (like really hard) but also a crash course in learning so much about myself, what I was really looking for and trusting God with the outcome (that last one has been real tricky if I'm being honest...).

In this (vulnerable) episode I talk about:

- What I learned from my marriage to Daryn and how it kept my heart open to love again
- Navigating dating apps and awkward first dates
- Overcoming heart ache when things aren't as they seem
- Lonely nights and feeling left behind
- Guarding your heart in the waiting
- The check list of what I finally learned to look for
- What 90 days of surrender taught me and led me to (hint...who it led me to ;) )

Show Notes.

I wondered if I would ever come to a resting spot. Life has been moving in warp speed but also slow motion, constant chaos and heaviness. But also so much growth and refinement. So much leaning into God and learning about the depths of me through the depth of my creator.

But then one day, ever so slowly the fog lifts. It’s so subtle and drawn out you don’t even notice it at first. The momentum slows and your world opens up again. The corners aren’t as jagged. The pain isn’t as drastic. The breaths aren’t as shallow.

I’m ok?!

I’m ok. 

It’s been so long since I felt this feeling. I want to close my fists around it but I know the secret is keeping them open to it.

Tune in now as I share about moving into a new season, a new relationship and new roles as I reflect back on where I've been and where God's brought me now. Not because of anything I did or because I was deserving but because that’s what God does: He remakes. He renews. He rebuilds. He restores.

Show Notes.